 Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 10:34 AM
 in despair ; helplessly looking for an answer deep within ;
21st of march : KUKUS outing .
okay. and er, 22nd march. something disasterous happened. and i have no one to blame. i can only say, i will tolerate, i will bear with it. i will not do anithing about it. and joanne, keep quiet . if not, u are going to hurt people around u. so sorry people if i did not say anithing! 22nd amrch was spent going out with amanda , jenny, mei yi and gang. fun fun fun! glad to noe dem urh! nothing much. we just went to teenage cafe . played, drinked, crapped, laughed. yupp. tat's about it. 23RD MARCH : hmmms. i`m really touched by you. despite the long distance apart, you still made all the way to the east just to make me happy, just to make me smile. the effort is all that matters. i`m really surprised and really really fortunate to know you. well, i cannot assure anithing , but i only can say, i will try my best. keep your promises too. thanks for all that u have done for me. although it may be small actions, small things, but it's enough to keep me wearing the smile on my face. although, i cried till my eyes were all puffy, but i`m glad. tat u are there to go thru with me. although i cannot tell you wad happen, but jus be sure. i`ll be fine. thanks for the trip. thanks for the stuffs u did. i am glad to noe u my dear friend. thoughts is wad it counts. thankyou. { for those who don't understand a single word above, then don't cause i myself didnt make it ani further shuffle. } 24TH MARCH : stayed at home due to the swollen eyes i have. and yea, watched movies and movies and movies! PPSTREAM IS LOVED ! 25TH MARCH : headed down to SIRS [ singapore institute of retail studies ] . so darn tired. only slept for 2hrs plus the night before? omg. have to study and sit straight paying attention for the whole morning! glad dat i am able to NOT fall asleep! aniwae, it's fun with the teacher and the people i went with! loved! 26TH MARCH : headed to the west to help fix my friend's MSN due to his dying internet connection. his dog is so so so adorable and light.( aniwae, don't misunderstand anithing people, i know his parents, his parents know my parents, he know my parents he know me , i know him. yea! and amanda, shhhhs!) tat clean. aniwae, headed over at around 12? reached west at around 2 plus. =.= dat slow man. i meant me, myself , I ! xD waited for him to take his bath before heading out to go work. =.= and after tat , i went to work la! of cus. hohos. nothing else already. 27TH MARCH : Today . nothing pretty much except heading to SIRS for one last lesson , of cus, the examination. alot of funny things happen during lesson and there's no need to explain as it is hard to understand if u aint there. hohos. went in . came out. competent! passed. hohos. and after that headed to BOON TONG KEE ! woot woot. my fav. chicken rice restuarant. heeeeeehs. do visit it ! { boon tong kee, pay me for advertisment fees pleaseeeeeee! ((((: } oh oh, and took photos with my fellow sisters . heehs. yupp. and i headed to work next lo. nothing much too. tired out with only the bedtime hour of 3.5 my energy is seeping awayyy, draining itself away ~ alright alright. ONLY LOVE - TRADEMARK 2 a.m. and the rain is falling here we are at the crossroads once againYou're tell in me you're so confused you can't make up your mindIs this meant to be you're asking me Chorus :But only love can say try again or walk awayBut I believe for you and me the sun will shine one daySo I'll just play my part and pray you'll have a chance of heartBut I can't make you see it through that's something only love can do In your arms as the dawn is breaking face to face and a thousand miles apart I've tried my best to make you see there's hope beyond the painIf we give enough if we learn to trust [Chorus] I know if I could find the words to touch you deep insideYou'd give our dream just one more chance, don't let this be our last goodbye [Chorus] That's something only love can do 28TH MARCH : Tommorrow . gonna meet sean at 11am tml. and why the hell am i still posting . heeehs. i`m tired but for my dear readers out there, i decided to be kind. ^^ thank me okkay! okok. i better hit my bed now before it comes running after me chasing me to bed. hohos. nighty people.
samy : oh oh! boy oh boy. dont forgett ! focus focus! you can do it ! ^^ amanda : errr, why u say tat ? lols. hui fang : quite nice leh ! go catch it lurh. u should try ppstream too. so mani shows to entertain u including my all time fav. shin chan! hohos. if u want ask me for the link i`ll tag in your blog? jonathan : yea! show rocks lurh! your blog rotting la uncle. HELLO! DO SOMETHING TO YOUR BLOG BEFORE YOU START HOUSEKEEPING, JONATHAN KOH DE QUAN ! xiu hui : posted in your blog already girl. ^^ see ya there!
