[[ living my life to the fullest - blessed. *

shifted!

2009-02-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

I've officially shifted to WordPress.com @ ccorey.Wordpress.com .

Reason being:
1. Wordpress doesnt require me to log in everytime.
2. Logging in doesnt need me to type in my long email.
3. It's way neater
4. Doesnt need much management.
5. user-friendly - I hope.

HAHA.

okie dokie. see me @ ccorey.wordpress.com
I've posted quite alot already. check it out kay?! =)

Will come back if i feel like adopting a new skin from some websites. heeeh.

Bye. see ya @ wordpress.

2009-02-13T17:44:00.000-08:00

recently had our Bizart 1 CG at Bedok Joo Chiat CC KTV. Wow, i must say our CG comprise of diversed people ranging from quiet ones, to noisy ones. Crazy ones to serious ones. No matter what we might be, God have a plan for us, a plan to grow each and everyone of us to the one that called us to be.

God is going to use all of us, none will be left behind, to do his work, to be a light that shines his name in TP design, TP business, Any other place! we will shine!

heeeee.

This week, also had bizart 3A farewell. wow, it's been like almost 6 months or more that bizart 3A got together as a group. There's alot we've been thru, good and bad. No matter what, I thank God for this group that bondedd us closely, growed us all in different aspects. looking back the path, I believe, we've all become stronger in christ and closer to one another. For me, I have changed my attitudes, character for the better.

I thank God for all he have planned and installed.

valentines today, gonna spend it with my loved ones. MY CG memb. heeeeehs. Okay, see ya. gtg out now. BYE!

2009-02-08T19:44:00.000-08:00

wow, was being said by geckting i think that i post 3 picture was about to start my post, but i just said i going off soon. wooohoo. HAA!

okay, let me recall the events that i've been to recently... hmmmms.

First day of CNY

Stayed at home waiting for relatives to visit and spent a great time understanding on another and knowing each other's life!

Second day of CNY

Went over to m'sia eearly in the morning and reached at around noon. Following are the pictures taken over at M'sia. with cusy, all of them indeed have changed quite a massive bit! =)

came back and den had school, for the next few days followed by service and restructure.

Well restructure was quite a massive one and for me, it'll be another journey with God. Yes, i foresee alot of problems to handle and I have to learn to handle, have the right attitude and most importantly, grow my relationship with God. when I am sensitive to God's calling, God's voice and holy spirit's prompting. Well, I think there's alot more for me to pick up and to continually move on and on out of comfort zone. - expanding my comfort zone.

Okay, just went house visiting with the KUKUs yesterday. It's been so long since i last met up with them. didnt manage to go chalet with them due to service and duty. well, there are still chances eh! =))

Went to gwen's house first, den to serene's house for steamboat which is also at shirley's block, den lastly went to samsam's house for mahjong! Wow, from 11am-11pm we spent our times together. it was indeed a v. fruitful time yeaa! =) below are the pictures. alot more to be uploaded, but i know kaili will upload them. hiakhiak.=)

Okay, gotta go school now. see ya people!

2009-02-04T21:45:00.000-08:00

i`m a procastinator when it comes to blogging this few days! I was already on this page that i'm typing.

Well welll well, it was before new year that i last posted? wow. so long ago eh. well well. my maid left, and a new maid came. hmms. well, i think my house cannot do without a domestic helper.

recently there's so much things installed for me. Testings esp..

Haha. Okay, let's talk about chinese new year then.

wow, it's a fun-filled and different new year spent this year. Had bizart reunion on the saturday before new year eve.

okay. shall post again. gtg for now. see ya people!

2009-01-21T08:25:00.000-08:00

I`m Sick! currently studying for Test tml!

My dearest daddy!
Use a brroom and chase away monster nose.
use a fan and blow away headache monster.
Use a vacuum cleaner and suck away my hot hot head!

Thank you! xDD

okay, back to studying.

God heals amen!

2009-01-20T04:19:00.000-08:00

I have a great burden for my family now..

My maid is going back home already. her Dad is having some critical situation recently. Heard from her she didnt wanted to leave, she even want to study in Singapore.. But this have to happen. I feel so lost for her. She cant bear to go back, as she's already part of our family. we didnt bear for her to leave too. My sister cried, my dad also cried. Well, not that we're crazy or what, but she's really a very very nice girl. I have never regarded her as my maid, but as my sister. As my close family one. I see the way my family feels towards her departure, Indeed, a surge of sadness overwhelmed me. I dunno why, but I really cant bear to let her go. Realised how she've been doing many jobs that we do not know how to do if she's leaving. Who's going to bring my sister to school- my sis want my dad to drive her now. ( my dad is already v. tired out) who's going to help my dad makes the food for sale whilst my dad goes for work? who's going to help my dad pay for his bill? who's going to help my dad to run errand? which maid will understand my grandma? who will be able to take care of my dog well. I can bath the dog, but diamond's reliance on my maid is way too close. diamond wont sleep, till she sees my maid. that's how close she's with my maid. haix.

She became a christian after she joined our family to work. She also converted her parents through her strong and persistent faith. How great is our God. even moving till this extend. No one can denies the power of God that's working amongst people's heart.

Recently I noticed how my Dad is staring into space without reacting to the situation. He would not smile , he would just frown, he would just get worried. I see his haggard and tired face, I realised my Dad aged. I havent been realising, how much my dad have worked and pushed himself to get up and chiong the whole day just for the whole family. I really want to do my part. but, no matter how much I do, my dad just wont stop working for a single day. he's not even smiling now. I know there's a problem in him. I know he have a heart issue, heart knot that he wont want to reveal. Right now, seeing him crying becus of my maid's departure, it greatly affected him much more. Without my families realisation, my auntie-my maid, have slowly been doing half of what my dad suppose to do. She's been a great helper of my dad, be it in my dad's business, or in our house, she'll really take care of it. she always do her best, and never allow her emotions to affect her in any way. My dad, is been hit with this fact. no matter how much my dad wanna stay her, my maid wouldnt, her family is quite in a drait state. it made me realise how much i wanna help in this family. i feel so so so burdened, i know my dad is freddiing over money issue, family issue and all issues. but yet, i do not know how to help him other than to do my part. I want to do beyond my part, but I dont know how. I want to see joy in my family, i want to see happiness in my family, but so many issues are coming up, it seems so impossible to have events to get together. chinese new year is coming, but yet, this first day of lunar new year, my mum wants to do business, this means my dad , my mum wont be able to spend the new year with me. Yes, money is important, but to me, I believe God will bless. my dad do not want to start the business, but my mum insisted. What can we say and what can we do.

Looking at my grandma, she's aged 88 now, she've reduced the no. of times she go to the market from 3-2-1 now.. she's not as strong as before. she's not as energetic as before. she's weaker, she's tired, she's old already. Seeing at these situation, i really feel lost, feel i dunno where to start from..

Father,
I desperately pray for protection over my family, over every single situation that might be happening. Take control, let your power reign. I want to pray that my maid's dad will recover upon your healing powers so that she'll be able to pursue her interest, her love in studying. I would want to pray for my dad lord, Lord, let my dad realise, money is not all that matter, yes, we need them, we cannot live without it, but you've said, even those birds in the sky are fed by You, are we not as important as they? God, I know you're looking, I know you're in control. I want to pray for Joy in my family Lord... my mum is not a christian, I pray for her conversion Lord.. my dad have left you for a long time, and is lost in the world now, Lord, pick him up, bring him back into your embrance Lord! I pray for my grandma that God you'll strengthen her as she goes and to complete much more of your work in her whole lifetime Lord. she's a faithful servant of yours, she've done her very part to see her whole family, her sons, daughters, grandchildrens being baptized in the name of Jesus christ Lord. Your power and your awesomeness have been witness in her whole life. Continue to help her and strengthen her Lord, let her health be a great testimony to the world Lord! I pray for my brother's and sister's salvation too Lord, they've lost their way in christ once again, Lord, select them, choose them. For God, I believe you'll continue to search for them and seek for them till they come back to you Lord. I will do my part, and let your will be done. God I pray for all, take charge and use me Lord.

Amen.

2009-01-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

One year ago, on 14th of January, was the day that i set free, was also the day that i dont understand till today. It's sort of a time where i was really down, really upset, really broke down completely. Till today, i dont understand. what was the mistake that created so much misunderstanding between the both of us. But I saw how i changed, when i Let you Go, when i let my Heart be set free. yes, it hurts, but what could i do at that point of time? What else could i saw?

I thank God for a renewed life. I thank God for a refreshed life. I thank God for all that he've installed in my life. Without God i think i am stil in the lost world trying to reach to him.. which would lead me to nowhere. I Thank God for picking me up once again. How God changed my life amazed me to the max..

From a girl who cannot stop hurling vulgarities to someone who stopped her vulgarities.
From a girl who hated her family to someone who is adoring her family.
From a girl who yearn for every single possessions to someone who shed off her belongings.
From a girl who's alway wants others to please her to be someone who is pleasing God.
From a girl who do not know where i am going to someone who is rest assured in God's plans.

God can change life, he can also transform life! amen!

I believe deep down in our hearts sometimes we feel pek chek if we keep talking to someone and that person avoids u for a year and is still persistent in ignoring you, you'll definitely feel upset. for that person maybe someone whom you really want to speak to at some point of time.
I've been experiencing this.. and i realise something diff. when i came to know God.. no matter how many times i failed God, God will not say, " i am angry, i will ignore you.." God stil listened! be it as a sinner, as a child of God, as someone who feels ashamed to face God, he still listened! i think it'll be tough for me to listen to someone who made me angry and upset. But God doesnt just listen, but he provides a way out, he provides for us! Thank God yeaaa?!

I thank God for my changed life :
To be a transformed life that can transform lives.

2009-01-11T08:41:00.000-08:00

WAAi think my blog is lacking of colours.. PHOTOS!

let's see what i have.

okay. recently went K-ing with these(fromleft)babe, pretty girl, model-like figure, chio bu, gorgeous... whatever u can use to describe these few fabulous girls in my life!

Thank God for the willingnest this people have to work for God, to bring Hope & Light to the lost! although the process might not be easy, it's tough, i dun deny that, but till the end, we're not working for anything in return, we're working because, we Love our Father! i`m sure many are working for our heavenly Father! let's not give up and run towards the eternal prize! the Gift of Salvation!! woohooo~

Thank you girls! let's continue to run and run and run much moree! till the extend like we're running for sosuke - in ponyo, such that ponyo run and run and wont stop till she reaches sosuke! so we must run and run & wont stop till we reach eternal life! =)

see how much i've changed. my life changed, from yea you can see, to someone who doesnt need to bother about how people will look at her. =) awesome man! i applaud God!

tada~

aniwae i seem outdated, but i watched ponyo today, it's v. nice lor. i went round singing ponyo song to people. it doesnt bring a lil happiness to people! do watch it people. i rate it a 10/5 stars! that explains how nice it is. maybe for me .. well, perceptions! but to me, it's really a very very very nice showw~!

PONYOO~

ponyo ponyo ponyo sakana no ko
aoi umi kara yatte kita
ponyo ponyo ponyo fukuranda
manmaru onaka no onna noko

okay. go do stuff le. bye!

2009-01-09T06:50:00.001-08:00

you are my strength when i am weak,
you are the treasure that i seek.
you are my all in all...

seeking you as a precious jewel
Lord to give up i'll be a fool
you are my all in all....

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is your name..
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is your name..

Taking my sin my cross my shame
rising again i bless your name
you are my all in all..

When i fall down you pick me up
when i am down you fill my cup
You are my all in all...

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is your name..
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is your name..

yes Lord, you are my all in all. I heard you Lord, i heard your strong and mightly voice. Lord, here I am, at your disposal Daddy... use me Dad.. I love you Daddy.

2009-01-08T04:36:00.000-08:00

hey yo! haha. been quite some times since i last posted. saw a few blog that makes me feel inspired and i want to post.. hoho.

my new year resolution, i think it's abit late / redundant to post now. haha. but oh well, shall keep myself reminded.

In this new year I would want to achieve the following resolution:
1. To lead a healthy lifestyle! - doing sports once a week.
2. To grow closer w God.
3. To get better GPA.
4. Continue learning HipHop.
5. Save enough money to pay for believer's music lessons and camps etc.
6. Family salvation.
7. To strain towards what is ahead, not to look back all the time.
8. To polish up my singing so as to minister better.
9. To be a CL by this year - for i want to further advance the kingdom.
10. To go to where my Father calls me to!

I think recently i found out something that i have never been able to let go. I've refreshed myself to go even further to advance the kingdom! i always have a wrong idea towards my calling, towards my view of this pastorial thing. as i pour out to God, God poured out to me too.

In the past, i thought things are all stagnant and rigid. it's systematic in terms of growing and doing more for God.. then i realise it doesnt even matter about what are the rules set / what are the format like, but it's where God can lead me to , it's where I can go for God.. the bottom line for all - my identity in chirst , i`m a child of God. that's all. I`m not invincible, i`m not a wondergirl, i`m not any super person. I`m a child of God. my capability, my ability is not due to my past experience, my special magics or wadever. but my capability and ability comes from God.. i am not who i am without his moulding. i am not gonna succeed without his plans. i am not going to be here today without his promises.

how great is our God, how great is my God!

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Promises, what are promises? Thousands, hundreds of promises have been made to me and have been made by me but none of them really last.

this song just came to my mind and i feel so amazed once again ...
" A thousand times i failed, still your mercy remains, should i stumble again, i`m caught in your grace...everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades.. never ending your glory goes beyond all fame...."
How have i been walking in christ? Have i been walking in the light? have i been walking blindly? have i been walking sideways?

promises. so close to our hearts, but yet not tied in my heart. Times have gone, there might be hurts, misunderstandings, upsets and anger. But all this fails to compare to God's grace & God's love. Have we learnt to really love like how God can love us? Have we really learn to forgive like God can forgive us? how much have we been walking with christ?

I believe humans we all sinned, and when sins come in, we'll do wrong things and stuff. yes, it's bad, it's ugly, it's unforgivable but God ERASED it all. why? why was he so kind? why is God able to tolerate? why is God able to wash it away? - Because God really love us to the max.

Can you tolerate someone badmouthing about you? can you tolerate someone taking away your toys? can you tolerate people judging you and criticising you?

Do you know God Love all people even those who badmouth about him. God love all of us even thought we have took his blessings. God loves us all even thought we have criticized him before.

We = tolerate.
God = Love.

Compare tolerate & love. I believe tolerate is to keep within yourself certain emotions certain actions and just siliently bear it yourself. Love is to forgive and wash away all the emotions and actions and exchange it with care and concern.

who are we to judge, who are we to complain, who are we to grumble, who are we to gossip, who are we to get upset when God have not done that to us. God never complain that it is difficult to take care of us. God never treated us differently becus i`m shorter /fatter/ more dumb...

all in all, i really would wish to say, my actions may have failed some, other's actions might have failed me. But why not shed it all off, but look at how God have accepted it all. why are we running this race? is it because it's fun? the community is great, or because of God... this is the basic/ the fundamental, but strangely, when we're running this race, we tend to not keep this reason with us.

God, i have failed you times and times again. I really thank you for not leaving, not forsaking me, for your love . hurt but God, you've heal the broken hearted. God, where would i be without you... where would i be....

Many times i feel so lost, but u never fail to shine ur light. Many times i feel like giving up, but u never fail to pick me up.. many times i feel like letting go, but u never fail to grab onto me tightly never letting me go. God i've failed you so many times, forgive me Father.

stir in the hearts of the lost, mend the broken hearted, bring the scattered sheeps back again, envision the shepherds, shine ur light in the churches, let your power be upon those who are not abled.

Father i know you know exactly how i am feeling now, I want to let you know, I'm giving it all to you Daddy. I know nothing is too impossible for you. I may not know what's wrong, I may not know what to do, I may be hurt, I may be down, but God, when i look into your heart, you've shown me even greater things that these pebbles in my life. Thank you daddy.

Continue to work through, continue to pour down Father!

I'm living for this cause.

My identity: I'm a child of God..
My purpose in this race : Because you First love me, Because you've pursue me so hard, i want to pursue you back, i want to pursue the lost back for you Father!!

Brothers & Sisters, let's not give up, let's not give in to tiredness, let's not give in to temptations, let's not give in to our comfort, let's not give in to situations & circumstances - but let's allow God's power to reign! let's allow God's named to be lifted up high! Let's be the ones who will shine for JESUS!

GOGOGO! refresh and go, refresh & go....

jiayou & God, thank you for the deposition of your love & grace into my heart.

I love you daddy.

2009-01-05T00:10:00.000-08:00

okay. suppose to have a break for 10 mins. it ended up almost 30 mins i think. hahhs. shall take this time to blog then! lazy to blog in chinese, it's gonna be slowwww... hoho.

Saturday was great. Was on stage on that ESS service. Wow, I understand what it is to prepare my heart and let God minister. i may sound stupid but this is what i did. went on train on my way to Nexus @ sommerset. i closed my eyes, plug in earpiece, sang worship to God, softly lurh. hmmms. well, allowed myself to take time off and just worship and praise God, and prepare for my songs to be pract. I AM amazed by God - notice AM = present tense, still amazed by God! =)

during music prac, practiced and was feeling uptight, have to learn harmonising, tenor & alto all at the same time so as to make the music nicer, all quite new singers. as in female singers, me and lestari, both new singers. well, we learnt as we go, and Thank God, we picked it up quite fast!

on saturday itself, wow, i remember the first time on stage, i was feeling nervous and nervous and nervous. and i didnt allow H.S to work within me. well, this time,i really managed to let Go and Let God! =) and just gave it all freely to God. wow. it's amazing. singing on stage to 400 people. hmmmms. scary, but with God, why not! i love this ministry and i love all the sister and brother in christ as well! i really love my CG!

Love joanne(hahhhs) geck, xman, dory, shu hui-(hubby) LOL , shirls,peiqi, weiru, jesley, alexia,yen see, pei jun!

heeehs. okay, what i want to let people know thru this post is, with God, all is possible, faith is not overnight, it's when u let God be the one in control of ur life! AMEN?!!

XD

bye, next post up will be countdown and CG! xD

2009-01-04T22:45:00.000-08:00

recently alot have been happening, i will update tonight, but now, i wannt to blog to thank specially thank someone!

LIM LI JIA.

okay, if any of you know, she's my sister in christ and yes, she's featured in TP design school website for her attachment to MTVasia! hahhs. well, she's really a salt and light for christ.

i want to thank this sister of mine for willingly helping me in my dreamweaver proj. seriously, i missed out lesson and didnt understand any shit, this week, even shitter, i dont even understand a thing! but thank God, i have this sister who will be coaching me tommorrow! it's gonna be extra lessons for joanne! =) well, not that i want to spend the time, but i do not want to be looked down at and i want to do my best for God, not sloppy work which reflects my irresponsiblity, but i want to do it to my best. Her website is darn cool, and i am gonna learn and learn tml!

asking xman and ah bee too. Thank God i am in this community that God place helps in times of need! i really need help badly, if i werent in this community, i think i`ll be still lost till the day i submit, i`ll have to cry. T.T

THANK GOD!. i though this post gonna be short, but it's longggg.

Sisters who agree that God will help us and deliver us from different situations at his timing says AMEN! xD (tagg!) hahhs.

okay. gotta go and understand moree~

bye.

2008-12-30T03:52:00.000-08:00

看见月婷与我的绵羊的博克,也启发了我想用华文打字的兴趣! 想一想我也有几个月没用华文打字了!是时候让我练习以免我把我的言语都忘光了!

不知不觉的一年就这样的过去了. 在去年的这个时候,我应该是在我妈店里帮忙吧! 在今年,年头时,我还在等成绩呢! 担心,害怕,焦虑种种的心情都在我心里打转! 总算度过了那叫人怀念的时刻了! 这句话相当的矛盾.. 对!那时的日子还算真的度日如年啊! 但现在回想起来,真的好像是我生命中热血沸腾的日子吧! O levels!

在这2008年里可算是我生命中的一个大转变! 我真的很感谢那一直追着我,想紧紧抱住我的父亲.. 如果没有了他那永不放弃我的心,我想我现在应该还沉醉在那让人咬牙切齿的心情吧! 这简直是让我惭愧不已.. 我骂过他,羞辱过他,从他身边逃走, 沉入了这世界的一分子, 做了一些让他不开心的事...简直觉得我不配让那伟大的神爱我! 但他那大大的包容心,简直是让我的心不断的忏悔着, 感谢着..

在我17年以来我从未任他为我的主,我的耶和华,我的神.. 但他却拼命的, 不断的, 不停的爱着我这犯过许许多多罪的罪人.. 好伟大的爱,好宽容的心,好了不起的上帝!

这让我想起了一些我从未要去想的过去..但我觉得竟然我都度过了, 学过了,我也想要把我的经过的分想给大家, 好让一些正在经历着的能设法用另一个角度去看, 那些从未度过的呢,也能从中学习到一些,了解一些... 我所说的,分享的纯粹是我个人的经历与想法,无须太认真,但还是听听看吧...

到底在这世界上能获得什么,什么东西能让人满足,能让你一生快乐呢? 我曾经以为爱情,金钱,职位能满足我永远填不完的心..

爱情就像我前一个所分享的, 在这年纪-17 是没有天长地久,一生一世的诺言.. 的确,可能有, 但是在是还蛮稀少了吧.. 在我16岁时, 我还以为, 爱情能让我一生不用愁了,以为有了保障,但事实上,在那感情里,能找的到能一起度过,一直到老的安全感吗?有许许多多的不愉快,甚至还揪起了一些不堪的想法, 一些可能回想起, 会觉得幼稚的做法... 想一想, 身边的朋友, 拥有几个前男友了? 实际上, 感情有好有坏, 但我认为, 现在的青少年里,爱情这两个字最深的意思已奄奄一息了.. 在爱情中除了爱,关怀与快乐,还能找到更多吗? 可能吧.. 但我所经过的,真的,我看不到承诺与信任了..

我很爱很爱我的主, 因为我在他身上找到一直找不到的真爱, 不被破灭的希望,也找到了,生命的价值! 可能现在的你很想与我辩论这话题,但这真的是我的想法,可能对你来说,我所说的, 都不对吧!但我的信念,就是这-爱那深爱着我的耶和华上帝,我父亲...

金钱能买到所有的一切吗? 我想这是一个人们纷纷在讨论的话题吧.. 我生长在一个不许劳动但能有我想要的家庭里, 也不是一个非常富有的家庭.. 在我小时候,我记得,父母亲都忙碌与工作, 很少有家庭聚会的日子.. 当时,我真的很渴望拥有像朋友一样的温暖家庭.. 虽然朋友们家庭只有够钱能过日子,买日常用品之类.. 但那温暖的气息,真是能让人渴望.. 我想,金钱也买不到亲情, 也有许许多多买不到的... 钱,也不能带进棺材里啊!

职位,在这竞争激烈的社会里,人心险恶,勾心斗角, 简直是让人头昏脑胀! 为了一个职位,可能还会赔上你一生的精力于生命.. 除了荣耀,与眼光,你能怎样呢?我还不大了解在社会里工作的情况,但据我了解,职位,不可能让你有永远的满足感.. 人的本性是有了一个,想得到另一个... 永远无法满足的心...

我想,我真的找到了什么是永远,什么是爱，什么是生命了！

=）希望你也能拥有这无条件，无限的爱！- The love from my heavenly Father!＝））
　
再见哦！　希望这对读者有更深的了解，能从中领悟到一些道理！　

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bye byeee! =))

2008-12-27T11:19:00.000-08:00

back from ESS service @ nexus auditorium.

Just read Kaili's blog and i feel so much towards it, i mean, thoughts did ran through my mind.

Not gonna talk about spiritual things and stuff, for today, it's just gonna be how i used to have blog. been so long since i look deep down into my heart and blog with my clearest state of mind.

Love-
what it is? Love, what have it been like?
For those who know me, i`ve been thru a r/s that lasted for 2&half years. It's a long journey yes. But inbetween, felt that there's so much for me to think about.

When was the time that i gave my hands to be held tightly to? When was the time when i gave my first kiss to? when was the time that i hugged onto someone so tightly just because i missed him? How have it been like to go through Ups&Downs with the other party. How was it like to give your all to the other party?

All these aint that clear in my conscience mind, all in my sub-conscience mind. all felt so long ago, but still it's there. Some people ask me: " hey joanne, are u sure you are single? " To some, it's a lil funny to know i`m unattached. looking back at my life, i was never single for more that 3 months. To people, i may be not myself if i`m single. cus hey, joanne is always attached with someone, why not now?

