Thursday, January 31, 2008 @ 11:21 AM


[edited] {picture gotten rid due to privacy (: } thanks amanda. [/edited]



sorry for the big gap inbetween the date and the post. i carn seem to edit it. anione who care to help me out?

current feeling : hungry!

grrr. my stomach is growling like shit. argh argh argh. hungry!

joanne is telling herself to move forward, to live life as it is. she'll not be slowed down by her past mistakes. she'll learn to pick herself up , to move on, to love life as it is. she do not bother with the word love anymore. cause she have the love of her wonderful parents, collegues whom are sister like to her, friends at bugis, friends from school. i`m loved. i am too tired to love someone when i dont get requitted love.
good news!

i`ve been called down for an interview at temasek polytechnic for the course HOSPITALITY AND TOURISM MANAGEMENT.woot! who else !? do tell me okay. i dont wanna go alone!i`m happy! yays! hope that all will be well for the interview. *prays*


anyway, i`m very looking forward to this chinese new year as i`ll be able to gather with my cousins to go k session! i miss KTV sessions lurh.


oh yea, whoever wanna ask me out do call/sms/reach me @ my no. okay! or email me/pm me.


alright alright, i shall go sleep now after the major edit i did to this blog. know why i called it major? reason is : this blog is seen like shit in IE, whilst in firefox it's perfect. so yea, editted it to be in IE contextour.



TAGS REPLY :

kaili : hello sister! i not chao ah lian lurh! i carn online in the noon . only will be online at midnight. =x ps ar sis! aniwae, do take care lurh. anithing can tell me in my blog one. ^^

naemah: i bet this song is much better already. i`m being so kind to u by changing my blog song. so u mus thank me by meeting me up soon! heeeehs .

eugene: yea yea, i noe. but which eugene are yoos?

amanda: i noe lurh. but but but, after CNY! i`ll be very free! takkaire girl!

kaili : who ask u agree with that sheep mah? she's trying to attract my attention at my blog. u too? :D

jonathan : yea i noe i noe. i meant, if everyone thinks tat wae, i shall do wad singaporean normally do, follow the trend! understand ? hohos !

naemah : i don care. i want put means i want put. dun wan. i wanna stay noisy. i`m alwasy cute! =D

cs: opps, choosen le lurh. i din choose FBI. i chose HTM. oh yea! u reminded me to update on my courses tat i chose. o.o ! shall edit my post.

jonathan : yays! claps! ee. ur theory?

amanda: i noe amanda, thanks eh! i`ll move on with life happily. and i`ll wanna meet u up soon okay! loves. red , ya. i love it. LOL.

naemah : yes. i noe . u are too! not just jonathan okay. i noe i noe. thankyou thankyou. ^^

fang : see i specially change the font and stuff for u leh. honoured right. mus go cry okay? i shall be nice by selling u tissues.

okkay! gotta go. bye !

xoxo



Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ 1:32 PM


massive changes that i have to edit the template from 1 to 5.30am now. =.= . gotta go sleep already! and jus wanna sae, i`ll be independent.

shall blog tml. see ya ppl. continue tagging. sorry for the worries. shall reply tags soon.

xoxo



Tuesday, January 29, 2008 @ 10:48 AM



is asking someone wad he is doing, where is he and eaten yet really troublesome and frustrating ? am i really asking too much questions? is this not care and concern? wad if i kept quiet? wad if i dun speak anithing. wad if i remain silence. will he automatically inform me where he is? will he ask me anithing? will he tell me anithing? no. he will not even bother animore. i dunno why the fark am i trying so hard to cling onto this. i am finding it so hard myself. i dun have anione to talk to animore. i work and work. so tired. friends have already slept by the time i reach home. no one to speak to. no one to confide in. i am feeling so vexed now. mixed emotions. i dunno wad to do animore. i tried my best changing. i am trying my best not to ask u questions. but how can i deny the fact that i wanna care for u?

by asking u where are u. i hope to noe u are fine.
by asking wad u are doing. i hope to noe that u are not busy or vex with anithing. least that by calling u i might be disturbing u or wad.
by asking u have u eaten cus i want to make sure u are full and have the energgy to do your stuff.