xoxo Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 10:20 PM
hello, i`m back. nothing much to update. or rather, not in the mood to update. well, i hope by tonight, i will be able to regain myself . not staying in the times of 2006. joanne, ignores ignores ignores. breathe in, breathe out. well, i shall reply tags now i carn get my mind to think now. nothing comes into my mind... TAGS REPLY : amanda : hello girl! aniwae, thanks for bringing me out lurh! the books wait awhile k? fang : hello hello! girl, u got watch e zuo ju 2 wen ma? verii nice oh! sam : no worries. jus remember to study hard and dun forget wad i taught u okkie! naemah : yea. u brought me out. i brought u joy and laughter. hohos. BYE! xoxo Saturday, March 15, 2008 @ 11:31 AM
hohos. shall update and wash that previous post away. i hope. xD aniwae, todae was sort of tiring? yupp. and the weather is extremely warm! gawdd~ opps. and yea, i updated my wishlist. those books are those tat i do read. i don't reconmand people to buy.. err.. cus it's kinda, not good? i mean. it's all about children abused and stuff. my mum saes tat i am perverted to read those books. actually, from these books. i learnt how cruel man can be and how i should adapt and not follow the same steps. i do cry along with the storyline. touching stories and heart wrecking plot. o.o. ehh, i shall go to bed now before someone breathes down my throat! =.= . thanks to tat someone i have to sleep by 2.30am. =.= fine. i shall go off now and head to bed at 2.35am! heeehs. already considered good already. better sms him to tell him i`m sleeping now before he starts to scream at me. *glups* BYEE! xoxo Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 11:19 AM
to bloghopper : you mus be veri honoured to be able to have your fake name up here. i dont noe wad attracted you to come to my blog. and i suppose , you arent a bloghopper, but a typical trouble maker for blog users. maybe u might feel wad u felt. but hello? i act or not, cute or not, chio or not. i dont need you to comment. besides, i am keeping these photos as a momento and for me to have some stuff to look back at. i suppose my life have no wadsoever feud with u eh? be it me or whoever, it doesnt and never did it concern you. i guess u are all jealous tat i am proud of myself and jealous dat i am not afraid of showing my NAME & PICTURE in my blog. no matter wad u want. scram off. if u arent happy about anithing. add my email , or call me personally. since u are able to find my blog. why not get my no? if u have so much unhappiness you wanna whine , for goodness sake, give me a call. i`ll be glad to entertain u. or u can add me in msn. i noe u are trying to seek attention in my blog. here you go. attentionseeker. i am proud of who i am and i arent ashamed of who i am. why should i die? buang? wad sort of english is yous girl? and thankyou for adding some life to my tagboard. scram off. if u wont. it's okay. consequences you bear it yourself. sorry to start off the post this wae. but i guess, some people are jealous towards how opened i am towards my own life and my high self esteem. i shall not hold ani regards towards her untill she really pissed me off. well well.. i`m still living fine and still on earth. yupp. i have no watsoever further wishes lo! jus wanna thank god for being safe and sound, for a happy family, for my caring friends and the chance to meet new friends in christ like todae! xD aniwae aniwae, this few days are verii verii random. i do not wish to elaborate further. jus wanna update tat i`m fine , safe and still is living in singapore! heeehs. so so so, do drop me a short message or and offline message , or a tag like wad the person above is doing. but something positive! heeehs. alrighht. i gotta pop into my bedroom now before i start to regret why i didnt sleep earlier today. alright bye people! TAGS REPLY : claricia: hello! how are u ! i saw ur tag! XD zulaikha : hohos, i noe u and ur mum both misses me. heeeehs. no worries and do takkaire girl. happy birthday once again girl! xD hui fang : hohos. i finished watching dou niu too! i am currently indulging in they kiss again . other den dat. i am more engrossed in my books i recently bought again. hohos! read more books ar! xD bloghopper : do read above, and the tag dedicated to you. amanda : thanks girl. but dun waste too much breathe okay. after today i shant bother already. jus wanna express wad i feel once and for all. if she wanna continue tagging tat's her prob. xD ignore alright? ^^ i am who i am. i am proud so i will not be pulled down by her. ^^ okok! byee! xoxo Sunday, March 9, 2008 @ 9:09 AM