I've changed. I dont see any value in man R/S anymore. Not that there's no value, but just feel that at this age, what's the point of having a r/s when i`m only 17? i mean, attached, then? married? it aint proper too. What i`m driving at is simple. A r/s now wont get me anywhere. yes, it's romantic, yes it's comforting when you're upset your boy is there for you. yes, it is not boring for you have someone as companion. who says parents cannot comfort you? who says parents cannot company you? well right now i dont proclaim loudly that i am setting a good example for what i stated above, but i do wish to say, i see no point in r/s at such an age.

Yes, hurting to some, but i seriously want to say, i do not see anythinng in r/s anymore. Things happen again and again - fear? maybe. but mainly, i have much more to focus on, and i've found the one to love, the reason to love.

The reason in God. The love With God. It's incredible. only when you've a r/s with God, you'll understand why. really. Man fail you times and again, but my God never fails me. that's what i have went through, and i hold onto this strongly!

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shall end that topic there. i bet there's many people who silently reads my blog and wish to understand more about my life etc. I really want to say, i love my life w God, not because he's powerful, but because he love me no matter who i am, no matter what i've done before.

Have you ever felt outcasted because u done something wrong? have you ever felt wronged and feel that you've no one to sought no one to seek? have you ever felt so lost that you wish to just die and end it all off? have you ever felt yourself being v. emotional and wish to just cry because you dont even know what's wrong? I have gone thru all these before, in fact, i am still facing it. But i have someone to seek comfort in, i have someone that can bring me joy in times of trouble. i have someone who can be mightier than all the problems that seems too big for me to handle. God is that someone and God does it all.

Seriously, i aint boasting, i aint telling and blogging just because i'm obligated to, i am blogging because i feel that i've indeed learnt much more and indeed experience that very unique love. Really hope that readers out there will think about it. who's there for you ALL THE TIME in times of need and trouble? Think about the questions above. are they all left unanswered?

I've never felt so peaceful and joyful before i came to know christ. I feel so different now.

Shall blog about what's coming up next in line for me!

WELCOME PEI JUN INTO THIS BIG BIG FAMILY IN CHRIST! LOVE YA! =))

with loves,
joanne. =))

2008-12-26T10:57:00.000-08:00

long time ago..

goodness gracious! my oh my, the time now : 3am.

why so late, well, doing project, looking at some sources and reading indepth into my precious lil bible! on a lighter note: My blogg song do makes me go high high high!

at least, i dont have a blog song that makes one cry, troubled, pull hair, whine.. nono! xD

aniwae, went out with 4e2 today, it's great lurh. some changed, some still as idiotic as ever, some still as fun as ever. but guess what, only 6 chi guys turn up, 2 chinese girls, 2 malay girls, 7 malay guys if i am not wrong. 4e2 !! where are you people! let's have another gatheringg! shall upload the photos ~~once i kope from facebook group~~ koped! - oh yea! join 4e2 2007 facebook group people! [ meant for 4e2's]

all except diyana-who's lazy

i simply miss the time that we go slack at mac from 2pm-6pm just waiting for time to pass. i simply miss the times when we play around in class chasing each other out of class. i simply miss the times when we mimick ms thiru, i simply miss the timess when we try to prank noreha. i simply miss the times when we try to do kallang wave behind a teacher's back. i simply miss the times when we purposely slack somewhere. i simply miss the times when we will crap with ms liu, mdm too.. simply too, memorable!

Life goes on, when i asked about their lives, i think many went, boring, out of school already, like tat lo, tiring. Many are at the point of tiredness and boredom. I guess, we simply cant adapt to the lifestyle of new friends and new zone to fit into. - i bet they miss 4e2! hahahhs!

planning to go back esss during new year to get ang bao. *hints* . went sempang bedok to have my sausage carbonara & my coke cost me 12bucks. hah. but it's worth the price for this precious gathering. went home earlier for my phone died on me @ 9.30pm sharp. wow. it's okay! and thanks edwin for your sms! =)

singer's ministry! let's jiayou!

Been to the ministry meet last sunday and it's great to hear stories of the WAM and how it came about. Testimonies were shared too and know alot more sister and brothers moree!

we're a family, not alone, but together. yupp! why are we doing what we are doing - it's because we love God, not because we love singing, not because we love playing instruments, but we love God. that's why we give our all up to Him! - by WanQi.

Yup, i think it's real important never to forget why are we serving, it serve no purpose if we are serving blindly for the sake of doing it because it's a habit already.

yupp! that's about it and i shall go off to cook my noodles before i fall alseep in a hungry state!
bye! and enjoy my songs readers!

salute!

2008-12-22T10:46:00.000-08:00

back at night after i tidy up my house piled up with every single kind of things ranging from erasers to big model cars. around 7 big cardboard boxes filled over brim.. wow. it took me 3hrs plus man! but thank God the heap of mountain seems smaller. consistency is trained here!

as i looked at weiru's blog, i know where the source is from. i read it at another blog too.
well, personally, what i experienced this week with God, is indeed beyond what you can understand.

1) God is faithful

hearing the testimonies by how God bless the church from nothing to what we have today mikes etc. The period of time, it was tough and things wasnt easy, but yet, God still made a way and changed nothing to something. That's what God is capable of doing too! Although many points of time it was tough, but God's faithfulness made it all possible.

if it happens God isnt faithful, he can just bless the WAM with just 1 guitar , no drum, no piano, no mike. what's gonna happen? although the process was not short but i believe people who've been to nexus will agree with me, The HOUSE OF GOD is furnished with God's Faithfulness and Delieverance! well, i think, with man alone, all these is not possible!

2) God is never late

Just recently i experienced something extrodinary. and God just showed me how near he is to me, and how close he is - just beside me.

many points of time, we feel that we're in this situation
" die la, cannot one la..."
" wah lauu, why like that?"
" impossible la.. she already like tat sae liaooo... "
" why is this happening to me? no one can understand me..."

why do we feel empty, why do we feel helpless why do we feel so pestimistic.
How are we able to be satisfied with life? how are we able to face all these?

i believe, we're never satisfied with what we have.
For example:
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john : mummy, i want the sony ericsson phone K800i. I like, i promise i wont buy another phone already.. really mummy.
Mum: But you already have a phone, dear.
john: no! but it's spoilt! please mummy, pretty pleaseee? :)))
mum: okkay.

4 months later

john: Mummy, can i have the Iphone?
Mum: but my dear, you've just bought your K800I. and you promised you wont buy another one already.
John: but mummy, i dont like it anymore, i like another one. i want i want..

and it goes on and on..

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Generally, Humans are never satisfied with what we have, we'll just want to have more, even if we get what we want, does the happiness last? maybe first month you'll get the thrill of it, you'll go round showing others what u own. prolly after 6 months, you'll hide what you own.. true?
i myself, used to fall in this trap. Things wont last, our possessions wont last. We CANT CANT CANT carry it to our grave. we cant carry it and die together with it. so what? It'll all come to an end. All possessions, the more you have, the more you're afraid to lose it, the more you'll want more of other things.

people, I know some of you know what i am driving at..
Yes, Jesus's love. Till today, i feel so deeply love. Till today, I still feel as fresh as i was when i first came to know Him..

In R/S there's alwas a cliche: I love you forever, I want to be with you 1314, i want to marry you in future.
Not that it doesnt exist, maybe it does. But how many of these promises u heard came true? just how mani? maybe your parents? true, What about yourself?

I`ve found something which will really last. whenever i`m sad, seriously, i will just pluck in to my earpiece, flip thru my songlist and play a song - tentatively a worship song. I will just pray to God, and naturally, seriously, naturally, i`m comfortted. i`m healed, i`m nursed. I believe, those who do not have this r/s with God will ask me, How he nurse you? how he heal you? you cant even see him? IS THIS YOUR DOUBT? well, i`ve experienced it myself, i`m not joking. God promised more that 6000 things in the bible and he have never fail to keep his promise. he have never fail to leave me and forsake me.

How wonderful is this God.. Let me leave you with this Q, who do you turn to when you are upset? your friends? your religion? your family? or you keep it to yourself?
How will your friends help you with the problem? how will your family help you with your problem? how do you feel towards all those?

well, i've found an endless source which provides me with the happiness and joy that i cannot contain. you'll never know how amazing it is, till you experienced him yourself!

till den, would like to open this invitation to all :

24th December 2008 -
The Gift service @ the Rock auditorium from 2pm-4pm.
it's gonna be a service full of songs, drama and i think the most important factor of christmas, is to know why are you celebrating christmas. Is it about santa? is it about gifts or isit about turkey? Come and get yourself a answer that you might have never known. Give it a try, I know, it's gonna be a special night full of Love....

27th December 2008-
A special service with a drama, song presentation and prise&Worship. I believe, this is a time for us to get together to know more friends and to spend your last saturday of holidays(poly people) with a cool community, i assure you, it's gonna be a real different experience.

Anyone Interested do give me a call / drop me an SMS @ 96636583
Or you can email me at joanne_342@hotmail.com

Any questions with regards to what i post and wish to know more, email me too.

Wish to hear from you readers sooon!

2008-12-21T21:53:00.000-08:00

finally revamped my blog and changed to a simpler skin, nicer to the eyes and a skin that will motivate me to blog. quite alot to update perhaps. shall update about what i`ve been doing this time round!

1. Cruise Trip.

i`ve been on cruise for the 4th time and it's still somehow the same. the food, the entertainments. what's different this time round i went with a heart of peace. the heart to experience more than just fun..

first night, went in, helped myself to the feast at buffet.. food that really make ones drowl. after that, it was a night of experiencing the breeze with my sister & brother. well, it's really good to stop once in awhile to experience the nature and to get myself refreshed. busy-ness will tie us down. was glad and it's really great. after enjoying the breeze, it was a night of KTV session with my family.

i`m amazed by how my sister and brother have grown to like singing. they use to dislike singing and will get angry, if they're offered the mike. i`m amazed too, by how we snatch mike and play along. drank and played. it was a night of bonding. after that, went back to the room and slept. tired man!

Second day

woke up early and went to have breakfast. =) i think it's great to have breakfast until you are full kind.. hahh. well, after that, we went for a swim! me, my brother, my sister & daddy. well, swimming and relaxed myself. i exercised! YAY. well, after swimming , i went to the jacuzzi pool. it's freaking Hot.. soonafter, it was better. i really felt so different being in the jacuzzi alone.. just me, the sky & my heavenly Father.. was praying for the harvest, praying for people and just spending time with God speaking to him.. listening to him.. it's awesome.

i`ve never felt so relaxed with God.. most of the time when i speak to God, it's more of requesting and problems that arises that makes me feel uncomfortable. this experience allowed me to know, what it is like to share joy with God.. amen? =) rejoice in the tough times too!

after swimming, bath went to the arcade. I always feel that going to the arcade is throwing money to feed the machines... i dont get happiness from it leh! why? cus my happiness comes from God. hahhhs! den went for lunch, den dinner with family. after dinner was the time for me to go back to watch my mr. Bean. hahhhs. dinner was not that nice. it's a posh restaurant like. and my brother couldnt enter because of his 3/4 shorts. thus, after eating the not full meal. we went to the buffet place to have dinner again. now i realise why i really can eat already. - getting fatter =( .

the next day, woke up at 6am to have my breakfast at the buffet place again. it's always satisfying man! =) before the breakfast, i went to the ship's deck to take pictures, to sit by the benches and just listen to the sound of the wind. it's really really niceeeee! after breakfast was a time of packing for us & a time to watch TV. after that, went to have lunch again before we leave that ship.

overall, it's really a relaxing trip at least, there's no involvement of business from my parents.

2. Eldest Cousin's wedding dinner

i think this is really a time for my cousins to gather together to know each other more. l et pictures do the talking!

below are pictures with my cuzzies except for one, with my aunt. guess which. LOL.

salute!

2008-12-11T06:57:00.000-08:00

This story was written by a doctor who worked in South Africa...it's true. it didnt fail to touch me. read it read it! bet you'll understand something after reading. you'll be amazed!!

One night I had worked hard to help a mother in the labour ward; but inspite of all we could do, she died leaving us with a tiny premature baby and a crying two-year-old daughter.
We would have difficulty keeping the baby alive, as we had no incubator (we had no electricity to run an incubator). We also had no special feeding facilities. Although we lived on the equator, nights were often chilly with treacherous drafts. One student midwife went for the box we had for such babies and the cotton wool that the baby would be wrapped in. Another went to stoke up the fire and fill a hot water bottle.

She came back shortly in distress to tell methat in filling the bottle, it had burst (rubber perishes easily in tropical climates). "And it is our last hot water bottle!" she exclaimed. As in the West, it is no good crying over spilled milk, so in Central Africa it might be considered no good crying over burst water bottles. They do not grow on trees, and there are no drugstores down forest pathways. "All right," I said, "put the baby as near the fire as you safely can, and sleep between the baby and the door to keep it free from drafts. Your job is to keep the baby warm."

The following noon, as I did most days, I went to have prayers with any of the orphanage children who chose to gather with me. I gave the youngsters various suggestions of things to pray about and told them about the tiny baby. I explained our problem about keeping the baby warm enough, mentioning the hot water bottle, and that the baby could so easily die if it got chills. I also told them of the two-year-old sister, crying because her mother had died.

During prayer time, one ten-year old girl, Ruth, prayed with the usual blunt conciseness of our African children. "Please, God" she prayed, "send us a water bottle. It'll be no good tomorrow, God, as the baby will be dead, so please send it this afternoon." While I gasped inwardly at the audacity of the prayer, she added by way of a corollary, "And while You are about it, would You please send a dolly for the little girl so she'll know You really love her?" As often with children's prayers, I was put on the spot. Could I honestly say,"Amen". I just did not believe that God could do this. Oh, yes, I know that He can do everything, the Bible says so. But there are limits, aren't there? The only way God could answer this particular prayer would be by sending me a parcel from homeland. I had been in Africa for almost four years at that time, and I had never, ever received a parcel from home. Anyway,if anyone did send me a parcel, who would put in a hot water bottle? I lived on the equator!

Halfway through the afternoon, while I was teaching in the nurses' training school, a message was sent that there was a car at my front door. By the time I reached home, the car had gone, but there, on the verandah,was a large twenty-two pound parcel. I felt tears pricking my eyes. I could not open the parcel alone, so I sent for the orphanage children. Together we pulled off the string, carefully undoing each knot. We folded the paper, taking care not to tear it unduly. Excitement was mounting. Some thirty or forty pairs of eyes were focused on the large cardboard box. From the top, I lifted out brightly colored, knitted jerseys. Eyes sparkled as I gave them out. Then there were the knitted bandages for the leprosy patients, and the children looked a little bored. Then came a box of mixed raisins and sultanas - that would make a batch of buns for the weekend. Then, as I put my hand in again, I felt the.....could it really be? I grasped it and pulled it out - yes, a brand-new, rubber hot water bottle. I cried.

I had not asked God to send it; I had not truly believed that He could. Ruth was in the front row of the children. She rushed forward, crying out, "If God has sent the bottle, He must have sent the dolly too!"

Rummaging down to the bottom of the box, she pulled out the small, beautifully dressed dolly. Her eyes shone! She had never doubted! Looking up at me, she asked: "Can I go over with you, Mummy, and give this dolly to that little girl, so she'll know that Jesus really loves her?"

That parcel had been on the way for five whole months. Packed up by my former Sunday school class, whose leader had heard and obeyed God's prompting to send a hot water bottle, even to the equator. And one of the girls had put in a dolly for an African child - five months before, in answer to the believing prayer of a ten-year-old to bring it "that afternoon."

"Before they call, I will answer" (Isaiah 65:24)

wow. God spoke to me in such a weird way!
i was randomly searching my past mails to look for a email with the story about this parent who lost their 3 kids consecutively. ( anyone know the source let me know)

till i was at the last page, i saw this email naming " awesome God " .

ii was like, wow, i was a non-believer previously.. but yet, God still never fail to send his words to me.. it really made me realise, God have been doing so much to bring me over, to love me once again. This story, made me realise, before I do anything, or ask, God already have a plan and will send his help accordingly. Isn't it amazing!

jiayou people!I believe, God will help us when you earnestly seek and look unto him!
let yourself be able to walk with him, so that God will guide u and help u in all that you do ! jiayou sisters & brothers !

2008-12-08T23:29:00.000-08:00

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - Yes.
2. Are you happy - yupps!
3. Are you bored - nope when i`m currently doing this. hoho.
4. Are you fair - nope! hahhs. i`m tanned!
5. Are you Italian - hmms. nope! singapourienne! :D
6. Are you intelligent - yesyesyes!!
7. Are you honest - hmmms! I think so!
8. Are you nice - yes. i`m nice. hoho.
9. Are you Irish - Nopee!
10. Are you Asian - Yupps!

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Joanne Tan Hui Fen
2. Nicknames - jo, ant, monkey
3. Birth place - Singapore- i dunno where too. :(
4. Hair color - Dark brown/lightbrown.
5. Natural hair style - straight.
6. Eye colour - brownnish.
7. Birthday - 07.october 2008
8. Mood - elated!
9. Favorite color - Black, purple, pink, blue
10. One place you'd like to visit - zoo~

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - Yes.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - yupps.
3. Do you currently have a crush? - nope.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - definitely, but i`m healed by God! hahhhs!
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - yeaaa. :(
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - yupps. used to, my heart is filled up with Love!
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - yeaaa!
8. Are you afraid of commitment - noppe! but now, i dun wish to commit. ^^
9. Who was the last person you hugged - my bolster. heehehs.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - Shirley Kam.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer -hard liquor, wine.
3. Cats or dogs - DOGS! DIAMONDDD!
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - sisters & brothers in chirst!
5. Creamy or Crunchy - crunch crunch!~
6. Pencil or Pen - colourpencil.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - romantic night in.. hahhs.
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness.
9. Night or day - Night, definitely.
10. IM or phone - PHONE!

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - yupps. but i`m a good girl now! lols. nahhs.
2. Seen a polar bear - i dont know.
3. Done something you regret - yes. i regretted not going to the toilet before i type this.
4. Bungee jumped - nope, but it's great if i`m able to do that!
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - nonono. i will get indigestions.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - what is a jaw breaker? .___.
7. Been caught naked - nopppe!
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - used to .
9. Cried because you lost a pet - yeaaa! i lost lancy previously before diamond! and i cried!
10. Wanted to disappear - not anymore! i wanna appear. LOL

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - both!
2. Light or dark hair - dark.
3. Hugs or kisses - huggs.
4. Shorter or taller - taller than me, because i`m tall.
5. Intelligence or attraction - attractions.
6. Topman or Zara - parsa malam. LOL. any!
7. Funny or serious - moderate!
8. Older or Younger - same age or older !
9. Outgoing or quiet -outgoing! cus i think i`m gonna be quite quiet *LOL* no laa. i`ll be too noisy!
10. Sweet or Bad - Sweet!

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yupps , still gonna perform for God!
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - yeaa! w amanda to camp for PQ~
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - yea! but i failed.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - dont know if it's considered! CHURCH!it's coool~
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - i guess so! with my pom poms........ .____.
6. Ever been on a dance team - yupps!
7. Ever been on a sports team - yupps! sports day and i sprain somepart of my body. LOL
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yuppps.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - no, i just want a seven sitter!
10. Ever been in a rap video? - noppe. i have problems speaking recently already. LOL. too fast!

TEN... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - To pei qi.
2. Last person you hugged - bolsterrr~ pillars~
3. Last person you hung out with - shirley.
4. Last time you worked - few weeks ago. gonna resume soon. hoho.
5. Last person you talked to - shirley but she's not talking now. hahhs.
6. Last person you IM'd - liying!
7. Last person you texted - elizabeth!
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - CG! to watch beverly hill's chihuahua!
9. Last person/thing you missed - CG!
10. Last website visited - blogger blogger!~~

TEN... PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1. Amanda Loh
2. Alexia
3. Shirley
4. Dorothy
5. Geckting
6. jenny
7. priscilla
8. Sarah
9. Pei qi
10. Wei ru

tadaa~ i`m done edwynaaa! see la. make me do such a quiz. v tedious u noe.

2008-12-03T09:06:00.000-08:00

Do take a few mins to watch this movie. It's touching to me. It's worth your time. really.

The Bridge

This video really showed me God's love. sometimes, love is not what we feel only. But it's about how we understand the love we're given. Take some time to think. What makes u feel love. do the love makes u feel love all the time? yes, in a christian's life, there will be problems which causes unhappiness, but if i choose to claim God's word, the love will be there. in my life.

To explain this video:

there's this father who have this son he love very much. who he will play with, chat with, and share life with. a very close father and son relationship. This father is working in a train station and the son will begin to see the joy in this job. The son saw many different people in the train. people who are angry, hurting, addicted, or happy. all sorts of them, just commoners.

However, on one faithful day, the train came unexpectedly when the father pulled the bridge up. The father could have been able to rush to the station to pull the lever. However, his son was too, wanted to save the train from crashing. the son went to the railway to try to lift the lever but he could not and he fell into the corner where the bridge will be connected to.

The train was coming at a fast speed. The father, have to make a choice, both will be painful. What can he do? 1) to not lift the lever and let the train crash, but saves his son. 2) to lift the lever up but crash his own son.

It was a painful decision, but he decided to lift the lever up. and crash his own son.

Not to say the father was heartless, the father didnt value the son, or the son did something wrong and the father is dying to kill him. No. Infact, the father love his son more than anything else in the world. He made a decision to sacrifice his son in order to save the hundreds of lives.

This above shows is exactly how God loves us. we are the people on the train. the commoners. his son is Jesus Christ. This is always heard " For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes shall not perish but have eternal life.." John 3:16. i believe even if we arent christians, we do hear this. Never did i took a minute to comprehend the love behind these 2 sentences before i came to know God.. why, why did God choose to save us despite knowing how bad we are, how not pleasing we are.. u might think that this is ridiculous, but becus after he saves us, he knows, he'll be able to spread his love and be able to save more lives. It's hurting to God, but God knows, that we are his children too and if he does not save us, who saves?

I`m forever living in an ignorant life, if i am not given a chance to know God again. It's all in my mind. To choose to come to know him or not.. If i did not gave myself this chance, i think , i will never be able to experience his love. yes, my life previously before i know God was happy, my life was great, my life was filled with laughter and happiness. BUT I AM NEVER SATISFIED WITH WHATEVER I HAVE, FOR I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS MY ETERNAL PURPOSE IN LIFE. this lifetime, i am happy, where would i be, if i was to die?

I am glad, at least before i die, i know what my future will be like, i know what awaits me and i know i am promised an eternal life when i walked my life with God.. amen!

this chance are in all of your courts friends. You might be anti-christ, you might be criticising my post, you might be amazed, you might have doubts, you might have uncertainties in God. whatever it is, whoever u are, you are given this chance. It's all up to you people. it's all up to you.

Do take a min to think, what keeps u going on in life? what satisfy you in life? are you satisfied?

i shall leave it at this note. do think about it.

God bless you all people.

2008-11-29T21:46:00.000-08:00

been lazi to post. motivate me to post people. lol.

gtg for shepherding! byeee!

2008-11-25T01:24:00.000-08:00

beeen long since ii came to update. well, a lil of my life.
i have been busy with projects and harvesting..
didnt get much the time to update.
even if i wish to update, i will always leave it blank,
close it in the end.. hahhs!

time flew, now it's already coming to the end of mid-sem..

have i done things that have been fruitful in my life?

Recently, the satan is hovering around me..

tripping me, tempting me, disturbing me..

I can choose to go with satan, or to stand strong w God..

I dunno how to express, but how God is in my life, is magnificent..

Doing God's work, school work, family, friends...

It aint easy, definitely.

But still, i`m able to do it without feeling the compressed..

without feeling i`m always running with not enough time.

Indeed life is busier, life is not as fun as just having fun..

But you know what?

i've got an incredible joy doing it.

i've got the incredible satisfaction of doing it for God..

without knowing, i always have enough time

to do God's work..

recently, attended bizart retreat.

peter troung's Evangelism class.

Ilead campaign.

and many programmes stil coming up..

simply just so excited to do so much for God..

singing on stage this weekend..

shall go off now, just finished my stuffs. going off already!

God, the glory is yours, come take kingdom..

2008-11-09T02:30:00.000-08:00

Yvonne & me.

i love this picture!

hahahaha. Us again.

cheryl , yvonne, joanne.

Lastly, Shirley Kam she seems constipated.

bonjour~

These few days are GREAT and FABULOUS with God's presence!

shall recall what happen on the few days.

Friday:

had KTV session with yvonne and cheryl together with pigs and I. ^^

it's really a fabulous night spent. pictures can do the talking.

Saturday:

woohoo~ welcome jesley! to see bizart 3A hit 18! jiayou jiayou! i believe God can do great things in our lives. I really believe that God will allow us to hit 20. I truly hold it in my heart. Let's work for the K.O.G. many things and satan will be lurking around to try to attack us, but the more we should stand firm in the Lord!

amen!