is all these.. too overboard? not like wad u sae that i have mani friends to talk to. infact, i have not much friends now. some of u might be happy tat i am feeling this wae. but this is life. who can i trust? i seem so much. tat i am left stunned . i began to believe wad my parents sae, do not give everything to anione. sometimes collegues scold me dumb. retarded. idiot. stupid. it all seems true. i seem to be too believing. too forgiving. too giving.. too softhearted.

how i wish to tell u wad i wish for. how i wish to tell u wad i hope i can acheive in life. how i wish u can do those [not mention] for me. how i wish u can understand me. how i wish.. u wun be so cold and fierce to me. all these while, i noe u are easily irritated. but... i am still someone of urs. mus u treat me so shabbily? shouting into the phone jus becus i asked 2 questions. hanging up the phone jus becus i asked 3 questions. i have changed my attire for u. i am prepared to change my hair colour for u. i am closing my ear holes for u. i am quitting my job for u. wad else do u want? wadever that i want, i carn have it. u wun accomodate me. wadever u hope to get from me i will do it although it may take long. i still do it. although i like the wae i am after i change but u dun like wad can i do? how i wish to let u noe, my parents cares for me. how i wish to let u noe.. i have tried my best already..............

i am too tired to carry on thinking. to u. i am nothing. and it stays like this. i dunno wad to do animore. someone. pls. help me.

xoxo



Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 9:40 AM


hmmms. seems like there are people who saes can minus 2 bonus point if cca a1 / a2. good lo. i minus le = R4-11! ^^ *yayness* i am still having trouble as to wad course to go. sad sia. ok ok. shall update next time. bye!

xoxo



Thursday, January 24, 2008 @ 9:59 AM


jus a short updated i got the results of L1R4-13, L1R5-15 . quite glad tou. but still hoped to score better. oh well. all is done with. aniwae, thanks to those congrats and wishes okkie!

me and him eh, somehow, better le. as in, still waiting for tml. i shall update the info about me and him tml i guess.

kaili! stop saying i`m a chao ah lian. i will be dying my hair back tml le. xD i still think black is cuter. ^^

aniwae aniwae, congrats to all others who did well for GCE O levels 2007. 4e2 did not disappoint the teachers either. although we did not have ani top students, but i am glad to noe that we did within expectation alright! loves!

TAGS REPLY :

joserina : where got. naturally cute le lo. xD how's your results! carn seem to contact u . =.= !

amanda : highlight la. i dyeing back le. xD very often le la. and i am updating now. xD

naemah : i also nva ask u to see pig. Square TV u.

zhi ning : okay okay! we wll meet up soon alright! loves and do contact me!

cs : not feeling panic when i saw that tag before the release of o levels results. so tired everyday. no energy to feel panic .

naemah : xlovesounds-bs.com , why so kaypoh?

ratna : updated already!

pei ning : thanks for the luck and i hope that the notes will be of use for u. do take care and work hard!

amanda[again] : nope. i`m in perfect condition. and do delete the video thankyou. will contact u la. -.- and u miss diamond? come see her lo. she so cute!

fang : reply reply reply . hahas. takaire too. aniwae, grats ar ur results. some day come bugis and i shall give u a discount card alright? ^^ next time buy can use.

edwyna : yea. quite okay lurh. congrats on bilingual! and hard work do works. ^^ glad dat we both did well. hey! do meet up some days okay. kukus are missed! takkaire and misses!

okay . bye bye!

xoxo



Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 8:55 AM


a news to break to everyone, i broke up with him already. yes. actually, it's better this wae. i have my own life, he have his own. verii tired about it too. yea. u can ask me about it if u wish to . i`m open about it. seriously speaking, i`m not quite sad ba. =/ not dat i dun like him or wad. but, i have my other commitments to settle. so, yea. best way..
next thing, O levels results coming out tml. i worked everyday and i almost forgot about it. i am happy working and i really like the environment and laughter everyday. it's fun working. O levels. i do have high hopes for myself. yea parents might sae why stress? but for me, i have to. cus sec 4. i remember i did so hard to get wad i got for prelims. and i did worked even harder and greater towards O levels. so i carn expect myself to fail below expectations. i will do wel. i mus. to make my parents proud.
next thing up. mani ppl said i changed. did i? i dunno leh. class chalet was a blast! so darn fun lo! ^^ and i miss them loads okay. shall upload pics later. sorry for empty promises but my com crashed down a few days back. thus resulting in me not being abled to post the pictures up. xD recently i bought 1 flats and 1 heels 1 boots. quite ex la. LOL. and shirts and jeans. alot of new stock all quite nice. new year dun need fret one. jus take can liao. xD i re-stocked my creams and those for use at night before i sleep. quite ex also. xD but i am glad to sae, i still do have alot of money in bank. xD shall not reveal how much. later think my alot is lil . =(( no la. hehhs.
aniwae, i miss alot of friends.
i miss, amanda!
kukus!
joel and gang.
pei ning.
3e2 peeps.
edwyna
hui fang
qiu ai...
mani more! ^^