 hohos. sorry for the lack of updates in my blog. and it seems like jonathan and naemah started some sort of "war" in my tagboard. wonder wad's wrong with both of them. they seem alien to me! hoohooos! aniwae aniwae, i have tons of photo to update once again. but i alwas decides to post up a few only. sad. but i`m pretty lazi , you can say. & SEE. well well well, how's my life. i shall go into details den! 4th - 7th march : nothing much in particular lurh. or is it dat i carn remember. yea. it's been some time.. so.. yea. it , went off! my tods i meant. heehs. oh oh! remembered! i went out with amanda on the , 4th! awhile only. yupp. went off to buy my rubik's cube which cost 11 bucks. hohos. it's fun to play with mind boggling. and i remembered clearly dat amanda made my play gunbound once again. thanks ar. and i am sleeping late often. =.= ! 8th of march : well well well! two pieces of good news ! hohoos! my hamsters gave birth to more hamsters! so cuteee! and i received my TP's package. todd package suppose to be like present. but not. it's nightmare to me. =.= lucky for me, i filled it up already lurh. so nothing much to fred except taking of passport photo, photocopy of birthcert, trip for my medical check up on tues and filling up the bank forms. =.= lucky for me, i didnt took up banking or wadsoever. i will fail. =X. 9th march : today, being dumb i asked my collegues " wad does an X ray really do ? " i mean, i didnt went for any sort of this before and thus, i began questioning and questioning. it seem scary for X-ray man. =.=! hohos. it's still fun working lurh! whilst working, till around 10 plus. i began to realise my wallet went missing . i mean, i was holding it for a moment and it was missing the next moment. being a scatterbrainer , i really didnt noe where i placed it. *cries* ! so i began searching, searching, searching .... .... ... i was frantically looking for it for about 4 mins? and i asked my sister and collegue " die la, my wallet missing sia, how ar? got seee my wallet not? " denn dey began saying, "no lehh. dun have... hor! you anihow put. " and yea. i todd i was dead too. I TOD! when i was about to step out of the shop to look for it at another shop, at the corner of my eyes, i saw my sister sniggering. hohos. well, my sister alwas give the game off. so , i played with them den. i began announcing my wallet went missing! help me find! yea. i noe tat they hid it. so ii didnt really bother much. ( i noe i shouldnt been such a scattered brainer. i learnt a lesson. i really did . i did not really played. but in between, i did sort of reprimanded myself for being useless. ) hmmms.. and everyone seems to be taking it lightly. they still dun wanna surrender my stuffs even if i found my wallet in my own shop's rubbish chunk which is clean. so my last resort, i said " ok, let's cal DBS bank to cancel my card and report to the police the lost of my white wallet !" and i began to dial ...... 9... 99... 99........stop! hohos. my brother asked my mum to give me back my stuff. and they asked why am i taking it so lightly. and reprimanded me of cus. and i told them a few big holes they left in this game . 1. my sister alwas give the game out by laughing when i am walking off. thus, i understand her well. 2. my dad will panic if he noes i lose my stuff and will be frantically calling DBS and walking around to find. instead, he took it so lightly tat he was doing his normal stuff, washed his hands whilst listening to me and taking a slow pace. 3. when my another collegue really lost her wallet, my mum went around bugis street jus to look for the wallet. so how can it be that when i sae my wallet went missing she still stood around, scolding me? 4. why would the theif steal my stuff and throw my wallet into my own shop's rubbish bin and left also 10 cents in my wallet. =.=! i mean, if someone wanna steal my stuff, she/he would not leave trace behind. well, not saying i am smart or wad. but jus wanna sae, although i took it lightly, but i still learnt a lesson. yes i can study, i can score well even without tuition. but , really in life, there's so much more i have to learn. i won't stop learning. i won't stop !  hmmmms.. and today, in the early morning, woke up and met amanda at the interchange. bought my hamster's cage and stuffs for hamster and my dog, rounding up to 45 buck. we went off , up to the foodcourt to have cavanas express [sp] it's nice okay! xD i tried to paid my drink using my dbs card. cus i dun have coins nor cash with me. i dun wish to use my 20 buck note. xD seriously, i sometimes really do embarrass myself. but i happy can le! xD yupp. went home . took diamond [ my dog ] out for a walk to block 800 plus. meiyi's house. brought my dog dere for her to play with. it's exhausting lurh! lols. aniwae, went walking, running. i did exercise hohos. came home dead beat. but still, have to head down to work. yupp. and tat's about it. 1E2E2 CLASS OUTING!! i miss the class lurh! xD aniwae, i shall be off to bed soon as i promised my collegues i will be down at work at 10.30am. but, i regretted making this bet. cus, i feel like i will fall sick tml. [ may god bless me ] i dun wish to fall sick. so yea. i`ll takkaire! i shall reply tags now! TAGS REPLY: naemah : yes yes? LOL. Jonathan : yes yes? LOL. naemah & jonathan : lols. u both are hilarious la. wad dogs and wadsoever. lols. leave your quarrels at homee! xD class outing class outing class outing!! zulaikha : hello! thanks thanks! aniwae, girl. i miss youuuu! xD byee ~ xoxo Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 7:56 AM