Sunday:

peter troung's amazing with God's power, he's able to perform so much miracles because we have the authority over the signs and wonder! amen! God's power is so incredible that i can't stop but praise him praise him praise him!

okkay. i dunno wad else to blog already. started off at around 8pm. now it's 12am? haha. ok joanne, you're a slow blogger~~~ S-L-O-W ~

bye.

2008-11-03T09:14:00.000-08:00

Today's WAM night is a blast. although i end up coming home at 1, it's really great time spent.

due to some personal reason i was spiritually v. dry and didnt find any motivation to move on and chiong for God. i neglected that touch and r/s w God and it made me closed my heart to God's word unknowingly.

I refuse to be fed spritually and ended up being in a total mess in my life. didnt know what was i heading for- rather didnt wanted to head to where i aim for. it's no use aiming if i wasnt able to reach it....

God spoke so clearly to me thru tryphoza. although we might be from different CG, we might not really share life so often, but yet the words God drop into my life thru her was so divine. I didnt reveal anything to her, but yet, i felt so transparent at that moment that...

I could sense the H.S prompting in my heart with a vision of where i am - in my spiritual life. I cried.. I cried becus of the holy reverence i have towards God that God, i have claimed to let you use me but yet, I arent being used to the fullest.

I pondered, and stop, pondered and move a step. God oh God, i`ve wavered and i have not charged on yet...

I believe in many point of our lives, we will feel restless and tired of doing God's work, studying, working and many others stuff. something good about doing God's work is, God will be there with you, through it ALL. he will never leave and forsake us..

"here I am, use me... come into my life. I WANT TO BE more like JESUS. untill the end of time .. "

today's ministering to the people is fabulous. many teared becus of the holy reverence towards God. and also becus, we wanted that amazing touch that will refresh us once again.

won't elaborate more, cus it's what God that speaks that matters.

Friends who might not know Jesus and God yet...
I really wish to say, God is really so real in my life. Not just I can testify but people who are in this with me can testify. God will never fail to provide and shortchange us. with right attitude and with right mindset, he will do all those. but first, we must allow God to help us by being our saviour and leader. so where are you now? God is so real, i pray that all of you out there who do not know him will get his touched someday...

Love you ppl, nites!

2008-11-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

fufilling God's calling.. Divine calling .

What's God's calling for me?

I believe, He will reveal to me due course.

Right now, i want to draw myself closer to God..

I feel myself weary and tired.

I don't know what I`m doing at times.

Jenny is right, It's not about doing, It's about How God will work

Through me.

It's not by my strength, by my might alone.

It's through God's unfailing Love.

I failed again, by trying it all alone.

I`m gonna soak myself in God's love from now on..

No more joanne alone, but with God.

" I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

I believe right now, being in singer's ministry

It means ministering to the people.

If as a support singer, I myself arent walking right with God

People can sense and I believe, this will affect.

Since I've taken this step to walk with God

I wanna walk even closer and not to drift any further.

I wanna fufil God's calling for me and to play a part in Great Commission.

Today's sermon it's more than a sermon

It's more of a calling and a touch from God

Telling me " hey, stop and listen to what i have to say to you.."

all along I have not been curious in anything of my spiritual walk with God..

Everything seems so routined, seems to regular

that even sometimes, I am oblivion to it already.

I realise that i`ve been living in this fast pace society that i cant even stop

To listen to what might God's calling for me will be..

Everything happen becus it's God's plan for me..

So hard that i wish to let go at times.

But this is what kept me on...

To keep going on for i do not wish to fail my father who placed so much in me.

Be it talents, gifts, lives.. i wanna give it all back to him.

It's no longer about what i want, what i need

It's gonna be what God wants and what God have for me.

Friends, what are you living for?

To earn big bucks?

To have a happy family?

To be a CEO?

To have everything in the world?

To travel all around the world?

For me, so what if i have big bucks? I cant bring it when i step into the coffin.

Happy family yes, it's important. But what will it become when i die?

To be a CEO - it'll be gone when i retire.

To have everything in the world? so what if i gain everything, after I die, it's all gone.

travel all around the world - it'll still comes to an end when i die.

It's not that i`m being pestimistic. But take a min to think..

after you're dead, what will happen?

Where will you go?

I`ve found the answer to these questions , have you?

good night people, do allow yourself to think thru it. Not gonna sae animore, leaving it all up to you.

2008-10-23T19:19:00.000-07:00

currently in school's lab... hoho..
it's so tiring lurhh.. coming to school early in the morning at 10am for a 3hr class... tiring de lehhhs. hoho.

aniwae people, ignore my previous post. i`m doing fine jumping and hopping around already. lols.

i miss BIZARTTT~ hoho.

i`m so gonna ask sec school friends out already. so long nva go out le lehhhhs! xD pool~ pool~

ii wannnnnna sleeeeepppp~

sleeeeeeeppppp~

receive mani sms everyday hoho. cus i go disturb dem. and they call me pig!?! i`m upset tou. hoho. nahhs. i`m gracious one..

ii want to wrestlinggg! xman where are youuu!~

okay. i dunno wad's wrong with me now.. =.=

JESUS I BELIEVE IN YOU
AND I WOULD GO
TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
FOR YOU
ALONE IS THE SON OF GOD
AND THE WORLD WOULD SEE
YOU ARE GOD
YOU ARE GOD ~

wooo~ i just read an email sent by teresa.. it's really powerful. although i watched it mute. sisters & brothers! i`ve sent it to you guys. let's continue to pass it down to fellow sisters and brothers in christ! keeping on people! keepingg on!

woooo~ charged up. let's see revival in TP . let's see TP filled with people doing QT everywhere , seeing praise and worship session in TP! woooo~ IT CAN BE DONE AND WILL BE DONE . when we work together to see it come to past. GOGOGOGOGOGO!

jiayou!!

2008-10-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

hello.. yea. haven been constantly blogging. i use to blog when i have a problem / when i am feeling sad. as i come to the kingdom of God this is becoming rare already. i blog becus i want to update my life most of the time...

well, been doing alot for the KOG, be it in growing myself, growing my people, pushing myself, moving forward.. i`m trying my very best already. sometimes, i really cannot do some stuff, but for God, i held on with it and moved on...

in some period of my walk, i feel the utter bitterness in some issue. but i have no wish to elaborate.. but i believe,God will do his best to deliever me out of thhe problem i faces... as i walk on with God, there's alot more that God tested me in.. prune me in, mould me in... sometimes i even feel like telling God " God, take me away, i dun wish to go on.. " for the process will not be easy.. but you know, i wanna praise God for he is always there for me.. situations will change, circumstances will change. But my God will not change. now and forever...

went for leadership camp, i really learnt alot, i really want to apply alot. to dream bigger for God, to have the heart and desire to win much more for God.. for God didnt give me just 10% of what he can give.. but God gave his 100%.. yet i`m only giving back God less den 10%... great contrast? yupps. i`ve failed. i told God in the camp, "God, i`m not gonna waste my lifetime satisfying my own needs, in my comfort zone, Lord, i know i`ll face much more than this if i want to give it my all. But God, i`m gonna do it Big for you Lord! "

the Lord spoke to me so clearly about what i can do for him and what i can do beyond my limits for him.. to go beyond my own strength for God... he's so amazing... God spoke to me in so much area of my life, that i feel so naked in his eyes.. * not literally naked* but i feel so transparent when i faces him..

oh Lord, i`m trying my very best to do what i can for the task u gave;

Lord, it's not easy..

I need you so so so much right now...

i dunno why, but God, refresh me now..

I just need your presence in my heart all the time..

Lord, i dunno what went wrong, i dunno what's in my heart..

Lord i dunno wad should I do what should I not do...

Sometimes, i`m at such a lost. For God, i dunno how to handle at all..

I feel inadequate to do much for you..

But Lord, I made a covenent with you..

I dunno how to hold on Lord...

It's hurting.. it's painful, it's not easy Lord...

I...

need..

You...

gtg guys.. jiayou.

2008-10-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

back from leadership camp.. it's really a blast and i wont stop the camp here. i`m gonna let the spirit and the things i learnt to be applied in my life !

hmmmms.. my feeling now is just v. happpy. i dunno why. maybe because i've just watched shin chan. hoho. well well well. i alwas want to do detailed blogging. but seeing so few ppl tag. i wan shut down blog le la. LOL.

gtg! byee!

2008-10-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

Don't mistaken me! hoho. i didnt drink it , but my dad tempted me! haha. flee from temptations!

hahahaha. okayy. really wanna post a proper one. been delaying in posting. see la, i`m laid-back. a big NO NO in my life. hmmmmms..

korea trip :
came back from korea. wow, i slept on the floor, and eat veggie almost everyday can?! hmmms.. but i`m thankful to God for the trip. He showed me through alot of ways how he can work thru iin people's life and he showed me alot about his purpose for me. i`m so much refreshed after the trip! yupp. i also drew closer to my parents! thank God , i believe to see my parents' salvation will come to past sooon! for more details ask me alright? and pictures, i slowly post up. haha.

birthday celebration :
okkay. kindda shockked initially, but slowly okay le. shock becus of the anger part. geck started to get angry with me over the slightest thing. denn i was seriously abit taken aback la! haha. but didnt tell them. and the celebration is kinda expected, but i really appreciate it alot. cus all along i have bad experience on my birthdays. so never exactly celebrated my birthday happily. yea. i really thank God for them, for their affirmation towards me, for their effort put it to make this day so special. i thank God for speaking to me, to help me in my areas of needs.

leadership camp :
going off to camp for 3 days from 10-12 october. hmmms.. for this trip, really wanna go there with this expectant heart to learn and to equip myself much more w the W.O.G... i realise alot about myself through the praying and fasting for 40 days. i discovered more about my r/s w God, my r/s with my sheeps and my r/s with my family.. by God's grace, alot more is revealed to me. i thank God for that! i wanna attend this camp to think like a leader, to learn like a leader, to act and serve as a leader. not just this, i want to also root myself much much more w the W.O.G ! so will come back on the 12th october from camp. hoho. you'll see a new Corey Joanne Tan Hui Fen after the leadership camp. People, Let's see transformation and let's advance to the next level ! my sheeps too! jiayouuu!

Evangelism :
recently, learnt alot more about evangelism and God also spoke to me about having a heart for the lost. not just to think for their salvation, but to love them. the fire is burning within me, and i really have this desire to do much more for God. i do not want to bring people to know him becus of filling up the no. & seats. but becus i love God so much, that i love His people including the people that i might not like. i wanna lead a life full of lifestyle evangelism and to be more and more christ-like !

okay. i shall go off now, since i got a trobbing headache at the back of my head. shall go pop down some panadols before i doze off as i laze around!

jiayou people! love yaaaas!

2008-10-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

post some picture. acctually wanted to blog. but i`m tired already. back from korea btw. nites.

2008-09-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

haha. reading my tags and the pms i got online, bet you guys miss me alot. esp, jenny, geck and my sheepies & my cg mem, pei qi, shirley, dorotthy, yensee.. hahahaha!

practically, my whole CG! heeeeehs. okay la. i know i`m missed. dun miss me too much. i`m sneezing like shit over here. it's V. cold.. very lor... now better le.. at seoul right now.. v. hungry with no food to eat & a stupid luggage full of things waiting for me to pack. i`m lazy. crap. hoho.

hmms hmms...

i didnt expected anything from this trip. but i came with a heart to really spend time with God alone here..

you know, i really drew myself closer to God as well as HIM closer to me...

alot of things have been blessed into this trip and i really wanna thank God for it.. all the things that god shown me, really prove this thing again, he is just here with me. anywhere, God is around! amen!

in korea, it's cold and the food.. eeeeks. =.=! and the weather here caused my lips to crack and stuff. i`m looking forward to go back singapore to have my burger king, have my KFC! hoho. before 31 october i wanna eat 2 piece chicken meal with $1 off ! *kachingg* i sound so auntie, but yea. true whattt ! ._______________.

over here, i see jenny, i see geck, i see pei qi, i see shirley, i see my sheeps....

HAHA . wonder how right? i show u.. xD

jenny !

pei qi !

wei ru!

alexiaa !

GECKTING!

no shirls la. no pigs at safarii. sorry shirls. hahahaha! no wei ru too, no sotongg.. T.T

there's alot more but will give an detailed update when i`m back ! miss me ppl! gotta go sleep now. need to wake up early.. =)

God is enough to fill my heart !

bye!

2008-09-23T11:05:00.000-07:00

above 2 pictures are taken before & after service. hmmmms. alot happened, for the good yup. cus i know every single thing i go thru, it's to allow me to grow more and not to drop further down..

i really thank God for placing so much in my life so that he can mould me to become a strong woman for his. to love God, love people.

now 2 lives are under me, and there will be more to come. be it problems or sheeps. i want to take it up as God sees my ability and God sees how much further he can use me. i wanna be fully utilize by God as i know deep down in my heart, he is the only one that will see me thru all things. he is the only thing that will last when all else fade...

after we are buried.. all fames, all glory, all fun, all joy are gone.. all these doesnt last.. but his love last.. his never ending love for us.. to allow us to have this chance, to share the good news to the ones we love..

let's all continue to keep this in mind, keep the great commission (matt 28:18-20) in our hearts.. to do our part in this..

I wanna grow so that i can see my sheeps grow more.. God will use us in all areas.. be it to plant churches, be it to be a CL, UL, or pastor, or even an evangelist.. i think now, i really wanna play a part in building it up. i wanna play a part in moulding myself, and moulding my people, to really come to see the great commission as something that we will solely work for in our lives..

jiayou brothers and sisters!

love ; corey

2008-09-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

hhey yo.

hmmms.. sad leh. i`m blogging yet ppl arent reading. ppl arent taggingg. v. sad lurh!

=(((( hahaha.

hmmms...

sorted some heartfelt things w geck. gotta tell jenny! haha.

i really thank god that he placed ppl in my life to remind me of my heart, my mind and my emotions... i`ll guard them.. i`ll not let satan attack me further.. really thank that sister who spoke into my life so deeply. and questioned my heart so much. i am someone who refuses to face reality.. but as i came to know god, i realise, i should always check my own heart.. thank god for placing that sister into my life! and all the sisters ,, brothers in this race with me.. let's continue to spur each other up..

it's not the reward that i should look for.. but to look at how much i can do for god, and have i done it all for god.. yupp.

that teaching she send me is seriously so frank and straight that i have to face my own heart..

indeed, i`ve forgotten to guard my mind that satan managed to make me feel so much which i feel it's small matters to me.. i wanna refresh myself.. i wanna recharge myself again! once again.. thank god for all he've done and placing people in my life to speak to me thru them !

thank god.. ^^

nites ppl !

2008-09-16T11:48:00.000-07:00

hey yyo! bet all of you are missing my post already. tag leh. if not i feel sad leh. i sad i might end up crying and emo-inggg~ ... lols! no i wont! i am secured . haha. tag ppl! hoho. i`m a person of words! heeeeehs.

aniwae, today CT meet is v. special to me. as in, it's not the normal CT meet. rather, it's very refreshing and it really makes me move forward to charge myself, and to have a better view of the Great commission and the vision. i will prepare my people, prepare myself, to fight the spiritual warfare, to send ppl out to plant churches. I do make a difference, and i want to help out in the great commission!

yay! haha.

i`m tired now..

shall go sleep already. post for wad i also dunno. i know i know!

TAGG PPL !

god bless. ^^

corey; joanne

2008-09-15T12:37:00.000-07:00

they trying to steal limelight. HAHA.

sheepie & me

heart of Bizart ;

hoho. tags replied. bet you guys miss my reply right?

wad's the time now?

...

3.40am! woah. joanne ar joanne, why this time still dun wan sleep? was reading blogg and reflecting about things. den ended up watching ppstream, digimon. so addictive can! v. nice.. veryy childhood. hhaha.

aniwae, had lantern fest. today w CG. but ended up playing candle and sparkles. hoho.

but the times spent under the moon is really fabulous. really thank god for blessing us with a good place and weather to enjoy it! really wanna utilize all my time for god's kingdom.

before today lantern thingy, had shepherding. it's really refreshing and really great la. cus i am able to tell someone about how i feel for all part of my life! really thank god for placing ppl in my life.

another thing is that, i`m happy that my CG mem opens up to me. it really is an encouragement to me! really will know that, my life , can be taken as an example. so i must set good examples for my sheep, for the CG members...

hahhs..

aniwae, SARAHH, AHRAHH said that my voice is cute. haha.. really. i 've god evidence. but nvm, god see it~ hohohoho.

k la.. bye.

tired le . nights.

2008-09-13T13:18:00.000-07:00

bizart 3a . =)

recently, i`ve learnt alot thru the experience that god blessed me with and i really thank god for that. without this, i wouldnt have learnt and overcome what i always couldnt overcome... in my life, i`ve never experience so much from god, even tou i am a borned christian.. i never know what is quiet time, what is to go for service and CG. but now, i really came to understand what is to have a closer relationship with lord , jesus.

alot happened, alot learnt. i dunno how to summarise everything up. too much . blame it on me who dont wish to blog often.

- jenny's birthday, happy 20th birthday pherdy!

- newell's birthday , happy 18th birthday !

- sheepie growing.

- CG growing slowly.

- God spoke to me in many ways.

- God help me in every situation.

- learnt to depend on God and rely on God.

- learnt how to skate.

- miss GECK.

- going out of singapore soon.

last one..

- hungry, wanna sleep.

heeehs. i`m hungry. and tired. after editting the blog. shall edit more tml den. nites ppl. dont miss me. thank god for today.

God, i really thank you for speaking to me and helping me to grow and mould me to be more like jesus. thank god!

nites.

The good news is here !

2008-09-10T07:47:00.001-07:00

been a long time since i blogged. today i will blog not about what i have done, not about what i wish for as my purpose but purely to share the good news to the fellow brothers and sisters whom are with me in this warfare .

today, i felt god's wonderful and awesome power in my life. i really would like to share this with you guys. although you may feel not much or it might change ur life but fellow sisters and brothers, let me share it with all of you.

God reminded me today about LOVE. Not the love of BGR, not the love for animals, not the love for anything else, but the love for god, the love for god's people. All the while i have been evaxing, sowing with the mindset of bringing them to know god because i want to reach my target, i want the leaders to know , i want the people to be saved for the sake of it. It really struck me hard about what god spoke to me this morning. As i was waiting for shirley and pei qi at the interchange small mac in the morning, i was really perplex about some issues in my life and i really didnt know how to handle. i was using my strength all along to manage the whole issue. i was seriously tired and exhausted.

This morning, i sat down at mac with that 1hr and 3o mins of waiting for them, god refreshed me thru that short time. I decided not to rely on my own strength, is at down, took out the bible and prayed to god - god, i`m sorry i relied on my own strength, i`m really having a tough time now lord, let me hand my whole situation and life unto you. god, show me thru the bible what you want to say to me lord i wanna surrender myself to you. god showed me this verse in the bible which says something like this :" love the person like how god will love him/her even though he/she might have turned to other god, love them. " i started to ponder, out of my contact pool, how many do i show real love and concern? out my my friends how many do i love and concern? do i select and choose who to save and choose who to sow on? God really reminded me that love is the most essential key to building a relationship. having true love for someone is something that the other party will sense. god really reminded me, if there is no love, the ppl can sense it and they are able to know our hearts. what matter is god, he sees our heart, our motive. it really woken me up and reminded me that god, to him, i`m transparent. so no point hiding from him , for he is there to help me and to grow me.

This is also constantly in my mind, sisters and brothers, if end days is here, your friends arent saved, your parents arent saved, will you feel guilty? will you reprimand yourself? or will you feel upset? all these will come when he's back, it will be the least expected [ matt 24: 44] . bear in mind that, love is the most essential thing to save someone. to touch someone's heart, it's love. god really showed me the way to allow me to continue this path till i see him face to face in heaven. sisters and brothers, we wont know we will face jesus. it might be tml, it might be next week, or it might be in a split seconds later. we wont know. let's really have the love for the people, let's really be reminded of salvation's day and be reminded of the love god have for us. we should learn it from god, to love the people. it wont be easy to love everyone , do bear in mind. to share the good news to them, for we are nothing without god. god sent us to earth, not to earn a million dollars, not to establish a great career, not to have many Zs and As, yes, it may be essential to us, but it's not the focus. what ever i want to do, i want to be kingdom - minded to know that whatever i do, i want to glorify god, i want to lift his name on high, i want to exalt the lord!

some of you might feel that, wow, joanne is so ridiculous , is there really such a person who exist? all these are base on my own experience with almighty god. i really would want to share this joy i have with everyone out there. i do hope that any brother and sister or even someone who dont believe in him, to take a min or so to really ponder about what is truely love, and how he have been performing in our lives and how great he is.

"you will never know how great he is , how awesome is he , until you receive him into your life" i really find this indeed, very true and applicable in my life. i thank god for all the words he have spoke to me and i hope it did spoke to you guys too.

results are out, but what matter is the kingdom of god. the eternal and not the temporal. whatever the outcome maybe, i know god have it's best plan for me. i will do my best to glorify god, and not myself. for god is working and is real in my life. let god live in me and let my life be an example to somebody else's life !

byee!

2008-09-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

miss me? bet ya did. hohos.. aniwae, just wanna update about my life before i get busy up again.

main updates :

1. breakthrough in my life.

2. a sheep to take care of.

3. decided to go korea and cruising. booked tickets.

4. exams are over. god will bless.

5. been reflecting alot, struggling alot, but i made it through with god.

6. problems arised, but i solved it becus god is with me.

7. i`ve change my attitude and mindset towards certain things.

well .. the things stated above are really things that are going thru my life the past few weeks/months/ days. i really had this roller coaster feeling. but i am really really glad, i`m stil standing strong with god. yupps. although there might be things said about me or wad, but still, i aint the one i am before. it's something that i am really proud of. to look at things at another angle and dont repeat the same mistake ever again..

Also, through christ, i was taught how to love, how to care how to forgive, how to forget. how to learn, how to share, how to bring ppl to him, how to serve as a slave.. i really learnt alot that this world can never ever teach me. i`ll continue to serve him in the K.O.G ..

some of u reading might be asking.. why is joanne so persistent about god.. why is she holding onto a believe which is not true.. [ since i have ppl asking me] i wish to clarify, i really wanna share this joy.. and god indeed have added more values and more character , blessings into my life. i really carn thank him enough for what he have done. untill you have come to have a relationship with god, you will not be able to experience alot of blessings from him. it may be hard to believe in something unseen. but do believe in the eternal, not temporal.. what do we gain in this world after we earn alot of money.. spend it and spend.. what happiness we get? humans have never ending needs and wants. we live to fufil needs and wants.. but it will never end.. are we gonna slog our whole life just for that? or are we using it to build a foundation, to bring more ppl to know god, and to see salvation in this world.. i really hope that people will be saved.. even those i hate, i love you. i really hope to see my dearest friends, ppl whom i hate and argued before.. coming to know him.. it doesnt gain me anything.. god doesnt pay me.. neither does the church.. no one.. but becus, i wanna share this incredible news and joy to all of you !

jiayou! if there is a point of time where u feel so tired and feel like giving up.. seek god.. ask him.. he will be there for u .. ALWAYS.

loves ,

joanne ; Correyy.

2008-08-23T10:44:00.001-07:00

hmms.. how long have it been since i update? well.. verii verii long. continue to tag more, i`ll post. hmmms.. alot happened.. and right now, it's the exam period.. i dunno why but i dun seem panic and stress about it? actually a lil. for the glory of the kingdom i`ll jiayou.. but no matter wad, i`ll be the eventual winner! eternal, not temporal. but still, glorify him. yupps..

i dunno when i`ll post again. bet it wont be fast. me having a blog = not having one. not updated also. hohos. aniwae, have been busy with stuffs.. yupps. right now , i`m really tired . shall post next time.

bye. continue to tag. =)

i wanna ask myself this.. when is the last time i have a sad, emotic, upsetting post?

this few days.. it seriously made me ponder alot.. i dunno what's going on inside me.. i dunno what's going on with me.. i just carn seem to bother much.. i just carn seem to control my temper.. i need help.. gosh.. it all seems like i`m gonna dry up.. i`m gonna burst anytime.. i tod i could hold on.. god.. refresh me.. take away the hatred and take away the anger in me.. i need the peace and calm and the most quiet heart deep within... i`m so so so tired..