ok la. i shall be off to watch my videos already. like wad my collegues say, i have already taken the exam. as long as i feel that i did my best so why fret over it again and again. marked already. marks are settled already. so let nature take its course! i shall heed this advice! bye ppl. shall upload pics now!

















xoxo



Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 8:42 AM


hello people! new year le! second post. okay, as requested by joserina ng xi wei, i shall post up pictures.

i went to cousin house few weeks back for some gathering some pictures to be shown. eh, i seem verii lethargic as i did not sleep well dat night! ^^












next event was the time we went karaoke with my collegues and my parents on the 30th night.






next picture maybe shocking but, yea.. i did it.


i highlighted and rebonded my hair. yea. shocking? i dunno why i did it too. curious maybe. or under the influence and propaganda of my collegues. hope it did some changes to me. that's about it.

TAGS REPLY :

joserina : lollipop ar! i update pic le la! stop whinning le! lols! aniwae, plan a day we meet up hor. miss u lots girl! u mus be dead bored now! lalala~

amanda: saw le so wad? wad twerp? u la! bodoh. still need ask? so obvious sia. look into mirror la. lauu. not pai seh meh u ask me this q. i so pai seh. xD

mei xian: yea. lols! yoos din noe right. cus u din check my blog often! )):

xiuhui & sili : will link yoos up after i post this entry.

kaili :hello hello! yea. view and run!lols. aniwae, takkaire okkay! happy new year ar dinosaur! i miss yooos! roam esss. i cannot roam liao. kana kick out le leh. cannot see u roam leh. smile more! smile more cuter la. ^^

naemah : i alwas see your mum. maybe i shall hug her. and ask her to hug u for me. ^^ aniwae, correct not i spell?! "kamu jangan rindu saya ah! " correct?! ^^ teach me correctly how to spell la. spell wrong so malu.

okkay okkay. i posted long enough already! bye ppl! takkaire shall update soon. which i dunno when. takkaire all esp. when new year coming and all snacks cravings come crawling! ^^ loves!

joanne .


xoxo



Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ 8:47 AM


OKAY! as said by amanda loh yu hui, i shall update my blog. new year new resolution :

1. to treat ling better.
2. to earn more money.
3. to receive good news of results.
4. to change my appearance.
5. choing finish more shows.
6. to treat everyone better.
7. to have a even forgiving heart. [ to people whom have some arguements, sorry eh. ]
8. to live a happier life.
9. freedom.
10. stop piling too mani clothes. although it's free. =/




okkay. updates on my life recently. although not much readers, but i should say, there are people reading. pls tag leh. if not i no mood to blog. okkay, eh, i shall jus update on major events that happens la.

24/12/2007
christmas countdown! bbq-ed at bugis. hmmms, alot of us gathered lurh! wah, that idiot alwin sprayed me like shit. big bully. it's okkay! i got my revenge. yea. played, ran around bugis. eat! drank beer! xD yea. and er, celebrated till like 4 plus am lo. hehhs. so tired when i got home!

25-28/12/2007
quarrelled with darling for those few days. but now, i`m willing to say, ling, i will make time for yoos. i noe we havent been spending too much time together. but for yoos, i`m willing to even skip a day work jus to meet yoos.. ling, i promise, i wun throw tantrum le. i love yoos.