2008-07-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

This may be lengthy, but do read it's how i feel & what i wanna do. and what i wanna express. ^^

shall update blog since i got so mani people reading my blog who dont tag. =.=! aniwae, life have it's up and down. but no matter what, i will still give my blessing to father god. i thank him for the problems added in my life to allow me to grow, to allow me to learn from it. and i thank him for being the one always there for me. i thank him for walking beside me , listening to my whines and sorrows. i thank god for bringing me back to him. and i thank god for everything he placed for me. i thank him that i can live today, and i thank him that i have a purpose found in him.. ^^

whenever we want to do more and serve god more, many things just sets into my life, preventing me from doing it. satan is a bad guy! but nvm de hor satan, i tell u i got god! heeehs. yupp. for him, sacrificing anything is worth it. for it's the eternal thing that i am pursuing. not the temporal worldly things. give thanks to jesus christ for dying on the cross for us to reach heaven! thank god for his mercy towards us!

to do things for god, is there a limit for myself? to do things for god, is it for the sake of doing? i guess correct mindset and right attitude is the key to these. often or not, i am too complacent and always hope for god to bless me with this and that. i never tod of how i can do more things for god, how to ask god to guide me to do more for him. i guess, i have to be faithful in doing these lil things for him.. god wont want to see me waiting for him to give blessing. but to see us doing things for him, it pleases him. father lord, i really want to do more for u instead of u adding lil blessings in my life more. i want to earn these blessings and i really want to do more and more for me.. this will not be just a moment of thing. but lord, i promise, to keep this promise till the end. i will do whatever i can for u. this promises is made, and my CG member sees it. they hear me.. and i promise oh lord. i promise... i wont be complacent, i wont want to sit back and see u do things miraculously.. i have to work and serve u faithfully! god, repent for the past complacent, and i really want to devote all i have to u. sacrifices for u are worthy, for i`m pursuing u till the end of the race, when i can see u face to face. these setbacks and problems will not stop me from running towards me.. for u will refresh me and hold me strong till the end. i trust in u oh lord. i trust in u, no doubt, u will be with me side by side! doing things for u aint easy, but with u being with us, everything will be easier than it seem. for u are a mighty god blessing our lives constantly. i shouldnt doubt, i wont doubt for i know how u blessed me lord. i thank you for little blessings. even blessings like having food to eat for the day, and things to be stable, i really wannt to thank god.

sisters, let's jiayou and work faithfully towards the eternal that god promised us.. for in heaven is the place where we truely experience happiness. only through him , we gain the salvation. time is enough for us, till jesus comes back. are we ready to face him? are we prepared to face him? are we prepared to see his works? let's not wait and wait and wait.. cus by the time we finish waiting many lost souls have past by.. by the time jesus might come already.. how are we gonna salvage the situation we lost? so let's really use the time wisely now, and to really pioritize god at the top piority.. ^^ refresh ourselve spiritually from the WOG, refresh ourselves through the close prayers we have with him.. let him guide us through this road which will be a hard battle. let's take up the sword and fight this war till the end.. and let's be salt and light to the world! nothing is too hard for our mighty god.. something that might seem so so so tedious and tough for us, we might even break down.. but remember, god is beside u.. let him help u solve things.. if u put the 100% faith and trust in him !

all these i have said, will be put into practical actions . NATO isnt something that i want. i really will acheive it... for god's kingdom, let's work!

by mid august, to rise up as a praise guitarist.
by end august, to be a shepherd of 2.
by mid august, reach my two challenges. [ frm PQ & shepherd]

you know, i am really happy to know i have god. no matter how a day might be, i always recharge myself, telling myself, god is with me. and it just bring a smile across my face. god understands everything. he sees it. so believe! ^^

CT teaching and CG teaching really taught me all these. and all the above are all things i felt, and should do...

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hmmms.. well, projects are coming to an end soon.. things happen for a reason.. and i know god have a plan installed for me. so i wont let it affect me. hahhs.

MCG @ KTV , it was a blast. but it wasnt an MCG eh. must really work and work sisters! i will too. i will and i must. JY! hahhhs. we had ktv session and we ate boon tong kee after that. ahaha! my favourite place lurhh! HAHHHS. it's nice, cheap, restaurant, great! hahhhs.

SATURDAY SERVICE :

CLC really made me realise alot alot , and i repented eh cus i realise i didnt thank god when i receive blessing , i doubted the prayer's power..yup! god i repent! hahhs. service was a blast. altar call. i responded to it. and god heard my response. i will do as i say, i will do it for god. and i will not let it just be a saying. ^^ being a new believer or not doesnt give me an excuse to not keep my promise or to use it as an excuse. i`ve made my promise, and i wont forget to move towards it. =) after service, 3A verii cute lurhh! Hahhahhs... went cineleisure to have KFC. lols. and we suddenly went to take neoprints? it's really sudden kind lurhh! so cuteeee! hahhhs. after that, went home with bizart ppl . ^^ recharged & refreshed! ready to set off once again!

SUNDAY :

CLC was long, but it was really fruitful. i learnt alot and realise alot of my sowing are not correct. thus alot happen. but god, gave me second chance! i should cherish it! [ wednesday god gave me second chance!] i should seized the chance and to use a correct method to do it. if not i`ll only lose more. =(

MONDAY :

hmmms.. monday, wasnt that fruitful. but netherless, i will improve and i will not let the letdown bring me down. continue to serve and to do my best for him. childlike faith ! ^^

TUESDAY :

had lessons til 4pm and rushed for CT meet. it's cold and really , i ponder alot alot more. and i see much more what i should do. path became clearer and clearer. i thank god for showing me the way to do things now. ^^

WEDNESDAY :

had CG today! refreshing and the CHAIRs had a great start. good job! ^^ things were smooth today. alot better. but could have alot more improvement. ^^ let's strive towards excellence sisters! we can do it. LOVE GOD, LOVE PEOPLE!

alright, shall post pictures now. ^^

lord, i would want to know what is my life mission to glorify your name..

TAGS REPLY :

C.H : hahhhhahhs! u sure u imaginary? i think i noe who are u lehhs...

karen LO : i dunno. it just seems cute leh. i`m loving. i just said that ur surname is cute! lols. give u a wide smile so u will sae i`m adorable. ^^

claricia : hahhhs. okay, will relink soon! wah lauu. youth day holiday i no havee. fine one day come out play leh. ^^

eugene pang : hahhs. yo! how are yoos already? hmmms.. change link again ar? lols. okay. wil relink soon.

Gretchen : hahhaas. teacher's day coming! i`ll be coming backk soon. red carpet ar?! lols. u sae one ar. dun run away.

DAamanda : hahhahs. it's all over already. i`ll refresh myself with the WOG. i`ll be positive about it! ^^ god have bring me thru it already. loveyou too! LOLS.

xiiuhuii : u want to sign ur name? lols. i should have a guestbook or something. so that STARS like u come can sign. LOL.

jonathan : i dun see ani handsome leh?where? where? wa lau. u bluff me.. =(

Ruth : hahhhs. i`m joanne ar i tell u. LOL. wad joanna! uu same CG with me.. loving ar.. not bad ahhs..

Thea: eh pig ! i see u here! pig pig! HELLO. lols.

Christen : ignored. ahahas. and i updated already. hohos.

meiyi : yo yo ! hahahhahahas! miss me? i bet u did. LOL.

zhi wei : yupp yupp. will. and i will note what u tell me. hahhs. it's essential for my growth! i will learn de. hahhs. u`ll hear less of me i hope. LOL. yea. let's really place all things behind, to serve his kingdom first!

geck : yupp yupp! ur encouragement card is really strengthening eh. always there for me ar! lols. i will be here for u also. if u need someone to lighten up ur life. HAHs.. God is our strength!

DAamanda : hahhs. yea! sheepmate sheepmate! be sure it is open eh? whenever i want to shout must be open eh? hahhhhs! yup. god will make a way for us. not just me, for all of us ! he is our back up, our strength, our father. ^^

jenny : hahhs, shepherd! no probb. pherdy pherdy! if there's nothing i also will tell u i`m happy. hahhhs. shepherd JY too! sheepie will guaii one. sheepmates will also de! hahhhhhs. so funny.

jia : yo sheepmate, yupp. god is with us. grow grow grow! =)

liting : yup yup. thanks for encouragement. ^^ jiayou too ! miss me ar! ^^ i noe u are.

christen : lol. u my regular blog reader ar.. lols. yeaaa! jenny got use hiek hiek meh? lols. yea! she's not scary! infact, she's fun to be with ! ^^

passer-by : thankyou.. god bless. ^^

kenneth tay EVPS : hahhhs. dun need put EVPS i noe who are u . LOL. didnt know u will read eh! anotther silent reader. but not bad, this time got tag. YO ! lols.

Alexia : i teach u la! hahhhs. or u play water by poolside!lols. heehs. ok la, teach u la pigg.

Tiffany : hahhhhhhs. no prob! let's go play and have fun ! ^^

thanks for the encouragement bizart-zers. ^^ love all of u narhhs! hahhhs!

GTR . lols.
go sleep already lurhh.
nights ppl.
miss me.
nites.

2008-07-23T22:07:00.000-07:00

sorry for the lak of updates. hmmms.. life have been great! seriously great.

with regards to the previous post, i know they have read it. and i really hope that the relationship with them will improve.. which i dunno whether it will or not.. well.. if you guys are reading this.. i really hope to improve.. so please take into consideration about how i will feel .. and why i have so many commitments.. please understand. and also, i am not the kind of elite student. yes, some things i do might not be well done or worse, it is not at all of use. but i do hope that you guys will help me and allow me to learn through it.. thanks.. i really thank all of you for doing so much and making time out for project... thanks..

well, updates on my life.. last saturday's sermon is awesome! it's just the words that i need and the help that i seek from god! thank god! i was indeed refreshed and was indeed verii verii happy about it! i will change to be someone who really cast all problems unto him.. for he have paved my way so nicely for me.. i just have to look at him and run towards him.. not to stand by the side to look at what's around not focusing on him! amen! god bless man!

sunday went for membership class.. hahhs. it was really fufiling! membership! wooots. i was being verii noisy lurhh.. hahhhs. a few of us attended.. hahhs. met more people! and pastor jeff was real funny la! heeehs. i was really happy .. and i was really refreshed, recharged, ready to go!

monday had CT meet. hahhs.

tuesday was amazingg! i met jenny for shepherding . we went swimming! i really had a heart to heart talk to her! she's not scary actually. AHAHAH. but it was really fun and relaxingg.. i did relaxed and forgot my projects, studies for that moment. was really happy lurhh.. and i enjoyed the few hours.. it's so different and so open.. i do can talk to jenny well eh! hahhhs. i will take up the challenge and grow stronger! ^^

wednesday nothnig much leh. yesterday lurhh.. hahhhs..

today, now haaving lab lessons again. hiekhiek! hahhhs. nvm.. aniwae, i`m too lazii to recall. too lazi to blog already. just want to blog to let you guys know i`m alive! shal reply tags now.. in tagboard or in blog.. i will reply in tagboard denn.. AHHA!

bye.

2008-07-17T21:15:00.001-07:00

i miss the CG. i need god. god o god.. sorry. i feel like cryingg .. i am cryingg. i`m hurt.. god heal me.. how can i deserve you god. i`m so sorry.

2008-07-17T20:12:00.000-07:00

sorry for lack of updates. been real busy. going school from 9-9 kind. reaching home at almost 10 plus , 11. been really tired out with the things piling on me. and the feeligns i feel, how i wish i could express.

i dunno whether this will be read by them or not, i really wanna sae it out.

Projectmates :
i dunno how u guys feel towards me, but i really really hope to really get into all of your conversation sometimes. i do feel left out and not with the group. and ii realise, i always cannot seem to participate with you guys.. i really hope to know what's the problem. is it because i am always busy, or i cannot give good ideas? i aplogise for the timing i have, but i really have other commitments i have to attend to. not that project araent important, not that i dont wish to do. no matter how i wish to do, i just cant seem to allow you guys to feel i am good for something.. i really wish to do my best, but i am also afraid of doing it wrong. somehow i wish that you all will be able to really understand me moer. as i really really wish to know you guys more... i know my language is poor, my ideas are not as well, but i really hope to contribute more.. i really wish to learn and interact with you guys.. i dunno how to express myself to you all. but i wanna sae, sorry tat i cannot spend more time, i`ve tried my best. and sorry that i may seem cold or quiet or wad...

life is hectic and busy that i dwell in this busy life, forgeting the presence of my almighty god.. god o god, i`m sorry that i have been dwelling onto all these and not clinging onto u when the problems sets in. god, i wanna hand all these to you god. to really cling onto ur presence, to let you pave my path o lord... god, i really thank you for placing the cg by my side lord. to spur me on, to set me in the path of yours god. i thank you for their presence and i thank you for ur never ending love. although now i am busy and troubled over lots of stuffs, but god, i know you are here, just beside me. where i can seek your comfort your love, your care and concern for me. i thank you lord.. thankyou father...

yesterday was the last CG for bizart 3. after this, it will be Bizart 3a,3b,3c,3d !! so sisters, let's not be sad over the restructure, but be happy for it, as it will allow more growth in us in quantity, and in quality ! those without sheep, take yuor chance to grow and find a sheep soon! god will give eventually at the right time, but u also msut do your part to evax, to sow. we have the contacts , not for the sake of it, but for the salvation that god is giving us...let's really work and serve the kingdom of god. let's grow together alrighht?!

after this hectic week, i`ll post. gtg now. ^^

loves.

2008-07-09T20:36:00.000-07:00

been such a long time since i last blogg. alot happened. and i am glad i will still stand strong with god. i will walk this path he pave for me. and i will do all i can for god. even if i`m not feeling well, i will do my utmost best to serve him. for he is the greatest healer around. where i draw this strength to serve him u may ask. i can tell u, it's because he first love us. i am loving god and this is the strength that i have.. amen!

shall post some pictures up of my presentation day & other random photos.

siick today. not going school today & tml. but will go for project and mcg. gonna visit a doctor soon. after this post.. i dunno why i am posting. but just to update u guys tat i am not dead yet, neither am i mia-ingg. just thati`ve been too busy with project, cg, family, friends. etc. i`m leading a verii happy life.... and purposeful life!

aniwae, was reminded of some stuff few days ago. i remember during sec 2, i was given a chance to go to " hai die" to sing. but den due to the schedule last time, i didnt went for it. i love singing btw. and recently, was asked to go train singing at lee wei song school of music? but i rejected that offer. simply becus, i would like to use my voice to worship god. last time, fame and royalty is all i want, but now, all i want is a fufiled, purposeful and meaningful life built with god. yes.

gtg. byee!

2008-06-25T21:17:00.000-07:00

ok. sorry for late reply of tags. hahhhs!sorry la. seriously, i`m really busy worrr...

LT : hahhs. i could speak after that. it's funny lehh. but it's god's blessing! yupp!

alan : hahhhs. u found my blog?! okok. will link u up SOON. i hope. hahhs.

zhi ning : hahhs. aniwae, u birthday over by the time i reply your tag. hahhhs. i miss yoos too ar. so long nva see u since i not at bugis le. hahhs!

Daamanda : LOL. seriously, i see karen blog. i feel for her. oh gosh. actually, you should be cold abit ma. hahhhhs. hotness come from me. urs cannot win me la. hahhhhhs!

naemah : hahhhhs. why? my voice so cute , why glue my mouthh?!

claricia : updated! hahhs. cheers verii lousy la. no reception one. must go find somewhere hide got reception. hahhhs!how are uu?

nisa : hahhhs. got me of cus sweet lurhhh. exclassmates? aww. i miss 4e2. sorry eh! no class outing. verii busy that time. this time i promise there will be one chalet coming! be prepared!

jonathan : wad wad's happening. u so random lehh. hahhhs.. wad's wrong?!!!

gretchen : hahhs. thanks. which ones? i havent got a chance to take pic with u. when i go back u bettter dress nice nice ar. den we take pic. i might be going back sooon! hahhhs. miss yoos lehhs. hahhs.

geckting : huh? gorgous urh. hahhs! also got my pretty face den more gorgous. more "tu chu"! hahhhhs!

jo`daamanda - geckting: hahhhs. no la. dun have leh. only got my adorable face leh. and the only gorgous one is me? LOL.

hotdog : updated le! post le. got my face and ur face so u want right. u go print la. and frame it up. hahhhs!

naemah : cause he is witth me ma!so he happy la. his eyes small cus he feel my eyes small. =.=!! no ma. i reminding myself of u. cus ur hand so bigg.

alexia: hahhhhs. u alwas see me. u surely happy ma. why show sad face. must be typo. nvm. i forgive u. next time see u i will hug u tightly. hahhs!

dewi : hahhhs. i will do it sooon. i hope. hahhs. how are uu?!

rabia : WAD AHLIAN. i so cute cann?!! dun want link u already. angry. ii at singapore all along lehh. lols.

peter : what's with the oh ee me? LOL. aniwae, HI! LOL.

wi11p0w3rR : who say ppl will view ur blog. some others view my blog only ma..

jenny : yupp. i believe god wants me to go through alot more to continue to test, to mould and to shape me into the one he wants me to be... ^^ jiayou !

captain honeystar, gou qi zi, ginseng:i know who you are! hahhs. dun spam ar. spam spam. so free ar?!

naemah : hahhs. i didn't ! i blogged already! miss me right. i noe.

binhao : hello! hahhhs. i dunno who u are at first leh. hahhs.

daamanda : i believe god will go through all these with us, and will give me the strength to grow much more. god is with us through this. moulding me, shaping me and he will give it all to us. i will grow much more. all of us will !

wi11p0w3rR: hahhhs. hello pherdy! jiayou too!

xiuuhuii : wahhh. sadd lehh. i so cute norhhs...

naemah : u so random sia. LOL.

okayy bye!

2008-06-25T02:45:00.000-07:00

currently in school doing my project.. and i really want to use every minute of mine to spread the words of god. time is not enough for us. he is coming back soon people! go for it. gogogogogo. time waits for no man. we cannot do evagelism in heaven! we have to really do all of this and tell them how much god have changed our lives. share the joy, the inner peace, the excitement and the purposeful life! amen !

i feel so recharged, refrsh and strong to move and charge forward. to take up a sword of god, and to fight for his kingdom. it is a tough and long journey..

are we ready to fight this glory for god? are we ready to put down all things just for god? are we ready to face the strong oppositions and persecutions? are we ready to win this war?

go for it. we will do it till the end of our lives. spread his love. his joy !!! i feel the excitement of doing this and i can't wait to really go forward to do it! let's charge people. let's go .

be strong, be faithful. surrender all ouur obstacles and problems unt god. for the smallest issue won't even hurt him. he is our faithful and ever loving god!

let's all jiayou !!

2008-06-24T10:15:00.001-07:00

alot have happen and i am more spiritually fed and spiritually recharged. sometimes, i am really tired to go on.. sometimes, i am too lazy to go on.. alot have happened, new members in bizart 3! yansee & samantha! glad to see u guys coming forward to say yes to know him..

i faced alot recently, be it ups and downs.. no point retrackking, as i am living for the future, the kingdom of god. amen!!!

today, had a long tiring day. hmms. i took back com skills result.. somehow or rather, i really have the inner peace in me . cus i know i eventually will be the winner in this race. and i wanna bring more ppl along with me for he is so loviing. we are living for his love.. so , it really didnt really matter alot to me i realise! hahhs. but it'll be good to do well but well, aniwaes.. hahhs!

after school, went over to eunos to have worker's meet... hmms.. it's really veri impactful, it's not gonna just be i promise i will do this, i promise i will do that for god. i will really put it into actions. i will go over it. no matter how it is, no matter what's stopping me. i will do it. the rest, god will handle. i trust him.

satan attacked my faith after this. my mum called me up to sae like i`m not home yet, she will lock the doors . and from tml onwards, if i am not home before 10, she will lock all doors and i can only get home the next morning? how saddening can this be? i was really so upset that i kept quiet in the bus. only after i alight, then i started to think.. i criedd and i prayed to god. god god god, i really want to serve uu, really want to praise and worship you. why the persecution is coming so fast... god, help me out.. i really want to go on serving u. i really know i want to be with u in heaven, to really come and bring more people to u. i want to do it. i want to put it into actions. dun take away my chance god... please help me. and as i reach home, the door was indeed locked [tightly and all locks locked] and my dad open the door for me and comfortted me telling me anithing, call him. i felt immediate relief man! god! you answered my prayerr! and i thank god for it.. god thank you! i will grow more faithfully and stronger in you!

alot will be faaced, will we be ready to do all these just for him?
are we ready to see him?
are we going all out to save the lost souls?
are we going all the way to bring more people to him?

it's not about skills. it's about ones' determination and trust in him. he can create miracles in our lives. believe! jiayou~ !!

sorry . too tired to reply taggs.

2008-06-15T11:17:00.000-07:00

too tired to really blog. this two weeks are really tiring , but with god's strength, i will perservere...

jiayou !

let the pictures do the talking. tml den say more. will edit this post. tags errr, sorry, reply tml kk? promise.

2008-06-12T21:02:00.000-07:00

oh my oh my! how mani days have i not been updating? such a lazy pig ! gosh. why cant i be more impromptu to update?!! i bet my brains have been too tired. so dont blame me! aha!

cut the crap. well, basically, from 8-12 i`ve been doing alot of things ! start from 8 june !

sunday.. hmms.. went to t-interchange to meet jenny & amanda for sheperding. seriously, i learnt ALOT and shared ALOT too. deepen our understanding and the bond of CG! hahhhs. den i went over to urhh.. meet him. hahhhs. went to white sands to meet xavier and friends . to celebrate kai hui's birthday. practically, played and laughed ALOT. hahhs. enjoyed the day with them urh !

monday, went down to TP to evax. we made a break through. we stepped out of our comfort zone to go classroom by classroom to evax. although it's scary. although it's not easy. we did it. we went a step forward to bring try out utmost best to evax . of cus, there's quite a few stuffs that might stop our way. but we breaked through ! bizart 3 jiayou !

tuesday, we went to evax again. this time, some went to library to projects room to ask and evax. indeed, bizart 3 is growing alot ! woohoos. i am growing stronger too!

wednesday, went to sow on contacts. but then, contacts went off earlier and some couldnt make it. so we evax-ed again. i got one potential person. and i really hope, god will impact her life and show her meaning of life.

thursday, which is yesterday, we went to sow again. but turn out contacts all cannot make it. so we went to have lunch at bizpark and den headed over to tmall to buy things for today. wow. it's gonna be CRAZY ~ hahhs. and den we went to have dinner with jenny and geckting at century square. woot. we have 21 CONFIRMED VISITORS for today. and 7 COMFIRMED visitors for SATURDAY DESIRE DRAMA ! it's indeed god blessing towards bizart 3 for we have stepped out of our comfort zone and went ahead to challenge our potentials. let's continue to let this spirit going on. we must must must ! spread to the friday ones how great is the saturday drama and how it will impact their life. as it did impacted my life ! AMEN!

today will be going to do alot of stuffs and to really concentrate on contacts. as i must do my best to reach out to them and bring them through to tell them, how great is our god. amen !

shall post again. byee. next post will be pictures & taggs reply. let pictures do the talkingg. ^^

2008-06-07T11:48:00.000-07:00

have not been updating regularly. sorry eh! from the above post, i guess yoos all will noe who is the he i am constantly talking about. hah. aniwae, this few days have been busy with BIZART events. for more, read amanda's blog. hahhs. or read ani bizart sister's blog.. if u wish to noe lurhhs..

today, went out to meet him before i am suppose to meet amanda. but she told me she had to go for injection. sianns. nvm lo. i went out with dear, went bugis. took neos. =.=! first guy who is so enthu about it. and he asked me when i wasnt prepared at all. the last time i took was like 1 year plus plus ago?! yupps. it turns out real nice la. hahhs. look above lurh!

tml's going out with him tml . to celebrate some friend's birthday. before tat will be meeting amanda for sheperdingg. gotta go catch some rest now! bye! shall reply tags tml. enjoy the pictures lurh.

nites.

2008-06-03T07:34:00.000-07:00

happy happy me posting with a happy happy tone! shall blog out wad happen from friday till today.. like almost one week . =.= !

friday, nothing much. went to school. hmmms, he sent me to school. since i`m having lesson at 12-6pm.. den i came home and used com. as usual. carn remember.

saturday. heeehs. went out at around 11 plus to meet amanda at 12pm. cus CG meeting at summerset for lunch at 1pm. 2 pm - 4 pm bizart campaign was led by nel.. great teaching esprit de corps. hahhs. den went for break. went to isle cafe to see them eat and spend time bondingg. ^^ denn headed for service at around 6 plus. service was great. the video really made me realise salvation is what man should ought to have! so let's save more lost souls !

sunday, challenge your limits 2.. it was real fun la! i enjoyed myself. heehs. details i think also no need elaborate? must i tell den interestingg.. hahhs. no la. u have to be there to understand. so next time do join us! heeehs.

monday. seriously, i didnt study at all for that test. and i only studied one hour before the test becus of church events couldnt study much. but i was really glad. that morning i studied. everything was still fresh in my mind when i did the paper. i believe, god knows my anxiety and all. ^^ thank god! after that, hmmms. went to meet him. hahhhs. and he's really sweet la. he piggybackk me and all. i seriously love him.. ^^peii amanda till like quite late. glad that things are fine now.

tuesday was free, thus, i went to school to find dear.. surprised him! hahhs. he was shock. but it's fun la. hahhs. evaxed at 4pm . his friends are funny la! hahhhs. denn, shirls and aman came over to my house. walked my dog, exercised. yupps. studied abit at night..

wednesday, which is today. paper turned out okay. it's really god's blessing for my wisdom for my test.. sort of a breeze? yupps. denn, went to study with him . suppose to go buy some stuffs with CG de.. but nvm. tml den! hahhhs. aniwae, i havent study for tml's test so throughly yet. god will bless us. and i believe, i must also put in hard work! so shall go hardcore already. heehs.

and u guess are guessing who's my boyfriend. hahhs. okay la.. shall reveal. he's none other than...

dont tell u. LOL . bye !

TAGS REPLY :

Amanda : pherdy ! since when i kope ur pic ! lols. i`m so innocent!

zhi ning : glad to hear u are doing fine! happy birthday ![early or belated i not sure ] will de! ^^

evelyn : hahhhs. HOT DOG IS U MA. u should tag more with hot dog. twinn! hahhs. yupp. let's dedicate our lives to him and serve him with our strengths and talents. let's bring salvation and save more lost souls! will link soon. i hope. hahhs.

xiu hui : wad promise? to marry you?! lols. no have lehh. hahhs!

geckting : !! hello! i miss u urh! u only one whom will play with me.. ~ *muarrks* hahhs! dun throw away horr! hahhs. yupp, god will live in our lives and will make decisions for us. he is our father, our saviour! praise unto him !

shirls : bizart 3 really loves me alot! and i love u guys loads too. see all of ur taggs makes me feel loved more and more ! but god's love is incomparable.. eternal love, doesnt fade ! i wil cheer up. u guys will make my tiring and boring day lively! loves!

pei fen : hey hey! yupp. i remember yoos urh. hahhs. how have u been. how u come my blogg urh? thru my link at my msn nickk? yup! he's an awesome god. wanna join me this coming friday for an gathering? it'll be fun. reply me in msn by thurs. kk? ^^

claricia : hi !

LT : yupp. holy spirit baptised the first time i join CG. u not there meh? i tod u did?

jenny : YOOHOO! ahahahaha! so surprised to see u here * o.O * hahhhs. CG CG ! SERVICE SERVICE! I LOVE BIZART! one big family feeling. ^^ he will anoint me and will use my talent to serve him more! let's work together !! ^^

naemah : hahhhs. i told u already! shhhhs!

LIYONG : hahhhs. ya la. naemah so noisy. so kpo one. li yong, help me GLUE HER MOUTH!

okayy. gtg! byeee!

2008-05-29T20:53:00.001-07:00

seriously, i have something happy to post about today!

yesterday's CG was great! and i lead although i`m alone, but god is there with me. i know. and i have committed myself to god saying, i do not wish to put u at the back of my mind. but to put you the first tod before everything. karen joined us yesterday! ^^

yesterday's sheperding was great too! i knew more about holy spirit baptism. how powerful it is. and how great it is. and it is a gift from god! amen!

yesterday night. i was verii upset.. i looked at my eyes. and i saw some white stuffs around my eye pupil, and there's red veins connected to it. i was so afraid. this was happening to my right eyes. and i don't know when, my left eyes had some red veins already too. and at this point of time, my right eyes is hurting tremendously.. i didnt know what to do and i was so afraid. i started to pray. i told god, i wanted to continue to serve him , i want to see his words and let him teach me. i cried whilst praying. i kept praying and praying. and i went to sleep early. i was so afraid that i will wake up not seeing anything. i was so afraid i will wake up not being able to see the light.. i am very afraid. i didnt know what to do and i prayed and prayed. this morning, i woke up mani times just to open my eyes to check if i can see things and fall back to sleep again.. morning, i woke up . truely woke up kind. and i look at both of my eyes. and i thank god! he healed me! i was so grateful. and this is the second miracle i seen after i came back to him!

shall prepare as he is coming over to pick me up and send me to school.. shall go out soon!

i`m looking forward to tml's bizart campaign wearing the tee and service which will last from 2-10pm.. which means not much time to study.. shall take time out.. sunday, will be having breakfast with my CG first before heading over to sentosa for CYL 2! which will last from morning 8plus - 8plus pm i guess .. with all the travelling time la. ^^

so ciaos ppl!

2008-05-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

currently in school com lab. shiok eh? not really. having RHT as wad my usual thursdays are for now.. gonna go for CG later. yays! having shepherding later too! woohoos.. hope i`ll learn something out of it and apply it into my daily packed life..

ok. i promised to update on my previous few days schedule.

went out almost everyday. monday, had lessons from 9-5 verii verii tedious lurhh. dinnered with marcus lee, joel, philbert & den wwent home already. couldnt really recall vividly wad happened on monday. sorry urh..

tuesday, same.came to school at 9-4pm. den it was dinner with the same gang again..

wednesday which is yesterday, had lessons from 12-4pm as there's no intro HTM lecture. yupps. tiffany came to crash TP yesterday. i`m so darn happy lurh. as in, she's a verii verii good friend of mine. and i really miss the times with her. she is just so nice la. it'll be darn nice to have her in TP man. she talked to me about ppl changing. and i do agree. but wad can we do right? ppl do change, but it's glad that me and her, stil have so much to talk about . so much to confide in. really true friend lurh. she never fails to care for me lurh. ^^ after meeting her from 4-5 i went to meet shirley & pei qi at mushroom. tiffany left first cus i went to practice praise for today's CG.. chose songs, and learnt quite abit on notes and stuffs. hahhhs. but i`m nervous. alexia will not be with me. i think i mentioned already. yeaaa. so i`ll be leading praise alone. sadd.

after that, went to find marcus lee, philbert, joel at soccer field? yupps. den went over to find tiffany , yi hao, yi wei, si hao at mensa 2. den we all headed to the library to slack? yeaa. we did 2 stupid thing . first time in my life. LOL. shall not say it here.. den headed home.. ^^

ever since i came back to him i saw this miracle ....
i`m really shock to see my brother, my sister accepting him so much and my mum not giving comment towards me being with him. PRAISE TO GOD! seriously, it's a miracle i see that god set into my life. praise unto him.. seriously, if u guys know my mum well, you will know if she see ani photo of me and my boyfriend, she will scream. this happen towards my previous ex and alot of family problem came up. and yesterday, she took a look at my planner, saw my photo with him, and she asked my sister " not the previous one right? ok lo. " she did not scream u noe? i`m so shock and i believe it's god's doing and i know he have paved my path for me. i give praise and thanks unto him! thank you father lord!

ever since the days i went back to him, ~~god blessed me alot.~~ no, he have all along been blessing me with alot of stuffs. and i am happy that i have all these. so towards the previous post, i shall not think back. i am his child, only he looks at the way i do things. he is my saviour, my father, my confider. i am his child. and i will be doing things FOR him... amen!

i gtg now.

2008-05-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

sorry for a sad and depressing blog post. hmmms, nothing much to post . just that i wanna pray that tml's praise leading will be a fine one for me. as alexia will not be with me, i`ll be alone leadingg.. first time. and i noe god wil guide me and give me the strength.. he loves me for who i am, and he sees no fault in me. just the sincere heart he hopes to see. i believes he is the one who will be there for me..

school's been fine. revision have been done recently. exams are coming soon. hahhhs. where i went to today & yesterday, i shall blog it out tml. takkaire readers. taggs shall be replied tml too. thanks for all the care & concern i received!

2008-05-26T19:10:00.000-07:00

currently in school now having lecture in a stupid atmosphere. aniwae, there isnt much for me to blogg. just feeling vexed, and bored with regards to certain stuffs in life. sometimes, i ask , why is it i`m affected / am afraid of being commented / judged at. why is this so? seriously, i do not know. many things in life have beeen affecting me. wish to voice it out but i know there's eyes on me, ears close by listening. might as well just shut up. i feel verii verii demoralised with the wae i am being myself, but ppl around me dunno i am true or not. seriously, dere's no need for me to put on an act or wad. some might be delighted with what i just wrote, some may be unhappy about it. gahs. so much i call this my blog. so much i call this my personal space/venting area. there's just still some restriction. maybe i should just shut this blog down.

i am so afraid i will keep quiet once again. i know i shouldnt be afraid of the comments and i should not sway/ change my todds becus of all these. i feel terrible. but who can i seek? i know that things are never 100 ttrue. am i too sensitive or what? but i really don't know. i seriously feel terrible. who can i seek other father god? he's the only one whom knows me the best...

god, i know u are here for me. i know u understand how your child feels currently lord. god, i know u understand my situation and i wanna thnak you for blessing me with bizart 3 loving me for who i am , and i cna be myself whenever i`m with them. i thank you for this big family. and i thank you for being here for me. who can i confide in other than you? who can know me more than you do? who can i trust other than you? god, i wanna allow you to guide me. i give my life unto you lord. father, for i have sinned against you, i ask for your forgiveness. i wanna walk this faithful path down towards you. i wanna run into your loving arms. i wanna be with you. i know you are alwas there. you never forsake your child. i know and i understand. god, thank you. i love you lord. amen.

byeee.

2008-05-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

i will cherish and treasure , i wun let go ;

hello hello. back to blogging already. sorry fo not blogging yesterday. that boy was like scolding me today for not updating?! hahhhs. not scold la. if not he will knock some senses into my head tml already ! hahhhs. shall start posting about yesterday..

went to school for project. was quite reluctant? woke up early and slept in late as i went home late that previous night. den, ended project at around 12pm. went over to find that boy after that.. i do admit he is real sweet to me , and i enjoy being doted by you my dear.. shall address this issue later.. hmmms, den he piggyback-ed me! hahhhs. i know i`m heavy. i shall go reduce my weight. hahhs.

after that, around 2 plus went over to find amanda , shirley & more bizart 3 people. evax-ed before going over to sommerset for service. ate at la meridian before service.. service was great! messaged bring across was to let god intervance our life , and he will take our hands and walk our path.. and from the sermon, i learnt something, i cannot only seek god when i need him. but seek him under all circumstances, god will take lead in my life. i shall trust in him and walk down with him ! amen !

after service went to PS with bizart. tiring but fun. my ugly pics are captured by DAamanda, =.=! verii ugly kind. =.= ! my image gone already.. T.T !

today, went out to meet him . he waited for me for quite some time? waited for me to bath and prepare sorry eh. went downstairs to meet him. ^^ den, went over to suntec, MS & east point. i realised alot more about him, and i trust him, and i believe in him.. i do wish to walk this endless path, and trust me . don't walk back the same path alright? i know u will read this. tag me urh!

read till now, mani will be guessing, who's the above guy, and why am i suddenly attached? hmmms...

firstly, the guy, yoos wish to know, slowly guess. those who know keep quiet ar. hahhhs. ask me if u are really interested. to the reason why i am attached let me tell u..

1) becus i realise i love him for doing so much for me and i dont want him to sacrifice so much for me..
2) becus i have let go of my past relationship , and decided to take on this new path after a few months..
3) i do not wish to miss a great guy like him
4) i have fallen deeply for him

whether you will give me your blessing or not, i dunno, but till now, ppl whom know did gave me their blessing and told me it's wise to let go of my past and move on. yea. i think so too. he's a christian too btw. and we will walk down this faithful path down together! the past just made me gave up on myself. made me lost confidence in myself. but he assured me so mani times before we got together that he will restore my faith and my trust in love.. i did not want to gamble previously, but now, i took up this.

i`m proud to say, i did not regret my decision and i am loving him more den i can believe. i really do my dear. happy right? hahhs. i wun enter a relationship with the tods of ending it. true? why have enter a relationship with that tod right? ^^ so , believe me, i will be there for you whenever u need me... ! ^^

aniwae, i gtg already. having lessons at 9am tml. nights!

2008-05-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

BIZART 3! will be seeing them tml ! YAYS!

hello readers! sorry to be posting alwas at late night. hahhs. aniwae, i`m really really happy after the days i re accepted god back into my life. i look forward to everyday . look forward to god using me to serve him. i look forward for service too. this never ever happened to me before. seriously, i`m really glad to be reconnected back with him.

like wad my dear said to me, let's serve god together, do not run away from him already. we shall all serve him wholeheartedly , faithfully. i`m touched .. i managed to bring him back. ^^

today was quite tiring. despite waking up at 12.30pm? hahhs. i`m such a pig. woke up, prepared and went to school for econs lecture. i must save my wallet by not looking at the metal cabbies on the road. oh gosh.. hahhs. temptations! resist joanne ! aniwae, yupps. after econs was comm. skills. project coming up again.. =.=! denn, went over to safra with the guys. alot to mention. too lazii. =.=! the same few like the other time. but plus yan shan, yong han, edmond , philbert, marcus lee, joey. ya. alot of us went to safra... hahhs. did not really play much tou.. was much of slackking. ^^ saw primary school friends dere. as crappy as di siao as ever.. now, i reached home already. hahhs. durh?! bathed , talk to him on the phone . hahhs. he's as ever crappish man.. now i`m tired. wanna go do QT den sleep already. ^^

seriously, i wanna bring more ppl to know him. it's a real joy, real fun and a very right choice. i`m glad i`m back to him .. shall share a song with you guys...

making a difference

won't you lord, take a look at our hands
everything we have, use it for your plan
won't you lord , take a look at our hearts
mould it, refine it , as you set us apart

we want to run to the altar, and catch the fire
to set in the gap , between the living and the dead
give us a heart of compassion, or a world without vision
we will make a difference,bringing hope, to our land

we will answer the call, to build this church without walls
let your glory be shown, bring salvation to the lost , to the lost ...

there's alot more nicer songs i chanced upon recently. knowing him, is a real joy. bizart! let's work together and bring salvation to our loved ones and even those whom we feel impossible to reach out to. let's reach out to them!

alright, i`ve got a long day tml. practically i`m busy everyday. =.=! aniwae, nights ppl.

let god lives in our heart, with our burning passion, we will make a difference - stretching out to the lost ones ;

TAGS REPLY :

rui qi : hahhhs! i know u are here! you love me wad right?!

zhi ning: life've been great. how have yoos been?!

naemah : i shall go bleech myself soon. yeaaa! memories are just so wonderful. so let's walk down the MEMORIESLANE! hahhhs.

cs: life's been great yea! hahhhs. yoos?

amanda : beehhbheeeh~ i`m responding! hahhs. ps, i was real sleepy last night can?! you should know. i`m like can doze off kind. you both quarrel in my blog ar?! lols.

james : qi shi, wo ye bu zhi dao. ni de hua yu kao de bu cuo oh! ban shang di 3 ming!

Li ting : i wll bond well with the family, we are one big family. with the same goals and the same heart & attitude. as we are all the children of father god! not surprised! hahhs. yoos miss me mahhs. i noe.

Geckting : hello sister! praise unto god! hahhhs. i noe i noe. bet u miss me alot right?! i miss u too urh. see ya tml at service!

Shirley : Bizart, Engit , TP , HOPE church , we shall all dream big to acomplish big doing for our father god! yea! let's all walk together to serve him, loving him. i won't run away from him. i will run towards him bringing more sheeps with me! amen!

bye!

2008-05-22T10:35:00.000-07:00

thank you lord for everyday i have . thank you god for the blessings to keep me safe. thank you god for making my day end with a happy note.

hmms. well, this few days. wad happen? will not go into details unless it's very important.

Tuesday
comskill test on tuesday, rather manageable. yupps.

Wednesday
Got back FnB results. 45/50 quite ok. but could have scored better. haiis. had intro test. gone case la. =.=! did my best. and er, pass is can. do well or not, another problem. disappointing man!

Thursday
which is today. woke up at 8.30am. prepare and reached school before 10am. had POM tutorial. not bad la. den, went to kfc to eat. jie ling was being funny to teach us some "strokes" . denn, headed back to lab 7 and studied research. den went library chiong project till 4 plus. is verii tired kindd of thing. denn, went to find amanda. did shepherding for an hour. den headed to find him. went for CG. and den waited for him to end. den send him to bus stop since he not joining us for supper. hahhs. headed back. supper den went home.

Today, i was holy spirit baptised. it was really really powerful. i felt the presence of holy spirit and he talking to me. i thank god for anointing me to be his chosen one , powerful one to spread his words. i will continue to keep my faith in him, love him and trust him. i`ll give myself unto him and will confide in him, talk to him. have a private time with him.. god loves me for my inner appearance and i believe, he hopes that all the people out there will receive the gift of god which is salvation. amen! and i believe, we are his words, his power, his conveyer, to save as mani lost souls as we can to pick up more talent to serve him. lord, be with us. we`ll worship u, praise u wholeheartedly and joyfully. amen!

i wanna thank lord for sending him to me. as he really verii goood to me, and i have learnt to love him already. yeaaps. i will go off for my QT now and hit my bed after that. nights ppl.

let the lord be with us, in our presence and bring him into your life, to receive god's salvation.

gtg! BYEE!

2008-05-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

thank god for each and everyday i am living through now. i have alot to thank for ..

ok. i shall update urh. hmmms... saturday.. woke up at urhhh... if i aint wrongg, 10? yea. prepare, and went to meet amanda, mei yi & pei qi at around 1? they are alwas late. hahhhhs. i heard. den headed to sommerset to eat at "graffiti " dunno where la. denn, went to play pool. denn had service.

i`m really inspired by pastor jasmine. she really brought me back to god. her video, is the most important aspect, that brought me back to god. to connect me back with him. remembering the sacrfices he made, and the minute stuffs i did , the guilt i have. i cried. but, i picked up, and told myself, joanne, god is teling u, to go back to his embrace. he is constantly there for you. just a matter whether you will turn back and run back towards his loving arms...

and yes, i`ve reconnected with god again. i thank god for having a friend like amanda through out, pestering me for something good. pestering me all day long just to go back to u lord. and yes, i failed as your child, but now, i have grown stronger. to live in your name, to praise u to sing unto you.i thank you for bringing bizart 3 this bunch of people whom can tolerate my nonsense and jokes.. not forgetting, guiding me to come back to you lord. esp, jenny, pei qi, mei yi. they are constantly like my elder sisters, caring for me like a lil child. lord, thru them, i see your love, your amazing grace and your never ending love towards your child , me lord. thank you for everything.

also, i wanna thank you for my christianity family. my pestering family, asking me to go back unto you lord. and yes, i did i will not forget the love of yours and thru them. i will forever spread your words and bring more people to know u lord. i can do it. i believe so. as i am forever that noisy. [ hahhs]

a story to share. do just take a minute to read guys. really. [koped from meiyi's blog ]

Unmoved Rock

Once upon a time, there was a man who was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and the Saviour appeared. The Lord told the man He had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. This the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoved rock, pushing with all his might.

Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain. Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, SATAN decided to enter the picture placing thoughts into the man's mind such as "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't budged. Why kill urself over this? You are never going to move it." Thus giving the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure.

These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man even more. "Why kill myself over this?" he thought. "i'll just put in my time, giving just the minimum of effort and that will be good enough." And that he planned to do until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.

"Lord", he said, "i have laboured long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, i have not even budged that rock a half a millimeter. What is wrong? why am i falling?" To this the Lord responded compassionately, "My Child, when long ago i asked you to serve me and you accepted, i told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did i mention to you that i expected you to move it. Your task was to push.

And now you come to me, your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewed and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition, you have grown much and ur abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you hadn't moved the rock. But ur calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My Wisdom. This you have done. I, my child, will now move the rock."

1cor 15:58

This story, is really heartfelt & heartwarming. let nothing move our faith bizart 3 & all fellow hope "sheeps" . God is constantly there, helping us along, believe in him, and trust in him. God have paved our path. Do not doubt. he is our father, our beloved father. let's grow our faith towards him. and spread his words around alright? ^^

yesterday

went to work. nothing much.

today

woke up at 8. thanks to my SHEPHERD for conning me out ALL the time. LOL. went to fairprice to buy groceries.so rare of joanne tan in the supermarket.. hahhs. buy le, den went over to aman's house to cook spphagg. not i cook of cus. if not it'll be darn nice til not enough for ppl to eat. xD .den headed to "jacob's place" [ they lie to me about that place] idiots. but it's darn cool there can play MJ, pool, movie, eat, chat, gathering place la. darn cold and cool. heeehs. den headed to 201 to find that idiot. hahhs. den went home lo.

shall go revise my comm. skills already lurh.

bye bye!

reply taggs tml. nitees.

2008-05-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

hahhhs . morning readers! i just woke up from my ~~beauty sleep~~ nightmare. =.=! i dreamt that my parents shop was having some crisis and i have to apply wad i studied to it?! and i dreamt that there's someone who wanna kill me? and i hold onto the other railing of a building whereas i was about 6 floor away from the ground. then, she wanted to catch me. so i was like a spiderman , with my finger griped tightly to the sides, i jumped down gripping all the sides till i was down. hahhhs. den, i also dreamt that, my brother was in law ? yea. and we have to wear formal to some legal thingy, and we are not suppose to talk to the other party it will be considered as bribing? stupid la. why am i saying all these?! i bet you guys find me irritating. [ please, i`m so quiet and logical right?! ] nyeahahs.

miraculously i woke up at 10am during a weekend. thanks to someone. hahhs. it's okkay. ^^ den i came to blog lurhh. hahhhs. it's been some time since i last work. but still, i received my pay of about half of 500? not alot. but it's enough to tide me for 2 weeks till i get my next pay. next week have ta start working le. hahhs. crap crap crap. i`m crapping all the way.

1. i`m going out later ! YAYS! x1
2. i`ve decided my path & satisfied with it ! YAYS! x2
3. my parents dote me alot ! YAYS! x3
4. i have wonderful friends around me . YAYS! x4
5. i love my life ! YAYS! x5

okkay la. i have many things to be joyous about. and this is what god have granted me. i`m satisfied. i wanna go back to christ. today.

hmmms. going to ~~meet amanda~~ she's coming over to meet me, rather, coming over to my house now? idiot. say come means come. no notice one. hahhs. got la. half an hour notice. =.=! hmmms. after that we going to eat? shop? pool? before going to service. hahhhs. i am a happy lil girl now. thanks to someone whom made my day. lols! everyone made my daay la. hahhhs.

tiffany told me about her joining CYA . i wanna join her leh. should I ?! i think i should urh. hahhs. work at changi airport. not bad ar. but have to devote a few days for duty. and it is not a cca? =.=! idiot. okkay. nvm. i think i will join. shall see how. ^^

ok i gtg now den. i see no new taggs. i`m angry. if i am seriously fed up i shall close down this blog! hahhhs.

okkay la. take care people ! ^^

2008-05-16T09:34:00.000-07:00

hello hello. back to bloggingg.btw, i might be typing some nonsensical stuffs as i`m feeling dead tired now. spare me urh.

okkay. woke up at 10? suppose to wake up at 8.30am. dragged till 10. actually 9 i woke up again, but since daddy say he's gonna send me to school, i went back to sleep again. hahhs. den, i woke up did my com skills. shitty sia. early morning do english. but nvm. hahhh. write till got flow write till 400 plus words? omgg. hahhs. 1 morning less den half. hr can write 400 words can liao la. ^^ but still gonna practice lurh. early morning attended com skills till 12.30pm. den went over to tend booth? hahhs.

initially got all the energy to sell. but sorry urh class, till end slackked alot? hmmms. saw alot of people cann?! hahhs.. happy happy. hmmms, denn, after CCN, went off with marcus, joel, bjorn and yi wei. went for dinner at block 800 plus here. but i didnt eat here la.. hahhs.

went over to safra later on. we reached at around 7 plus ba. hahhhs. saw tiff, peng xiang, yi hao there. den kok boon and ah long came to join us later on? yea. it's darn fun cann?! so in total, tiff, yihao, joel, marcus, kok boon, ah long, peng xiang, bjorn & I played from 8-11 plus plus?? hahhhs. a fine gathering. next week also have ba. yan shan joining us too. lols. aniwae, it's darn crap over there can. the place even have this no member no noise policy. tmd. LOL. so we were constantly reminding ourselves , we no member hor. quiet hor. lols. peng xiang very sad. he today so lugi sia. ate 31 longan, 7 kiwi. [ not real one , but it sucks. it's dried ] yea. cus he and joel starting this "hai dai" game and " cai quan " game. peng xiang. omg. kept making us laugh like shit. and blames me for bring all those. i didnt ask u to play la! =.=! but it's darn entertaining. overall, i had a great day gathering down dere lurh. ^^

i am still bothered over it. i guess, i should just forget about everything i feel.

shall not reply tag. as there's no one tagging but views still running quite nicely. tag la. omg.