30/12/2007
went to partyworld KTV to sing. wah so tiring okkay! dance and dance! sang alot of songs. love that day alot lurh! felt that, i sang my hearts out for some songs. esp, ni na me ai ta.. yea. and urh, we played! dance and camwhore! shall upload fotos after i post this post up. yea. and

31/12/2007
work as usual. oh yea, work is especially fun lo! i love working. but at the same time i miss darling. =( oh yea, i haven took a day off for this whole month except i went over to gentin okkay! ^^ reach home. countdown with parents!

today, pay day! i have so much to do okkay. not much la. tml go open bank acc, apply for DBS/OCBC atm card for easy use. not that i dun have but that one mus let parents keep. after that tml go work lo. den den den, wed i going to cut my hair again! new style le. den next fri i go highlight my hair lurh. wad colour?! i dunno. oh ya, i wanna buy my face mask ! and cream! soon soon. ^^ 10th got TP open house should i go? dun feel like going le leh. later "bailyn" kill me. xD

15th going shopping with my girl at far east den go bugis shop. den go down to class chalet. hmmms. not bad eh! lols. den chalet i mus start preparing from 10th le mus book bbq stuff. and also mus buy cards on behalf of the class for the teachers coming le. mus remind mr teo again. ^^

suddenly i misses school.
3e2, 4e2.
misses the canteen. where i use to eat and chat happily with my beloved one.
the soccer field, where i use to look at darling play soccer.
the hall , where i used to perform on the stage.
the foyer where i used to do my duties.
the class room which holds mani wonderful memories.
i miss mdm noreha.
mrs christina lee.
ms liu.
mdm too.
mr teo.
ms sim.
mr tan.

and mani more. i miss ESchorale. i miss the days KUKUS went out. I miss the days when we alwas wait in the parade square to go up class. there's so much jokes and laughter. i miss my class. i miss.. 4e2.

i miss prefect duties. i miss running up and down for jus one task. i miss doing errands for ms tay, mrs lee.

i miss taking the exams. i miss waiting anxiously for results. i miss working hard for exams. i miss having quarrels in school. i miss everyone.

i miss.. east spring.

seriously, work may be fun. but it doesnt beat having to share all sorrows, joy, tears and happiness with all my wonderful mates. i misss all of yoos.. sometimes, time jus passes by so fast and now, i finished working hard for Os already. it may be a relieved but, it is sad to noe, all learning in east spring comes to an end.

enough of teary teary stuff. shall say,2007 is quite a peaceful year for me. and i hope 2008 will be a better year ahead. with more problems that i will face. thru obstacle than will i grow :) i believe in this.

back to topic. i wish to stop work during jan. i mean. not so intensive work la. maybe after chinese new year, i`ll be working less often. will be broading over posting of schools and stuff. to all students starting school, it may be quite late. but, have a wonderful first day of school in 2008!

my wishlist, alot have been strike off lurh. added new list. ^^ aniwae, i`m obsess with the todds of having mani clothes. my mum la! keep having new clothes. i wanna buy a new cupboard le la! no space! seriously no space and all tops and dresses are all black.veri difficult to sort out.

okkay, gotta sleep already. shall upload fotos first ba. if i have mood to. =/ okay. bye people!

TAGS REPLY :

Joserina : yes girl, i wan lollipop leh. eh! got time come bugis find me! i miss yoos truck loads.

amanda: ps ar, so long le. i dunno wad u saying liao! lols. hi twerrp! and yea! it's updated amanda!

jonathan: yea, said by u but for me, it will be bah. aniwae, takkaire!

naemah: plump den cute wad. ^^ like me! naemah! i miss uu. pantat. saya mow pergi tandas. [ dunno how to spell also. ]

meixian: hi girl! yoos too! u go greenview? o.o. okkay. all the best okkay. no matter where u are, as long as u fully release ur potential, yoos can be a shining star! cherish secondary days! it's precious!! loves!

Okay, now joanne here wishing all of yoos a happy new year 2008 and may the new year ahead be a greater motivation to push all of yoos to your greatest potential to reach your dreams, your goal. and to believe, that dreams will.. come true. takkaire!

special dedication to kaili, girl, i miss yoos! and and and, smile more! dino mus smile and roar loud loud. that's the mei i have! i noe wad u`ve been thru it's tough. but believe yourself, he will be back. mine isnt it a miracle too? so , BELIEVE! takkaire!

xoxo

profile

I`m simply a girl with the name of Joanne Tan. I am a child of God, and I simply love God with the bottom of my heart. I`m turning 18 soon in oct-7-2009. I realise alot more when I come to recognise his voice. The voice of truth, courage and love. My life took a turn on the 17th of May 2008.with the addition of joy through my loving CG & unit. That's when i realise that there's so much more to life, than the life that I we have been living. Have you found the life purpose that will last till you die?


I've found mine, what about you?

Goals-

- Grow myself to a CL.
- See people's life transformation.
- To lift Jesus's name on High.
speak out! -