2008-05-15T03:41:00.000-07:00

hello hello. like i said. i promise another post of pictures and here it is. hahhhs.

shirlene and me. candid eh shirlene. her face make me wanna laugh cann?!

yi zhen & i. hahhhs. she's verii organised a verii good team leader. animal lover too!

priscilla! darnn funny one she. hahhhhs.

terrence & i. this idiot wanted to retake the photo. hahhhs. but this is nice lurh.

how we do our project! LOL.

jie ling fell asleep after a long discussion. really longg kk?!

and finally, a proper group photo!

hohos. yupp. after school, we [ shirlene, yi zhen, jie ling, priscilla, terrence ] went to west mac to have our lunch. hahhs. BECAUSE OF PRIS, i ate a freaking burger for 1hr ?!!! 1HRR?!! lols. i`m as slow as u pris. no worries. i noe u are constantly slow like wad terrence sae. hohos.shared alot of stories cannn? so darnn fun. hahhhs. den terrence left whilst the rest came over to my house. ahahaas.

reached my house, they played with my dog. =.=! diamond was being darn cute and GUAI. nvm. heehs. den den, reached at around 3 plus and do our work lo. wa, we got distracted. and becus shirlene want to try out my com webcam, we started camwhoring. IT's darn funny. shirlene tod she press "capture" is to capture a photo. but i didnt realise it is video. i mean i noe, but i didnt knew she press that. den, after 10 mins of so, the video was finally stop?! WATCHED IT AND LAUGH LIKE CRAP! OMG. shant upload it here, if not pris will start to laugh non stop again. xD den took photos lo. hahhhhs.

did our work from 3 plus to about 5 plus 6pm?! we are so darn serious la. i mean, we met at 10 this morning and did our stuffs till 12pm. den after our RHT lab we go eat and continue again. and this is our first session. we brain stormed la. everyone did contributed and this group is efficient and great cliques! ^^ ok lurhh. my rice is delivered to my desk already.

backk to blogging. wa, just eating one meal got so mani things to type again...

i gave up. i rather be loved than loving. i rather be treated nicely and treat that person back as nicely as i can instead of trying hard of that. no harm trying, and i hope, i will not fail my own promise.

let me think about it first den.

I`m Happy le! update tml. ^^

2008-05-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

currently in school having research on hospitality and tourism. using msn and doing SPSS. shitty. but fun. this morning met yi zhen and the girls at 10. darn fun la. we chat like nobody's business. heeehs. i got mani friendds! i love my class peeps lurh. wore quite formally and nicely today? ppl comment one. hahhs. no la. i also dunno. fun ma different attire everyday. i have yet to wear tee shirt! =)

ahhh! i got so mani things to vent out can?! i`m hungry now. i miss diamond now and i am boredddd! hahhhs. i aint paying attention. now doing tourism survey?! hahhhhs. finishing soon. gonna continue my project for INTRO. HTM and POM with the girls later. so gonna question them some stuffs. nyeahahaha. wooots. up till now. i`m happy as i didnt fail to attend ani lecture or tutorial even if my leg is like fractured. i`m happy. hahhhhs. shall be a good girl. darn glad la. heeehs. woot woot. i`m mad. lalala. let me waste some time here.

haslinda just came over to disrupt me by hitting hard on my keys. D... u has! heeeehs . i love my few cliques la. i have different friends okay.

aniwae, i shall remember to take photoS with the girls later. den i shall post it up. hahhs. miss me people. and tag. if not i eat u up ! NYEAHAHAs.

byee. miss me. taggg more leh. if not i really angry. HAHAS.

2008-05-14T06:49:00.000-07:00

she simply soothe my tiredness after a long day.

hmmms. yea. back from a long tiring day at school. woke up at 9 to study again. last night studied all the way from 7pm plus till 2am+++ 3am. sadd life eh. F&B i mus definitely score well. i love this subject super duper lot. really. hmmms. it rained at 10 plus okay. so shiok lehhs. hahhhs. daddy rushed home to send me to school . heehs. i`m really pampered eh? mummy also asked daddy come home fetch me to school which is just across my house. hahaaahahhaaa!

reached school, studying for F&B too. RHT was quite crap? just wanna deliver a few main point . but it's good lurh. at least i did absorb a lil whilst studying? hahs. hmmms, den went for tutorial. test was pretty much easy as he revised with us.hahhs. he's a good lecturer / tutor la! hmmms, den went for intro. HTM. quite okay urh. her lessons is alwas so funnye. heehs. having a test next weeeek! AHHHHHHHHH! hahhs. shall prepare le. heeehs.

after lecture and stuffs went to meet philbert, marcus lee, joel at biz canteen. den headed off to mushroom to meet liyong and joanne tham. hahhs. it's so crappy with us can. we girls are having a great time chatting and catching up. got some damn funny jokes la. i mean lame jokes. even joel dunno leh. LOL. this proves that joel aint lame. lols. aniwae, we headed to kfc to eat and chat and play la. funny lurh with them. headed hom took bus 293 home although it's only like go up bus for less den 5 mins i was lazii to walk home la. hahhs. denn, reached home, bought biscuits and milo again. my before bed meals. yupps. and here i am blogging.

i tod tat u promised to be there for me 24/7 . i tod i could rely u. i tod i still haev that lill trust in that. but it all came down to nothing. i was sick. i called u although u told me to go sleep. i didnt sleep tat night. cus i hurt myself. i took a long time to go home. thus i bluff u i slept. i called u again before i slept and bluff u again tat i woke up. and u scolded me. u did apologise yes. but i didnt noe u could get so irritated with me. to u, it doesnt seem so. u sae i am darn important to u. it doesnt look like it. u can say can make me guilty and stuffs like tat. maybe i`m too gulliable. maybe i`m too naive. i shouldnt have put so much faith in you. neither should i ____ . i dun wish to cling onto any empty promises. i`ll forget and i`ll lead my life as it is.

i dun wish to hurt, neither do i wish to accomodate. i dun wish to start so that it will not end. i dun wish to get entangled like how i was in the past and get myself all frustrated and upset over small lil stuffs. i just want to spend my time, my life happily with u guys just like tat. i noe that mani sacrifices have been made to make it possible. i do appriciate. i do wish to give it my best too. but i do not wish tat u willl not reap wad u sow. u are a nice person. i noe. up till now i`m still confused as to wad to do. let me take a break.

gtg now ppl. sorry for not updating regularrly. u guys nva tag. now tagboard full den i blog .

hahhhs. nites.

TAGS REPLY :

xiu hui : i`m fast ma! hahhhhs. not like u . so slow heeehs. yeaaps ying ye 3+1 is nice. i watching more video. ppstream is loved! LOLS.

naemah : busy gives u an excuse not to visit my blg?! anyway, today li yong and i remembered about guo yu opening his blue umbrella in the macdonalds. damn hilarious and we bet u will still remember. HAHS! been long since wad? u saw me? miss me right. hahhhs.

li yong : " hahhhhs " . lols. that's to yoos urh! not for me. heeehs. guo yu guo yu so funny! lols. *ant cycling past* everyday see u sia. hahhhs.

kaili : dun lie ar kaili. miss me nva come my blog want. *whackks* hahhhs. yoos everyday study with my brother is it. or rather, weekend. hahhs. aniwae, how's ur results? need help call me lo. hahhhs .may not be good, but still can help. ^^

marinne : hahhhs. we fated ma. u miss me den i appear already. xD woman u take care too la! ^^ dun anihow anihow close down blog ar. i will break down and cry. HAHHs.

amanda : G double O D J O B good job! hahhhs. idiot. make me sing here. so embarrassing.

hkh : idiot la. ask u tag nva ask u to sae hi bye. make me super duper ultra sad can. and the game, fun right. i noe. thank me!

alan : hahhhs. i will .. SOOON. heehhs.

byeee!

2008-05-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

hello. sorry for the failure and lackk of updates. been VERY busy this few days. let me start with 8th of may? thursday. hmmms, i.. i.. went for RHT, den went home i think? yea. nothing much. 9th of may. hmmms. went to school at 1 plus since lecture starting at 2pm. end school at 6. was dragged to eat " zi char" with joel, marcus, bjorn, joey, chin keat, philbert, li yong. hahhhs. darn stupid one. lols. but ate le went slacking. den dey came over to my house block and slacked downstairs? yea. i went to work leaving them here. hahhhs. nothing much.

saturday hmmms.. wad did i do? stay at home and watched ai zhuan jiao on the net as i was really too bored. at the same time is reluctant to go work. heehs. dragged myself down to bugis at only 7 plus? and after closing, went to pick up my mum from the airport had a surprise supper for her. she's touched. ate till 3. reached hom 3 plus. slept at 4. omg.

next day woke up at 7am. meaning, i only had 3hrs of sleep. headed down to dover with the rest of the team for tp cap. team for tat day's event la. denn, played from 9-5pm. darn tiring . and hot. fun ye.a more details read amanda's blog. i got badly burnt and tanned. idiotic. after that, went over to cs, to meet marcus to celebrate his birthday with the guys. they are damn idiotic hahhhs. but funny.

yesterday was typical, went to school at 9, ended at 5pm. headed to the prata shop at 400 plus with the guys again. idiot la. travel so far, yet prata feel so kns. hahhs. dun kill me horhs! LOL.

gotta go study for tml's test already. bye.

2008-05-07T05:28:00.000-07:00

have you ever wonder wad will happen if u are gone the next minute but arent able to completely lived fully when u are alive ?

have alwas been wanting to post but was simply too lazy slacking around at home , sleeping lazing around. haven't been going out with friends so often. didnt went to work as often this week too. too tiring? sometimes, i really do need a break. today's post, gonna be alot of my tods my tods my tods. if dun wanna read nvm one. i hope it'll still be a happy post. ^^

after watching ying ye 3+ 1 { yea i know i`m slow. i dont wanna wait so watch it when all is loaded marhhhs! } i really felt alot for this show.. if you guys did watch, you would know.. sacrificing so much for the other party, really touched me alot. it made me recalled alot of stuffs which i dont wish to repeat animore. the focus will be on life. like my first sentence in this post. who knows when we might go up there? i mean, if. not being pestimistic but, this is part and parcel of life that we really cant expect. right now, i believe, mani of us have mani things we wish to do, but we dare not do and shy to do. this includes me of course. what is it tat we wanna do and finish up with the lifespan that we have. if there is a time limit known to us, and let us know how long we have left in earth, i bet mani of us will do the things tat we all love and will not regret. sometimes, i find myself, too shy, too not daring to really do some heartfelt stuffs. yes, i appear fun, crazy and daring to shout here and there. what i meant is, really to do stuffs that touches others and stuffs that i really want to do.. i really wish to cherish and spend every single minute wisely. not doubting, i still need time to sometimes take a breather and rest. but i really am happy. the joanne now, really is fully utilizing her time. my next goal, is to volunteer for stuffs and to get back to god. and the next goal in the line is to earn more money, study hard and to find my true love by 20. BY 20.

actually, i have given up on BGR after being with my previous boy. i am really upset and felt really useless after being with him.. i gave up on wad are promises, what are eternity, what is " i love you " , " i miss you " .. i also given up loving. being loved. i have changed my style of doing things already. last time, yes. i really yearn for love and being loved, cuddle etc. now, i often ask myself.. is it worth it to be in love, and to end it again hurting myself all over again? like a chinese saying " 天下无不散之宴席" when you meet, there will be one day we will part. so why love in the first place. i know we ought to try. i know i ought to pick myself up. i`m 17 this year. next year 18. and i realise, time.. past so so so fast. i remember the time i came out from primary school to decided to go east spring or junyuan sec. and now, i`m already in the tertiary school. time really past by fast. i ought to cherish. so it's not tat i have another feeling for another guy or wad so ever. but it's purely, i do not wish to enter a relationship for the time being. i really dont wish to end certain things. it really hurts to think of endings and departs all these.. i need time to really get over my own heart knot.

i really really wish to stay happy de lehh. but all these sort of feelings alwas come back to me. i wanna go sleep already lurh. this few days alot of watching drama, revision have been going on. wanna go shopping soon. have to start work soon too! ^^

bye! pls tag ppl. i really very sad to see no tag.

2008-05-03T11:13:00.000-07:00

it's great just to smile & see people around u smiling with yoos..

hello! the preevious post was done thanks to beloved edwyna&xiu hui for making me busier. nut being nice, i decided to entertain her "tagg message" i call. slept at 3 plus yesterday. chat with friends again. everynight i chat with people. currently i am also. lols. aniwae, i slept till 1pm !? i wanted to wake up at 12pm one! grrr. such a pig. i still remember i sleep with a stupid look. lols! shant sae. spoil my image nia.

woke up , prepared and met amanda at 2.30pm. headed to novena collected cheque and chatted with kayhwa and another girl whom we believe is his girlfriend! LOL. opps. later he see my blog i die. LOL. den, went to work at around 4.30pm. so darn hot la! omg. changed to shorts instead of wearing jeans. =.=! worked, nothing much. went to junction with alwin to buy stuffs. he idiot. keep bullying me. nvm. i forgive u. LOL. den, headed back to street work till 11 lo. close shop. i`m hungry la.

oh ya! for dinner i ate alot and it's really nice. i`m craving for it already la! seafood beehoon soup. next time come bugis, i reconmand yoos guys! hahhhhs. i`m hungry now. currently waiting for alwin to call back. that pig alwas bluff me but i still am good to forgive him. lols if he see this post he will threaten me again. come come. i not scared! LOL. oppps. shhhs.

aniwae, philbert, cheer up la. dun sad already la the match whether yoos go anot, think about the both consequences lurh dun regret your decision that's it.. and amanda, dun get too upset too! things i hope and pray, that it will be fine. and your jie will do just fine. just relax, be yourself. i`m alway here for you girl!
and alwin, whether math , english mother tongue and other problems yoos have, dont worry about disturbing me. i told yoos mani times le. just do well. i dun mind helping. ^^ takecare and dun alwas bully me ar!

aniwae, i shall reply tags now. tml will be working day for me. shall see if there's anithing interesting! niites!

TAGS REPLY :

jonathan : lols. yoos ar. constantly commenting songgs. lols. shall change it le. ^^ cannot see ar? sad lo. too bad. i wont change my font size for u. nono! xD

naemah : cus i feel bad having u. so guilty. lols! aniwae, long time nva tag. why slacking ar?!

claricia : i miss my twin too! hu ha ha. miss the times we mimick each other playing afool. sadd. now all splitted so far away. i miss east spring seriously.

xintze : hohos. ps la. i go link later dun angry ma.. LOL.

NITES!

tag more ar. if i angry i dont want blog liao.

2008-05-03T10:16:00.000-07:00

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have a blessing.

1.At what age do u wish to marry ?
after i earn big bucks! heeehs.
2.What do you want the most now?
i wannn, i wannn, i wann many many wishes !
3.Who is the person you trust the most?
hmmms, no one? my mum taught me not to trust anione devotedly! heeehs.
4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
yea, i guess so.
5.If you have a dream to come true,what would it be?
got! i would like to see myself able to help those more disabled.
6.What makes you happy?
to see people i love happy.
7.What is your goal for this year?
to acheive my desire results, and to keep this happy family !
8.Do you believe in eternity love?
after that once, i dont believe anymore. gave up hope.
9.Do you think you look good?
yeaaps! heehs. i hope. at least, i dun look hideous can?!
10.What feeling you love the most?
being hugged. ^^ blessed feeling lehh.
11.What feeling you hate the most?
being alone . the feeling of everyone not around, u feel darn upset larhhs!
12.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeaaps. i do, provided they do too la! no point me myself dere cherishing ... heeehs.
13.Do you believe in God?
definitely.
14.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
with my strength , to stretch out to help more people i can.
15.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
my loved friends at the RIGHT HAND PANEL of this blog.
16.Whose your best friend?
-amanda, alwin, rambert, philbert, joel! they are all more den best friends la!
17.Who care for you the most?
all of them all. like wad my collegue sae, i`m fortunate as they all dote me alot! ^^ even my cousins and parents. i`m like pampered?! heehs.but i will grow to be not la.
18.Which date you like the most?
-7 october! LOL.
19.Do you believe there is fate and it's destined or it is the path you chose?
yes. i believe, every route, there's a fate and destiny planned.
20.Do you believe love at first sight?
nope! lauu, see me first time say love me. bullshit mannns!

Starting time: 1.25am

Name: Joanne Tan
Sister: Jolene Tan
Brother: Jeffery Tan
Shoe size: 5 / 36
Height: 156cm *believe*
Where you live: Tampines Blk.... dun tell yooos!

Favourite drinks:
Ice milo kosong! greenapple ice blend
Favourite breakfast:
i dun consume breakfast everyday, but yea, i love egg macmuffin!
Have you ever been on a plane:
yea, quite often.
Swan in the ocean:
stupid, i think i will drown. swimming pool still can la. ocean.. sharrks. =.=! no way!
Fallen asleep in school?
yeaaa! i alwas do heeehs. in the past during Geography lesson. oopps.
Broken someone's heart?
yea i did. many times.
Fell off your chair?
i`m so clumsy eh. wad yoos think!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
yea, i dun sleep so early aniwae.
Saved e-mails?
i have this habit of saving emails which contains personal important messages.
What is your room like?
cute! lols. nahhhs! messy lurh. durh. i dun have time lehhhs!
What's right beside you?
my handphone with someone on the line waiting for me to finish answering the survey. *waits*
What's the last thing you ate?
i ate KFC! and and.. super duper ultra nice seafood beehoon soup. darn nice can!
Ever had chicken pox?
yupps. such a bad experience.
Sore throat?
It happens to me very often norhs. ppl who noe me will noe, due to my constant non stop constructive noises. heehs.
Stitches?
nope i think.
Broken nose?
hmmms, i think so. my mum commented that my nose is crooked today! that mother of mine.
Do you believe love at first sight?
nope. how many times do u want me to answer. so long u noe. i`m busy! heeehs. no lurhhs. hahhs.
Like picnic?
yea! it's fun!
Who was the last person you danced with?
i forgotten la. now bone all stiff. LOL. i dun remember seriously.
Last made you smile?
my mum made me smile just now! hahhs.
You last yell at?
alwin goh. who ask him to bully me?!
Today did you talk to someone you like?
yea! everyday i talk to everyone i like!
Kiss anyone?
noppes. heeehs. my pillow counted?
Get sick?
i just recovered not long ago wor!
Talked to an ex?
yea. like yesterday i bumped into one of my ex in school.
Miss someoone?
yea. alot. definitely i will miss all those i love deeply lurh. ^^
Eat?
hmmms, mr danial commented that i`m too skinny the other day. perhaps i should start eating. hahhs! i am eating la! i just ate KFC REMEMBER?!
Best feeling in the world?
second time u ask. not lor sorh ah?this time i answer yooos... hmms. being loved!
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
nono! i sleep with my pet dog! lols. nahhhs. my bolster is enough to let me HUG!
What's under your bed?
monster!
Who do you really hate?
why hate? waste my energy. loving is so much easier and happier! let's love!

What time is it now? : 1.43am

Randoms:Q:

Q:there a person who is on your mind right now?
yeaaa. wanna noe who?!
Q:Do you have any siblings?
yupps. i just mention la survey.
Q:Do you want children?
yeaa. they are adorable!
Q:Do you smile often?
yea. i do . why feel sad infront of others?!
Q:Do you like your handwriting?
small but i likke!
Q:Are your toenails painted?
nope. too lazi today.
Q:Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
dunno leh. i get married le sleep new master bed lo!
Q:What colour shirt are you wearing?
whitee!
Q:What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
playing pool with the guys.
Q:I can't wait till?
the day i am able to reach out to help more people esp. teens.
Q:When did you cry last?
carn remember. i dun wish to aniwae.
Q:Are you a friendly person?
i make friends easily. too nooisy. thus, friendly? dunno ! =X
Q:Do you have any pets?
1 dog, 8 hamsters, 1 fish.
Q:Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
everywhere! i have feelings for so many people!
Q:Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
hmmms, last ar. quite long ago, but yea. meant alot bahhhs. guess who?!
Q:Do you sleep with the TV on?
i close my eyes and sleep. i dont sleep with my eyes open! hahhs.
Q:What are you doing right now?
waiting for another person to call. i`m busy. x)
Q:Have you ever crawled through a window?
i dreamt that i became small and flew out of my window! considered?
Q:Can you handle the truth?
heartwrecking one i dont think so. i have a weak heart. so dont scare me people! lols.
Q:Are you too forgiving?
yup. that's what my mum claims. she scolds me stupid . =.=!
Q:Are you closer to your mother or father?
both!
Q:Who was the last person you cried in front of?
i dont cry infront of my friends or beloved ones already. so i doubt i remember.
Q:How many person can you say you've really loved?
10. my ex, daddy, mummy, sister, brother, grandma, maid, ah fen jie jie, mao mao. one more! dont tell you.
Q:Do you eat healthy?
i eat junks. or dont eat. hehs. sometimes la. i dont eat veggie tat's true.
Q:Do you still have pictures of you and your ex?
yea. i do . dont wish to look at it.
Q:Have you ever cried because of something said to you?
i alwas do.
Q:How often do you go to church?
veri long le. i backslided. hais.
Q:If you're having a bad day, who are you likely to go to?
alwin or amanda. mostly keep it to myself lurh.
Q:Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
i`m a quiet and a shy girl. people who noe me should noe . HOR?! heehs.
Q:Are you confident?
yeap. quite confident lurh. i buey pai seh one. LOL. yea i am. seriously.

TAGGED TO : Amanda ; Joel ; xin tze ; sophia ; theresa; xiaoyun ; alwin -anyone who reads this blog and wish to do. just copy paste! nyeahahhhs.

2008-05-02T09:56:00.000-07:00

hello. sorry for the lack of updates. been pretty tiring these few days. i`m so tired out and exhausted everyday. doing my work to late nights. poly life aint easy hor! =.=! aniwae, shall think back and start to post properly. hmmms.. from tuesday.

29/8/2008 :

went to school early in the morning. hmmms. not bad ar, early bird lehhs.. eeehs. went for F&B lecture. i swear i really love F&B now. omg. lols. i love F&B fundamental la! jinghui is being stupid lo. LOL. she's darn hilarious. she "pei he wo" lo. heeehs. and hmms. had break in between, went to ITAS school canteen to eat with half the class. yupp. half or rather 3/4? yea.

hmmms. den headed to tutorial for communication skills. wahhhhs.we have to prepare alot stuffs for the test coming up. 600 words essay minimum. i really really swear, i love mdm noreha to the core. lols. not just now! BUT PREVIOUSLY TOO! heeehs. now i noe why she taught all those stuffs that i was so darn reluctant to learn. now, i am able to use it! i love it lo. i`m loving english, and mdm noreha if u are reading this, [ i hope ] , wanna tell u, i still wun disappoint u, will keep ur promise to yoos! ^^. den den, had macroecons tutorial. seriously, the tutor is better than the lecturer la. ^^ den after that headed home.

30/4/2008 :

hmmms, went to school at around 11.15am, reached at 11.30am. went for lecture for research hospitality and tourism. ok la. not bad. quite tough. LOL. but i will sort it out with jing hui. she's smart norh.. F&B tutorial is darnn fun lehhs. heeehs. the video on mac made me hungry, but at the same time i will be cautious with the nurtitious values of it.. i will not take mac so often le la.. heeehs..den den, went for intro to HTM. so fast end one lorh. i love that teacher lurhhhs.. ^^ interesting lessons lehhhs. after that i went down to work after school.. kept reminding the people there dun eat mac. like mad like tat. den i kept playing with bubbles. heeeehs. i sound childish, but i dunno why, i behave this way.. too childish le la. hahs. came home and did my article. so damn tired. and did till 4? i like whole article look in depth. and den i asked myself the question possible for the exam. think the whole night. tired den went ot sleep.

1/5/2008:

thurs woke up, went to work. =.=! too tiring le like that chiong. but no choicee! people might say, i am financially ok, why work? i dunno too. dun ask me. not for money for experience and to widen my network circle ba.. yea. and i took up another job so in total i have 3 jobs now. still having my studies, so i must not must not slack. thus, i will work hard. ^^

today:

went to school at 10 plus. taxis hates me and dun wish to drive me to school . i turn away taxi go past. i wait no taxi. so frustrating lo! i walked to school den. idiiot. want me save money right?! lols. hmmms, den went for lab for RHT. after that went to slack with JH &RQ. dey damn pei he me one. really. lols. found ppl like tiffany. heeehs. went back for lecture at 2 pm . macroecons, omg. abit confusing. but thankfully, my dear jing hui love this sub so i got a good and pro consultant! ^^ next was communication skills. which was normal la. yea. need to do another 6 article. =.=! [edit] after that, went to meet philbert, edwin, joel at the basketball court playing soccer?! den after that we went over to safra to play pool to meet rambert and jun liangg. rambert damn pro can?! OMG HE GOT HACK LA. lols. rambert,yoos still owe me an one on one match. lols. i chicked out la. u too pro. i go brush up first. LOL. so fun playing pool with them can?! lols! denn we went home la.. phil took 28, joel waited for bus at the 933 busstop dere? yea. and den me and ram walked to another side to take bus.. crapped alot la. he idiot. big bully. nvm, i`ll have my revenge someday. den headed down to bugis to close shop tiring sia! [/edit]

till the end of the post i more and more in a hurry to go off. cus i am darn tired already la. but netherless, i will reply tags tml. really verii tired now. nights. and to you know who, take care of your hands.

byee!

2008-04-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

如果你还爱我

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了

我知道自己在你心里已不重要

虽然我们曾经相聚过

也许对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了

我知道自己没有勇气道别离

虽然我们曾经拥有过

但是对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早已注定

不能真正拥有你

难道我真心付出一切

只为了承受孤单和寂寞

我知道你不敢对我表白

是不要看到我的伤怀

虽然你没有说要离开我

我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

我只能含着眼泪

默默地离开

bold those are really some words that describe my feelings. there are mani songgs tat i currently are in love with, but this song is just one that i will post. tooo tired out. gonna sleep at 1am. so coutning i have around 6hrs of rest? yea. yesterday less den 5hrs. so god dammn tired today. tml gonna be another long day. schooling from 9-4pm after that, gonna make a trip to commonwealth.. sianns. =.=! den after that maybe go bugis le.. i wanna get a Ipod Touch la. know why? cus a road idiot like me, needs to get past in singapore need a map. and and and, street directory died on me la! =.=! so pissed. i like cannot go aniwhere far on errand these few days. thanks ar streetdirectory.com . my life, all depends on u, and this is how u treat me?!!! *grrrs* hmmms. today is so so so tiring. learnt alot. can sae, ok ok lo. after school went to do my work with joel they all and after that, we went over to have dinner at this random indian place. it's alwas fun with them around. shall not elaborate. they can really bird talk. but i believe, there are mani more better than them. LOL.

went home and printed out lecture notes for tml's lecture. omfg. 139 slides. die. i print out only those with words . not the pictures! =.=. gonna kill me man. so total 70 slides? half leh! =.= . tml, duno how long lecture gonna be... there's alot to be done this week. and it's really killing me. jus the planning out alone, is enough to kill me. =.= . i shall go rest now. short and sweet.

nites people.

i promise i will forget, promise i will get on with life. promise never to cross into ur life. promise never to get upset over you again. promise not to think of the impossibles. i`ll just get on with life as usual. i alwas put on a smile in school, as i really find no one i can confide everything to. tiffany, thanks for the talk girl. it really made me realise alot, and able to heave a sigh of relief. thanks. * loves*

nites people.

2008-04-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

this is maybe the defination of - love ;

hello hellos! finally a post with a picture. hmmms, went out today, feeling happy. hmmms. really apologise for the sad sad post. but i guess, readers will understand my innerself more urh? heeehs. aniwae, woke up at 11 despite sleeping at 4am in the morning. i wanna catch my drama show ma.. hmmms, dammn nice lo.. after tat i sat down infront of my computer and started to plan my hws and stuffs, and revised abit here and dere. conclusion, i love the sub, common skills, introduction to htm, macroeconomics. as for F&B fundamental annd research on hospitality and tourism, i will learn to love them. i do understand, but i dun have that deep love for them lehhs. lols. come love me more u both! LOL. heeeeeeehs.

den, went over to meet philbert for lunch from 5-6 plus since he ended his soccer and wanna meet me i shall do a good deed to meet him lo. thank me for keeping u company before u meet joel they all! lols. denn, shopped, bought my doggs food again. grr. they are sucking my money, my dog, my 8 hamsters, my younger sis. i mean, my younger sis have deep cravings for some stuffs, she will sometimes come to me. and of cus, to support myself. i must earn more money le la. bank left not much. i still have to pay for books and stuffs. argh. nvm. gonna receive pay on next fri and sat. heehs. hope i can save abit and spend abit of those la! i wanna save up man! hmmms, after meeting him, i headed over to bugis to meet alwin and his friend? coached him abit on math & english. plus gave him a treat as it was his birthday. yupps. ( wanna know black and white ar? promise to score well urh! den u will noe! heehs! ^^ ) hmmms, met him him from 7 - 8 plus . den headed over to work. work nothing much la.. lols. shall not mention it.

back home, watched ISWAK 2. last episode. tmd. so ... gan jiong, and den end the whole damn thing. idiot idiot idiot! so upsetting me cann?! i wanna go cryyy.. heeehs. okok i shall not cry. hohos. hmmms, lesson gonna start at 9 tml but i aint asleep yet and it's 1am now. i gotta wake up at 7.30am cus i realise i`m really a tortoise.. need to prepare this and this and that. =.=! bad girl ar joanne!

i received a bad news from amanda. her robooski hammy died 4 left 1. omg. so heartpain la.. nvm. i shall wait for the second litter to have 2 babies of that kind. heeehs.

okkay. i shall reply taggs now and hit my bed ! ^^ tagg more people. if not i fed up i dun blog or i close blog! hahhhhs. tagg la. so mani silent reader. surrender urself!

TAGS REPLY :

james : BOOON! HELLO! lols. waaa, u also silent reader. finally admit ar. i shall shoot u the next time i see u. heard from philbert u chheered when chelsea got in?! $#%# BOON! WE MAN U FAN LEH! HOW CAN BETRAY MAN U. SO SAD LOH! I GO CRY ! lols. take care ar. next time mus also win playing cards ar. lols.

naemah : heeehs. i`m feeling all those towards yooos! are you touched? i bet u are. why nva cry?! no la. i shall have another wish. naemah to be mine! lols. eeeyerr.

li yong : hello! lovedd tooo! heeehs. mus tag more ar. i will miss u de ar.. heeehs.

terrence : wah, not bad sia. got view my blog again. lols. tag more hor. and remember to remind me for lessons. heeehs. i have poor memory one lo. LOL. ^^

okkie dokie. bye byee!

2008-04-26T12:39:00.000-07:00

sorry for the upsetting post previously. hmmms. i must be crazy for not sleeping at this time. sorry, but will go to sleep after this post. becus i saw some stuffs i got really upset and stuffs. i dunno. but seriously, at nights, i cannot cannot think. i must must have stuffs to keep me focus to do. if i ran out of things to do before i am tired, i will think about all those upsetting stuffs. bad habit of mine.

well, i hope i can really pick myself up from that last experience. i musnt dwell in that animore. i must understand. things wun go back to how it is . or rather, what i wish for. so joanne. wake up. yea. i will not think too much already. sorry readers.

2008-04-26T09:52:00.000-07:00

control control control .. *breatthe * relax....

ok.

went to kwang's house to help him install microsoft office into his com.i woke up early becus of you eh. hmmms, denn went over to tmall to get some stuffs. after that headed to amanda's house to wait for her. decided not to go down to novena HQ to report . next week den. we headed to eastpoint to shop. had a great talk with her in the bus. long time since we talked so much. denn, after she left, i met philbert, boon, joel at east point. fun to see them still so playful and stuffs. headed down to bugis after that. nothing much. work nothing much to sae i think.

ok. this comes the part to tell you guys why i have to breathe in to relax before i post for toay. i promise that i wont have any more sad post, but sorry, i today really really really have to get this off my chest...

seriously, i realise i really am still bothered with your actions, whether you still acknowledge my presence and all those... yoos know, i really do still think of you. it isnt easy to forget you. yes, it may be hurtful, but i still tried to contact u and stuffs. still, you are still avoiding me, acting ignorant. you know how deeply you hurt me? you may not bother, you may not care. i believe, i still stand a place in your heart. if not you wont purposely do all those just to avoid thinking back. how silly my mind was to dream of you last night. i don't know. it was such a great dream. but i know, it will nva come true. how much i wanna talk to you to tell you stuffs to clear things up. the chance was never given. it hurts to know you REALLY tried all waes to avoid me. i`m really tired of contacting u again and again and again. it may be irritating to you, but still, i tried my best. i tried. it's saddening to know this is the ending of what i call... love.. why carn friendship still stays after a relationship ends? i dunno wad's wrong with me.. i really dunno. i tried . i really tried. i`m tired. really tired of loving in the past. and i noe it's tiring to love someone, so i dun wish that you love too much.cus i dun have the confidence at all. i dun have.i`m afraid to hurt u. afraid to step into this afraid to end all this with the above ending. i`m really afraid. who knows how i feel aand who can i spill the whole thing out to? who can i sought? haiis.

helpless.

sorry for the above post. sorry. utterly sorry. i`ll reply tags tml. sorry.

2008-04-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NOT I NOW POST TERRENCE & SHIRLENE! lols. they are waiting for me to blog better thank me for blogging ar. LOL. heeehs. today, went to school at , 1.30pm. walked to school. heeehs. and reached around 2 pm quite punctual ar! hahhhhs. praise myself. so bhb.

today was really really great and , we spent the day having lectures, fire drill and playing and going for orientation. shall not elaborate much as i`m really tired now. i found my goal in life and i have plan out some stuffs for myself. i shall not mention anithing about it till i have establish it , den i`ll reveal. hope it will be soon. but ya, i gonna make use of it. cus, i really really, wanna give it a shot. yupp. so good luck people. i gtg. shall post tml alright? take care and lovees!

byee!

2008-04-24T08:57:00.000-07:00

i really miss those times in the past ;

hellos, sorry for not posting yesterday. was extremely tired out. i don't know why too! maybe, it's time i took a good good rest ba.. seriousy tired out..

okayy. yesterday, i didnt have ani lectures or tutorial or lab. so it meant no need to go school. but being a good friend yesterday i went to school at 12 to meet the rest up for lunch. met them at 12.28pm. met bjorn, rambert, philbert. and philbert, bjorn have lectures at 1pm. !! so they left at 1pm. whilst rambert went to find his friends. so wentover to the mushroom, to wait for his friend before i head over to find amanda. his friends arrived i walked over the bridge saw amanda she came back already. =.=! so she asked me to do some errands for her. she left and next came jun liang to accompany me. LOL. didnt expected it la. and he peii me slackk. after that he left, marcus lee came to accompany me!

lols. i so fortunate la.. heeeehs. denn, met marcus lee, and he waited with me for bjorn.. after waited for bjorn we went over to AS canteen to wait for phil and li yong. wow, AS canteen is so cool la. LOL. aniwae, waited for li yong and phil already we decided to head to library to slack. went up to the 4th level , rent a DVD called "the ring" watched it before already la. it's gross! LOL. den after we finish watching it's already 5.45pm. went downstairs to wait for rambert, bjorn and edwin. dey arrived and we went over to tmall already la. such a big group walking together. so cute can. LOL. we were like tired out thanks to watching the ring suggested by marcus lee. =.=! hmmms, headed to tmall , watched streets king.NAEMAH JOINED US!heeehs. i kept blowing wind to her. so cooling right?! not bad la i would say, the vulgarity is really alot, and some scene is really really gross. no wonder NC 16. LOL. it was really really cold inside la! dennn denn denn, went to play the arcade for awhile! LOLS. the guys are funny la.=.= but i was at that time too cold and tired to continue playing. left and walked home after they played..

seriously, i was stunned by wad you said. i was stunned by ur reaction and stuffs. i hope to give u an ans soon, but please, yoos mus know, i really really dun have confidence in myself animore. and i carn be as good as i was before. and i know, you asked me to have confidence in you , but , i dun wish to hurt you. let me think about it alright. i`ll give u an ans sooon. i dun mean to hurt you or wad. but just, let me have time to think.

okkayy. i have blogged already.sorry arh, this post too monotonous. rushing to go school soon. LOL. there's HTM orientation today, shall bring my work to revise today whilst waiting for orientation to start. ^^

tags reply :

Naemah : o.o! i tod u love ben 10?! aw. i got it wrong. power ranger for u? heeehs. green , blue or red? heeehs for u to see ma. i noe u miss my cute face. so i put down dere. I SAW U TODAY!u saw me too! HAPPY?! LOL.

philemon : thanks for viewing. didnt know tat too. LOL. and yea, i shall try not to eat so late next time! thanks for telling.

bjorn : WANNA CRASH MY BLOG AR?! lols. it's okay. i love the music can already. LOL.

terrence : i know u love my blog song, unlike someone i mention above. HAHS. lols, see ya later!

okkay. i run off already ! ^^

2008-04-23T10:16:00.000-07:00

just a random photo i editted, 4e2-nians, you may kop this. heehs.

seriously i miss 4e2 alot la! gahhhhs. but glad that i am still hanging out with them often. yays! but not to forget, i love my class currently now. hohos. yupps. dun really like to see some stufffs but yea, hope we will stay as one class la.. hmmms. today was real tiring alright? but why i aint asleep yet? gosh. i don't know why either. went to school at 11.40am reached at around 11.55am? quite long today.. slowly took my time to walk i think. heeehs. reached and started lecture for research for hospitality and tourism.

omg. this subject is a killer man. goshh. so so so glad that i didnt fal asleep and paid attention la. it did helps.initially i really dunno what the hell the lecturer was saying. but to the end, sort of understand le ba. thank god.

went for a 2hr break. lols. went to find edwin but to no avail. found abby , yasmin, nisa. saw rambert, kenneth, and more people that i noe la. heeehs. and slaccked with the malay girls for awhile before i went off to find my class. mensa 2 is stupid lehh. or rather, i`m dumb. i didnt notice the second level of mensa 2. they told me they were at mensa 2 and i was like, i am here too, but i didnt see them. hohos. and realised there's a second level la... =.=! how stupiid lurh. arghs. aniwae, went off to look for philbert & happen to chance bjorn. we went over to design school canteen slack all the wae from 3-4 can?! it's like, we got so mani stuffs to talk about la.. typical us!

hahhhs. hmmms, and den i went for my lecture at LT17, quite near. thank god i made it in time.. hohos. intro to htm was easy i think. was so geography plus history! I LIKE! heeehs. and den lecture ended after 1 hr! when it's suppose to be 2hrs. she loves us la. hahhhhs. dream on la joanne! xD

headed to xiaoyun's house vacinity as she forgotten her wallet and we peii her walk back. half the class went over first. or rather, 75% of them went off first. den we took a train, activated my ez-link card and den took train to bugis. omg, it's really hilarious with sophia , chelsie, cassan, theresa & xiaoyun. so crappish can. esp. sophia and chelsie. so damn on and zaii la they all! xD headed over to roma deli { which does brought back mani mani memories , really alot.} and we crapped and laughed and played la! ^^ so fun. after that headed to bugis street to cassan dad's shop and started to explore the glasses there. hilarious la. LOL. aniwae, cassan changed her contacts to specs and she went home with her dad whilst the rest went to visit my parent's shop la.. yupp. they left after awhile la. and den i went to work, close shop and now home. typical day of working so i shant elaborate much.

seriously, i am afraid of getting into it. i am afraid of failing again. i am afraid that i am not up to standard and i am afraid i wont get used to it. i dont have the confidence i used to have and i dont have the courage to take this up again. do give me time to think. i really need time. it all came too sudden. and i really don't wish to spoil anithing of now. please, just give me time to think. i aint that prepared for this. sorry ehs.

shall reply tags today !

joserina : okayy, sorry ehs! and i didnt get to see u in school la. inform me about ur breaks. we should have a get together soon la! i miss yoos lehhs. happy?! LOL.

amanda : hohos, yea everything practically getting fat but not me! heeehs. and i know you are honoured first one somemore! happy right? thank me la. heeeeeeeeehs.

hi : hellos, may i know who are yooos? thanks for tagging aniwae.

kaili : i know i know! that's why i creditted yoos lehhs. placed ur name there.mus feel honoured horrs! xD

kwang hui : i know u alwas read my blog but nva comment! hmmphs. lols. honoured ar? i will help u spread ur name and fa yang guang da one! ^^

naemah : you will get a ben 10 from me! no master yoga, ben 10 that playing watch! want? verii cheap . i buy for u.

meihan : hellos! yoos are mei xian or mei han sia? =.= aniwae, thanks for tagging here. i remember i tagged at ur blog already. hohos. i scared i forget check ur reply ma. aniwae, haven seen u for ages . have u changed? grown taller le ma? attached le ma? update me here ar. anitime u miss me or wanna see me can contact me one. hahhhs!

animore silent readerrrs?! PLEASE TAG LA! hahhhhs. look forward to you people taggggingg! i feel like imposing one rule, more den 10 tag a day den i blog for that day. not bad ar?! mus be of different people. lols. no la. i will still blog. but jus tag more people! ^^

byeee! off to bed now. nighhhts!

2008-04-22T02:26:00.000-07:00

sometimes i would rather choose not to see certain stuff in life , it jus saddens me more- truths.

hello hello! back to postinggg. i promise and ya. here's the post. hmmmms. today was the second day of school. wow, i woke up at 8.30am when school's starting at 9am SHARP. it wasa tutorial of Food and Beverage Fundamentals. like wahh lao, that lecturer go thru slides so fast no time to copy one lo. luckily mrs lee's geography lesson + machine gun like lessons trained me to copy faster. =.=! lucky me! : D lecture ended in 1.5hrs. quite good i think. at least, i understand! i hope i can continue to understand laaaa! heehs. next lesson , i will definitely carry that big and bulky and cannot talk laptop.

after that headed to xiaoyun's house to get her presents for her friend? btw, xiaoyun , sophia, chelsie , theresa and many more unknow names my loyal readers have not came across in my blog, ya, they are my newfound goodie friends! heehhhs.. after that, went back to design school to eat the chicken chop. as i presumed , it was really fantastaiiicccc!super duper ultra niceee! woooooots. promotion feees! lols. wad a money minded person u are joanne! slapp urself! heeehs. ok. ignore my own conversation. after lunch at 11.30am , yes. 11.30AM!

headed to class for common skills tutorial. omg. expository essays again. rambert wee! same boat leh us! u teach me ar! ur forte leh! lols. wish me good luck people. but i am really glad that what the lecturer said was really alot similar to what mdm noreha taught la! i really thank her for making me love english and essays and stuff. ^^ it's like , what she said was similar to what mdm noreha taught beforee! thank god man! hohos. arent i a fortunated kid? i think so toooo! heeehs. bought this book at $8.20, and collected my lecture notes which cost $4.50 . heavy la. imagine me carrying laptop for F&B lectures. #$^#%^! went home after tutorial.

heeeeeeehs. it's so great being home la. played with my dog. and called the compaq company. apparently, i`m having some trouble to use some applications . thus i called for help. guess what? an indian man picked up my call, sorry philbert, but i aint being racist but just stating the truth of it heeehs, and the indian and me, have trouble communicating. seriously man! know what he asked me to do?

first of all maaam' take out ur battery and your adapter. now press the power button .
so i did i pressed. he kept quiet all the way you know whilst i`m pressing. so when i press until i not happy i said,
hello? press finish already anot? verii long you know?
no no maam' , you will have to press and i`ll have to check the time .
{ what time sia, that was wad i was thinking la....}
so i questioned him, errr, you can check my computer from your place?!
he said no, and asked me to continue pressing, so i was being real idiot to press trying to switch on something without any power. =.=! ya.
and he asked me to release my hand. i said yes i released already. and he asked,
so have u finish releasing your hand.
it's like WT...BBQ...TMD...RELEASE ONE STUPID BUTTON TAKE HOW LONGG?!!!! omg, i kept laughhhing. and i replied
ya, releasing my hand off the button don't require much time.....
and the conversaion goes with alot of laughter here and there. lols!

it's real hilarious i tell you! but at least my problem is addressed lurhhh.. ^^

hmmms, and den and den, ya, i saved the post till the above line and went to watch AH WANG . heeehs. innocences is so good la. at least, he's not prone to all those hurtful stuffs. envy envy. *smaccckks* back to reality la. i realise i do post and type and type alot. plus the font is small, my posts are so long. omg. sometimes i really find myself having nothing to say but... it saes the otherwise! hohos. now i am back from buying my mexico chicken wing. it better be nice. cus my honey chicken wing ran out. btw, it's jus some bites from 7-11 la. ^^ yuppps. and i have finished doing my tutorial homework for F&B and now gonna do my tutorial homework for intro . to HTM. alot of work la. omgggg.. aniwae, i shall go off to watch more shows to entertain myself now. tml gonna go to bugis with 1H05! YAYS! and friday will be orientation for HTM double yays! heeehs. and ya. gonna spend my day fullest no more emo joanne! i hope.

heeehs. bye bye!

philbert ! mus be happy hor! i verii happy le leh. nva emo liao . heeehs.

2008-04-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

hello guys, jus finished editting my skin. credits to that person whom made the skin la. i jus editted my own stuffs here and dere. not much. yupps. first day of school was a blast! so much fun. hohos.

1H05 gonna have a outing this wednesday at bugis shaw tower ROMA DELI. although it brings back memories, but yea. roma deli is a nice place to dine. although it is a vegetarian restaurant, it is seriously nice la! reconmanded by me!go try it out. food lover, why not go and try? ^^ i`ll book the place tml i guess. yupps. HAVE TO BOOK.

yupps. and our lecture for today was interesting la. at least, i understand the topic. a great start for me! i believe that i am able to do well since i competed with the rest of singapore during O levels. and ya. this time if i was to work harder again, i will acheive my goals. plan, organise, lead, control. heeeehs. lecture ended in 1hr instead of 2 hrs. lols. yupp, was released at 3? and i slacked with the class till 4.30pm.

went over to design school's canteen to have my lunch - i think , with xiao yun, theresa and her friend, melody. was fun eating dere. it's real cheap la! for a big plate of pork chop ( since chicken chop ran out of stock ) it only cost $2.60 with frieds which is super duper nice. theresa agreed too! yuups . and den at around 5 i headed to the mushroom to meet amanda and mei yi. they are evaxing. and ya.

waited for philbert to end his lesson. instead, li yong came first thus we waited for philbert. then waited for rambert , saw edmond asked him to come along. and off we go to kfc for dinner. it is alwas fun to dine with them la! so much laughter and fun can?! hard to find friends like i have in 4e2. hahhhhs. not saying the rest not good, but they are a special bunch of people la! to me -at least. hahhs. slacked all the way from 6 to 8. and den we changed our venue . finish eating kfc, we went to mac to eat! hahhhhhhhhhhs. wad great eaters we are! hohos. and went home at around 8.30pm. that's how my day ended. we are planning a movie outing this thursday. yay!

so tml i`ll be heading to the west to tutor a friend of mine.

wednesday i`ll be out with 1H05 .

thursday i`ll be meeting them for movie .

friday i have HTM orientation .

saturday and sunday will be work i guess. ^^

wow! my week is so packed and fun la. lucky i have no tutorial this week. more time to spend.

yays. hohos. and ya, so far school's still verii verii fun! thank god that i have these bunch of people surrounding me. ^^

something random, i didnt regret going to east spring la. i even am praising east spring now and den. i think, east spring isnt that bad after all. cus seriously, primary school, i wasnt a girl who is strong, lead, motivates, smart, bold, independent, initiative. east spring made me who i am today, not forgetting those i listed at the right! * you guys are loved la!

okay i gotta go already. tml's lecture starts at 9 and here i am blogging. omg. 5 more hours of sleep. joanne you are dead!

i gotta go already guys! takkaire . i shall blog tommorrow. this make over of blog gives me mood to blog once again. heehs. check for updates!

byeee!

shall reply tags tml! sorry ah!

2008-04-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

2 days of orientation at TP really tire me out to the core man. but it's glad tat i still can make it to some outing with ... i shall address later.

TP orientation yesterday start out with registration which was not really verii fun to attend. and it was some learning of mass dance, business cheer, hand sign song, tp song... first day i dont really remember? just tat i`m in class 1 H05. good or bad, it still needs time to know! hope it will bond well lurh.

today, orientation was suppose to start at 8am. i woke up at 8.am instead. wow! lucky i stay near TP! hoohoos. it's my turn now eh! envy envy! heeeehs. anwae prepared and walked to school.
Reached at around 8.28am?! wa, not bad! l
ols. after that went over to auditorium 2 to get changed into my yellow banana shirt. business school shirt! YAY! met my class, hmmms, not really enthu yet. morning mahhhs! followed by a talk by the CM. ms chooi. she's great. i am glad i didnt have the mood to like fall asleep? duno why. but after what she said, i promise myself and set a goal already. shall not mention.. my own personal goals. heehs.
after tat headed to have "tea break" buffet like? lols. wow. not bad.
hmmms, followed by meeting of our care person MR THIRU. wow. lols. he's lameeee. =.=! but glad tat he did made us laugh somehow or rather? oh yea, i gotta know my class alot more today! den den den, matrix card was given, timetable out. omg. shitty. so packed. 7 subs to learn next week. jiayou mann! goshhh.
hmmms den den, we went over to the sports complexfor oylumpiad? . business won. i dunno why too. hohos. was a fierce fight lo . kept screaming. and cheering. business rocks! lols. no more energy till now le. shall stop highing. and business won lurh. went for reegata, business top also. and business won overall. yupps. verii happi lo. ^^

after that went to find philbert, rambert, joel, marcus lee , xiu hui [ she found me ] and we went to KFC to have our dinner. it's alwas so enjoyable and fun with them lo. ^^ we were comparing timetable and thanks la! accounts monday no school, info friday no school, BSG, they first week no tutorial. and me in HTM, HAVE TO ATTEND ALL TUTORIAL AND LECTURES WITH NO FREE DAY EXCEPT THURSDAY OF GOING SCHOOL FOR 2 HOUR TUTORIAL. lols. sound like a big fuss made. but actually okay la. at least no need slack.crapped and crapped as usual. talk nonsense. made xiu hui laughed non stop. me too lurh. it's alwas this happy with them. heeehs. den we all decided to go for jam and hop(like clubbing , but school kind) although we like "alot dun wan go wan go home tat kind". wa damn high . saw audrey. she's damn high la, danced and danced, with xiao yun and rachel too. xiu hui also high high but not high enough. den marcus dey all decided to leave den i left with them. heeehs. we were like singing IT school the cheers la. thanks to philbert that banana. kept singing. omg. all the way from TP, walk to safra. xiu hui left whilst we continue to make our way to safra. so funny la, me escorted by 4 guys. heehs. honoured! hohos. den, we went to safra to play pool . heeehs, not bad ar! score 3 at the time leh! BANANA dun laugh at me for giving 3 freee ball. and marcus, i wan my medical fees. xD joel! dun look down on me le la! xD rambert was quiet . he claims tat i`m being noisy tat's why i felt that way. typical rambert. LOL. oh ya! we saw si hao, peng xiang, joey and yi wei at safra pool too! we were jus next tables nia. so coincidence! den we played together lo. philbert keep disturbing me and he calls me a ba long long now! LOL. and i played la. so darn fun playing with them. it's funny i meant. ^^ den i left at 10.30pm. walked home...

seriously it's really a blessing to know this bunch of guys - joel, rambert, philbert, kok boon , plus marcus lee. hmmms, mainly the first four of them. they are like my elder brothers like tat. alwas take care of me one. ya, we alwas crap and they play and joke with me. most of the time the joke's on me. but i noe they still dote me alot de hor! dey dun dare to bully me to a extend la. i mean, jus play kind. verii good and nice cliques. ^^ philbert! MY LUNCH BREAKS HOR! heeehs. still , they are the " kar ki-s" i name. they are still the ones whom will be there for me eventually. not all the time, not to help me. but their actions, speech do make ones laugh. ^^

i dedicated to you all hor. happy right? ^^

k , i`m really tired but i still made the extra effort to post this. cus, gawd knows when i will post next. hmmms, okay i think .. i thinkk tml.. ya. should be lurh. hope so. heeehs.

P.S : my hamsters are growing verii fat! ^^

tags reply next time.

2008-04-14T05:33:00.000-07:00

hello all. been missing all day longg.. as wanted by joserina-the reasons for not going for camp. i did not went to the FOC camp due to the ineffieciency of some people. shall not bother animore. yupp. as said, there was a lack of space? yea. but, i have nothing to say.

well, den on the 10th after walking out of TP, i went over to tampines west mac to slack all day. went to play badminton. LOL. been such a long time since i played. but i guess, it's still okay. i can still hone my skills . yupps. went home after dat.slacked and rest. err. and dat's how my 10th of april end.

11th, er, did nothing.. amanda came over to my house and slackedd? yea. and err..tat thursday.. hmmms. stayed home and chionged huan zhu ge ge 2. i know mani will ask. why watch a show dat's like ages ago. er, i like it, and i re watched it. for no particular reasons. and i enjoy watching it. slept at only 5.30am? hohos. someone was so mad at me! heeeh. sorry nahhs.

12th, which is a friday, i went to work at around 5pm? after watching my show again. hohos. and denn, went to work. sometimes, i really dont enjoy working and being reprimanded for things tat i aint responsible for. aniwae, been seeing guys wearing skinny jeans of 2 colours. how ridiculous is this? and next i will see guys wearing hot pants, mini skirts? tube tops and sphag. tops?! omg. i carn imagine man. *close eyes* sighs. wad's wrong with the world? will it kill to stay normal?! =.=!

13th i went to work as usual of cus. hohos. and errr, worked till i fell sick. hohos. no la. at night, wanting to chiong my huan zhu ge ge 2 till it ends, i was hungry in between, thus, i made a cup of milo containing 3 spoons full of milo powder those table spoons one, and drank it with 5 pieces of jacob biscuits. hohos.

currently i`m down with fever and worse still, biz orientation is coming in jus a few days time whilst school is starting jus next week? i hope my timetable is flexible enough for me to not miss my work. mani ask, why work so much ? do i desperately need money? nope. i dont need the money, but i wish to gain experience and friends of other circles...

feeling so darnn sickk lurh. idiotic flu + fever + everywhere pain + headache. when will all these go away ar? i aint doing my part to rest, to recuperate! heeeehs. aniwae, sorry for posting from last night to this morning. my laptop shut down. but luckily blogger do auto save. i went off to watch tv, came back com off already so i went to sleep. heeehs. yupps. today, is the 15th of april. wow, school's starting soon man.

TP are such cheaters tat they only give us our timetable only if we went for orientation. so scheming. =.=! i hope that the orientation will be at least a bit enjoying. if not, i`ll change my opinion man. yupps. i wanna get my timetable soon urh. so tat i can plan my work and jobs together. omg. so anticipatingggg. 2 more days of rotting.heeehs. alright then, i think the way i blog, might be too tiring for readers.. not humourous but jus daily routine life of mine.hahhhs!

byeeee!

TAGS REPLY :

joserina : girl! sorry for not making it wor. i was down with fever. so utterly sorry!

jonathan : LOLS! you in love with show luo zhi xiang? i shall change the song. shall not let u indulge in this happiness. heeehs.

edwyna : yalo, yoos both ar... control cann?! i noe u guys are desperately loving show luo. but control control. perhaps i should change the song already. hohos.

amanda : lols! HELLO! WELCOME BACK FROM CAMP!

naemah : i noe wad songg! OPEN ARMS! i noe i noe.. i noe u love me to this extend. dun worry i will let uu welcome me with open arms. i noe u miss me greatly nai nai. ^^

i should change my blog skins sooon..

BYE!

2008-04-09T11:42:00.000-07:00

just a short post before i go for my camp tml. which starts at 12pm. meeting the girls at 11am. i hope. and er, packed my stuffs already. still lacking of my nike water bottle which will be heavy..

and wad to wear for tml, plus, my cash how much . shags. i going down to work after camp which the camp itself is ending at 8pm. !^$%^$@# chilli. heehs. aniwae, thanks to gwen i`m able to sell my first 2 goodybooks. did i say i am having quite alot of jobs currently ? or going into? meaning i have increasing incomes! heeehs. my mum is hoping that i open a blog shop on my own. and now i`m also selling goodybook books.. and working at bugis . and next is giving tuition to some of my relatives or rather, juniors. well, yea. gonna be busy and real busy. ever since the holiday started. i have not stop working. freaky eh? i did lurh. when i went overseas and for 4e2 class chalet. well well well.. just finished packing and finalising my bagpack. [ it aint good to d last min work. ] yup. ready to set off for tml's camp!

bugis cliques! dun miss me ar! hohos. alright, nights people. i hope i will have a happier blog from today onwards. i promise. like wad edwyna said in her blog it does make sense.. we only live once, so why live unhappily?! yuppps. heeehs.

wont be blogging till sat night dun miss me people !

tags reply :

joserina : thanks girl! i`m happier already. teeheees. yoos come find me lurh! sms me first. u got my no. right?

edwyna : lols! so creative urh. bu kui shi wo zu zhi duo mo , you chong man you mo gan, yi ji, auntie jing shen de ah bu! hohos.

byeee~!

2008-04-08T23:07:00.000-07:00

alright, shall have a happier post for today! nyeahahaha ~okkay. recently, i`ve been with a chio collegue of mine. she's younger den me. but she's really prettyee! she taught me alot. yea, she smokes and she is from some sort of gang. thus, i told her my life . she told me her life. i told her to go study again. and she's seriously thinking of that. yupp. i`m glad she's listening. hohos. aniwae, was talking to edwyna about how we will snatch stuffs at shengshiong supermarket. hohos. i wanna blog till old la. edwyna! you better blog till you are 90! hohos. and post more retarded photos like those! without ur teeth and a head of white hairs. or bald. yupp! tat's real funnny. heeehs.

alright i shall go off first. a short post only. shall post more later! i promise. byee!

2008-04-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

i tried to do my best already. i know tat after they left. everything will be down onto me. i didnt shirk ani responsibilities. yes. there are new people. but i wouldnt know how to ask them to help me do it. they are so much older den me. so mani stuffs happening at a time.. yet you guys chose not to understand but added on to everything. i`m jus a part-time worker. you expect me to come down every single day after school days. hello. i will be tired out. yes. i dont mind. but i jus need a break. my appendix was acting. and i wasnt able to do much. yet you blamed me for not packing the stuffs. for goodness sake, spare me some time can? to even rest. can? you wouldnt want me to talk to others. but you know me well. and you know tat i am someone over-hyper. i dont understand why u want to keep me to the lil shop and forcing me to do this and dat. i need my life. i know your business situation. and i know wad might happen. why carn you guys be more optimistic. i`m tired of being dragged into every single matter. i`m tired of being blamed for the simplest thing. i just hope to... get a breather. why carn you even give me dat. i did not rebel against you on anithing. be it me sleeping for 3 hours only, i still came down to help you out. i`m tired. i did not have enough rest. yes. you will blame me for not wanting my own rest. but i have to go out to settle on some personal stuffs. i know it took up time and i know you wouldnt like it. who can i even talk to. who can i even trust? i stayed in that shop and i dun even take offs often jus to help you guys out. becus of this, i carn really meet up my friends. alwas there's other people taking off. i have to be down. everyday there's others taking off thus i`ll alwas end up not able to come down late/not coming. i did not complain. i did not. now.. the older collegues i have all left me already. they are people whom i confide to. and just becus i confide in them, you got jealous and didnt like them. you even question the wae i treat them and the wae i treat you. that's two total issuees. how stressed up i feel now. and i carn tell ani new collegues. they are all not gonna listen to me. i talk to some other people. cus at least they know me longer. and i can confide to , hopefully. but who know tat you even wanted me to coop myself in that small lil shop. now my job aint tat simple . not basic - serving customers, hanging clothes, putting back to original place. now my job is so complex - pack goods, check stock missing, remember goods in the warehouse, on top and at the next shop, serve, hang, tell new collegues prices, find the goods. how stress up i feel?

and i went to find him. hoping to ask him how is he and hope tat he will unblock me off his msn. i really dunno wad i did wrong tat you have to avoid me in all waes.. i jus hope tat after each r. friends is still a choice. but no. this frightens me. i wont dare to enter r. as it alwas end up with no more friendship. i just wanted to care more about u. is tat so tough? i jus wanted to know more about u . are u so reluctant? am i so detestable. this really lower my self - esteem. i didnt know tat i am so influencial that you have to block me off your vision/thoughts/hearing. i really dunno wad's wrong.. so confused. i jus seek for your answer. is it really so tough to give me an answer. i woke up early hoping to catch by you. but yoos went out ahead of my arrival. disappointed but wad can i do? i left a note. but ended up being chilled by you. i dunno wad's wrong already. haiis. can someone show me my path?

i know you do treat me very important and well. but sometimes, i do have some other todds. am i really the only one ? you have your school . and i am starting school soon. no matter wad u promised me, i carn bring myself to believe. i dun wish to be left hopeless again i dont wish to be hurt and betrayed once again. i just wanted you to assure me, and tell me wad i want to hear.. haiis. doubt u will ever read this. cus i noe yoos too well.

friends are there. i know. but somehow, i still carn bring myself to tell every single one of you out there wad's really wrong with me. these are all those on the surface. i aint tat happy at all. i aint tat strong. i am...

throughly drained out.

forcing myself to wear a smile, forcing myself to do mani stuffs to numb myself. wasnt the solution. troubles and stress still comes. was telling my another collegue today, dont tempt me to S. intentions of tat did came. and i was so closed to tat. i dropped that todd. i dunno wad causes me to change so much. maybe, i jus wanna build a wall around me. to avoid being hurt once again..

whether ani of you believe or not..jus gonna say, i`m truely, deeply afraid. to lose my loved one. to get hurt again. i aint tat strong. i`ve hid my emotions. nor did i showed my feelings out. except tat fateful night. i still remember how i embraced in her arms. i miss her. they aint here to encourage me .. they have left. my sisters, my elder advisors.. they have taught me alot.. alot than a 17 year old girl should know. it's all defensive skills tat i should learn and slowly, use it. i miss the times we 3 crapped together in the shop. i know. it's best for you guys to leave. than to bear with it. i wish you guys luck.

阿芬姐姐，毛毛，我很想念你们！我不知道还能向谁倾诉。我只知道，你们是我唯一会把一切告诉你们的人！我不知道如何感激你们这几个月的教导，以及一起度过的一切风风雨雨，我只能说，谢谢你们！向我亲姐姐一般的照顾我，疼我。我还记得毛毛说过一句话。“你还有我们啊！”谢谢你！我好像好想你们哦！一定要联络我好吗？你们从不怀疑我，也没有停止照顾我。现在，腰酸背痛，也没有毛毛帮我擦药了。难过与不明白一些事的时候，没有阿芬姐姐叫我怎么做了！谢谢你们所教会我的！我会牢牢记住。昌起歌时要想起我哦！

笨头笨脑的小女孩 [阿芬姐姐，我承认了]
白2 [毛毛，我也承认了哦！]

the above chinese paragraph was dedicated to two people very precious to me. i miss them alot. i seriously do. no one have ever trusted me and dote me like thei own sister so dearly. they really give in to me. let me play. play with me. let me slack. when i am tired they ask me rest they work . i leg pain they help me to massage. shirt loose, they help me sew tighter, hungry they buy food with me, sad they share with me their experience, shared our happiness together.... i miss them. i seriously do. 姐姐，你们有空要回来找我！我好想你们！i`m glad to know them. i really am glad.

shall end my post with a happier note , my hamsters gave birth again and i have 2 more income route opened for myself. i will not forget what my wad my two sisters say before they left. i wont forget.. i will take care no worries people. i will. and i wont give up trying...

btw, my handphone broke down 1 week ago. and it's in sony servicing centre.
nothing much to complain since they changing everything for me... and i got a nice spare phone for myself. gastric problem is coming too often. but i carn change my eating habit. i miss alot of people now.. ah fen jie jie, mao mao, alwin, yvonne, jacquelinee... bugis cliques. i miss them... alot. haiiis..

i`m getting hungry already after all those crying in the above paragraphs.

shall reply tags for now ....

marinne , thanks girl.

amanda , =.= thanks eh? updated.

naemah, you will console me and embrace me with your open arms right? i`ll wait for u at bugis den.

jonathan , thankyou. why dont u use it as ur blog song den?

tiffany , hello girl. i am doing fine i guess. aniwae, i miss u urh. do meet up soon. we shall go shopping.

tags replied. bye.

2008-03-27T10:34:00.000-07:00

in despair ; helplessly looking for an answer deep within ;

hello! it's been a long time since i last updated. shall start from

21st of march : KUKUS outing .

let's see what i can recall, aniwae, for pictures please do go to my friendster to view as i am lazy for second submission / uploading of photos. it's constantly taking ages till my last breathe it still seems endless!
okok. i shall cut the crap. aniwaee, went out with kukus. details please view KAILI's blog entry which is definitely VERY hard to find. er. let me find it for u. KAILI's blog page blog entry 21ST MARCH .

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22ND MARCH :

okay. and er, 22nd march. something disasterous happened. and i have no one to blame. i can only say, i will tolerate, i will bear with it. i will not do anithing about it. and joanne, keep quiet . if not, u are going to hurt people around u. so sorry people if i did not say anithing! 22nd amrch was spent going out with amanda , jenny, mei yi and gang. fun fun fun! glad to noe dem urh! nothing much. we just went to teenage cafe . played, drinked, crapped, laughed. yupp. tat's about it.

23RD MARCH :

hmmms. i`m really touched by you. despite the long distance apart, you still made all the way to the east just to make me happy, just to make me smile. the effort is all that matters. i`m really surprised and really really fortunate to know you. well, i cannot assure anithing , but i only can say, i will try my best. keep your promises too. thanks for all that u have done for me. although it may be small actions, small things, but it's enough to keep me wearing the smile on my face. although, i cried till my eyes were all puffy, but i`m glad. tat u are there to go thru with me. although i cannot tell you wad happen, but jus be sure. i`ll be fine. thanks for the trip. thanks for the stuffs u did. i am glad to noe u my dear friend. thoughts is wad it counts. thankyou.
{ for those who don't understand a single word above, then don't cause i myself didnt make it ani further shuffle. }

24TH MARCH :

stayed at home due to the swollen eyes i have. and yea, watched movies and movies and movies! PPSTREAM IS LOVED !

25TH MARCH :

headed down to SIRS [ singapore institute of retail studies ] . so darn tired. only slept for 2hrs plus the night before? omg. have to study and sit straight paying attention for the whole morning! glad dat i am able to NOT fall asleep! aniwae, it's fun with the teacher and the people i went with! loved!

26TH MARCH :

headed to the west to help fix my friend's MSN due to his dying internet connection. his dog is so so so adorable and light.( aniwae, don't misunderstand anithing people, i know his parents, his parents know my parents, he know my parents he know me , i know him. yea! and amanda, shhhhs!) tat clean. aniwae, headed over at around 12? reached west at around 2 plus. =.= dat slow man. i meant me, myself , I ! xD waited for him to take his bath before heading out to go work. =.= and after tat , i went to work la! of cus. hohos. nothing else already.

27TH MARCH : Today .

nothing pretty much except heading to SIRS for one last lesson , of cus, the examination. alot of funny things happen during lesson and there's no need to explain as it is hard to understand if u aint there. hohos. went in . came out. competent! passed. hohos. and after that headed to BOON TONG KEE ! woot woot. my fav. chicken rice restuarant. heeeeeehs. do visit it ! { boon tong kee, pay me for advertisment fees pleaseeeeeee! ((((: } oh oh, and took photos with my fellow sisters . heehs. yupp. and i headed to work next lo. nothing much too. tired out with only the bedtime hour of 3.5 my energy is seeping awayyy, draining itself away ~ alright alright.

ONLY LOVE - TRADEMARK

2 a.m. and the rain is falling here we are at the crossroads once againYou're tell in me you're so confused you can't make up your mindIs this meant to be you're asking me
Chorus :But only love can say try again or walk awayBut I believe for you and me the sun will shine one daySo I'll just play my part and pray you'll have a chance of heartBut I can't make you see it through that's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see there's hope beyond the painIf we give enough if we learn to trust
[Chorus]
I know if I could find the words to touch you deep insideYou'd give our dream just one more chance, don't let this be our last goodbye

[Chorus]
That's something only love can do

28TH MARCH : Tommorrow .

gonna meet sean at 11am tml. and why the hell am i still posting . heeehs. i`m tired but for my dear readers out there, i decided to be kind. ^^ thank me okkay! okok. i better hit my bed now before it comes running after me chasing me to bed. hohos.

nighty people.

TAGS REPLY :

samy : oh oh! boy oh boy. dont forgett ! focus focus! you can do it ! ^^
amanda : errr, why u say tat ? lols.

hui fang : quite nice leh ! go catch it lurh. u should try ppstream too. so mani shows to entertain u including my all time fav. shin chan! hohos. if u want ask me for the link i`ll tag in your blog?

jonathan : yea! show rocks lurh! your blog rotting la uncle. HELLO! DO SOMETHING TO YOUR BLOG BEFORE YOU START HOUSEKEEPING, JONATHAN KOH DE QUAN !

xiu hui : posted in your blog already girl. ^^ see ya there!

byeee~ *zoooms* - *snores *

2008-03-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

hello, i`m back. nothing much to update. or rather, not in the mood to update. well, i hope by tonight, i will be able to regain myself . not staying in the times of 2006. joanne, ignores ignores ignores. breathe in, breathe out.

well, i shall reply tags now i carn get my mind to think now. nothing comes into my mind...

TAGS REPLY :

amanda : hello girl! aniwae, thanks for bringing me out lurh! the books wait awhile k?

fang : hello hello! girl, u got watch e zuo ju 2 wen ma? verii nice oh!

sam : no worries. jus remember to study hard and dun forget wad i taught u okkie!

naemah : yea. u brought me out. i brought u joy and laughter. hohos.

BYE!

2008-03-15T11:31:00.000-07:00

hohos. shall update and wash that previous post away. i hope. xD aniwae, todae was sort of tiring? yupp. and the weather is extremely warm! gawdd~ opps. and yea, i updated my wishlist. those books are those tat i do read. i don't reconmand people to buy.. err.. cus it's kinda, not good? i mean. it's all about children abused and stuff. my mum saes tat i am perverted to read those books. actually, from these books. i learnt how cruel man can be and how i should adapt and not follow the same steps. i do cry along with the storyline. touching stories and heart wrecking plot.

o.o. ehh, i shall go to bed now before someone breathes down my throat! =.= . thanks to tat someone i have to sleep by 2.30am. =.= fine. i shall go off now and head to bed at 2.35am! heeehs. already considered good already. better sms him to tell him i`m sleeping now before he starts to scream at me. *glups*

BYEE!

2008-03-14T11:19:00.001-07:00

to bloghopper :

you mus be veri honoured to be able to have your fake name up here. i dont noe wad attracted you to come to my blog. and i suppose , you arent a bloghopper, but a typical trouble maker for blog users. maybe u might feel wad u felt. but hello? i act or not, cute or not, chio or not. i dont need you to comment. besides, i am keeping these photos as a momento and for me to have some stuff to look back at. i suppose my life have no wadsoever feud with u eh? be it me or whoever, it doesnt and never did it concern you. i guess u are all jealous tat i am proud of myself and jealous dat i am not afraid of showing my NAME & PICTURE in my blog. no matter wad u want. scram off. if u arent happy about anithing. add my email , or call me personally. since u are able to find my blog. why not get my no? if u have so much unhappiness you wanna whine , for goodness sake, give me a call. i`ll be glad to entertain u. or u can add me in msn. i noe u are trying to seek attention in my blog. here you go. attentionseeker. i am proud of who i am and i arent ashamed of who i am. why should i die? buang? wad sort of english is yous girl? and thankyou for adding some life to my tagboard. scram off. if u wont. it's okay. consequences you bear it yourself.

sorry to start off the post this wae. but i guess, some people are jealous towards how opened i am towards my own life and my high self esteem. i shall not hold ani regards towards her untill she really pissed me off. well well.. i`m still living fine and still on earth. yupp. i have no watsoever further wishes lo! jus wanna thank god for being safe and sound, for a happy family, for my caring friends and the chance to meet new friends in christ like todae! xD aniwae aniwae, this few days are verii verii random. i do not wish to elaborate further. jus wanna update tat i`m fine , safe and still is living in singapore! heeehs. so so so, do drop me a short message or and offline message , or a tag like wad the person above is doing. but something positive! heeehs. alrighht. i gotta pop into my bedroom now before i start to regret why i didnt sleep earlier today. alright bye people!

TAGS REPLY :

claricia: hello! how are u ! i saw ur tag! XD

zulaikha : hohos, i noe u and ur mum both misses me. heeeehs. no worries and do takkaire girl. happy birthday once again girl! xD

hui fang : hohos. i finished watching dou niu too! i am currently indulging in they kiss again . other den dat. i am more engrossed in my books i recently bought again. hohos! read more books ar! xD

bloghopper : do read above, and the tag dedicated to you.

amanda : thanks girl. but dun waste too much breathe okay. after today i shant bother already. jus wanna express wad i feel once and for all. if she wanna continue tagging tat's her prob. xD ignore alright? ^^ i am who i am. i am proud so i will not be pulled down by her. ^^

okok! byee!