i`ve decided not to get too into it already. cause i guess. it's really how i judge it to be. yea, so wad if it happens? my life still goes on happily! now i don't have much to anticipate but jus looking forward to the package i will be receiving. cause it really sounds like a huge present lurh. the word " package" sounds big. heeeehs. may be childish, but who cares! i`m happy. [ like i promised to give a happier post. ] heehs. aniwae, i wanna go watch movie lurh. amanda promised me already.. when?!! and i shall await for kaili's holiday to jio her out. heeehs. and naemah! bring me out to playy! hohos. i realised, it's really all in the mind as to how u see somethings to be. and thankfully, i`m not someone who is really really pestimistic. i do am pestimistic sometimes. but not dat into it. i`m optimistic tooo! some friend at bugis working around said i`m a happy apple. heeehs. i bring my smile along everyday i go down to bugis. i donno why. but it really makes me smile when i am working. at least, i`m spending my days fruitfully dere. thankfully, i`ve grown up like wad mani people said. last time, i do admit, my actions and behaviour is horrendous! yupp, thanks to my jie jie[s] in bugis who taught me rights and wrongs. really it's been a great time with them. i noe good moments don't last. so i will cherish my days down dere. and i know they will leave sooner or later.. ))): they have their own life and family urh. sad . but wish them luck too urh! heeehs. sometimes, i noe i shouldnt gave my trust so easily. lucky for my collegues who taught me dat. if not now i guess i`ll be crying like shit. but yea. i do not let down my guard dat easily already. it's not easy to see thru me urh! the person i confide most, is really my collegues. they are really wad i can call , true listener. yupps. right now, i won't really bother with the way you wanna treat me. true or not. it's up to u. it's not my loss and i know, i won't be the one at the losing end. i still have my studies and new friends to meet. if u still wan to circle around your old cliques and old companions, go ahead. i carn stop u . i carn persuade u. i can only advice. i wont confide in u animore already. cus the trust have been broken too mani times. but it's okay. it's really lucky, i did not let down my guard! ^^ and to friends who have been with me for quite along time, people like amanda, naemah, fang, joanne, rambert, joel... etc etc. thanks eh! you guys have made me who i am today. i am happy. cause at least, my family is in good situation. i cant sae there isnt ani pressure but at lest, everything is still under control. and i am glad to sae, i have a bright future, i have mani friends, and i have the best collegues out there. ^^ joanne is blessed already. thanks guys! and i promise, i`ll not frown so much. i`ll smile more! ^^ byeee~ TAGS REPLY : jonathan : hello.... excuse me, i really don't understand u and naemah. both are speaking in alien-ic and foreign languages. where are u guys from?!! o.o kaili : hohos, i like it this wae! heeehhs. holidays i jio u out ar.. ^^ u now study hard! peter: you have jus successfully used it retard! heeeeeehs. smile ar. dun DL ah! byee~ xoxo Sunday, March 2, 2008 @ 9:16 AM
why am i so dumb as to give my 80% trust to you? i should know from the start i shouldnt trust you tat much. and i know, i don't noe much of you. i shouldnt have believed wadever tat have happened before. maybe everything is jus a shadow which will vanishes when night falls. i guess, i`m really too too too dumb to believe to trust and to confide in you so much. sometimes, i really wish, to not know everything around me. at least, it wouldnt hurt as much as it maybe. i know tat some stuffs, arent the wae i see. only untill i made it happen, it happened. i guess, all these have to be blamed on myself. twice, thrice. i lost my trust. and i lost the faith i had in you. i tod everything tat you said to me was true and you won't lie to me. i donno animore. call me petty, call me ignorant. it doesnt matter animore. i jus wish to lead a simple life. tat's it. i dont really care wad will happen next. i won't look forward to anithing. i shall jus pretend. till the day, everything unfolds..... shall post a happier post later. sorry for this . xoxo Saturday, March 1, 2008 @ 8:59 PM
hohos. omg! it's raining cats dogs monkey pigs now! i carn get out to workk ! heeehs. good or bad? but i`m bored la. heehs. my dog hid herself on the chair as she felt cold. and i couldnt seem to find her. suddenly i felt a pair of eyes looking at me.. hohos! so cuteeee~ ok ok. shall not blog for longg.. reply tags later! heeehs. shall go off to bathh and go to workkk! oh yea. pay was received! din earn as much as i usually do as i went overseas and came late a few days. heeehs.. blame it on my laziness! ok. shall get my butt off my sit now. byeee~ xoxo @ 9:27 AM
 hohos. todae, as promised, i shall start off happily, and end off even happier. well well well. i slept till 12 plus todae? awoken by collegues of mine. =.= ! rushed down to work la. if not they nag hoho. work work work. den have surprised for yvonne. she's touched. so funny. and and , there's quite alot of people todae lurhh. aniwae, i wanna go for movie outing, and go playy! but sad, i have to give tuition to someone who keeps pontanking my lessons. HOHOs. u noe who u are.. retarrdedd! heeeeehs. aniwaee, i miss going to school. and oh ya! my shops are sending representatives to go studying for one month. lols. so funny. imagine uncles aunties, boys and girls come running into the classroom. lols. i`m excited for it already. i mean.. i have been studying in an environment which consist of people my age. den now this? quite a new experience leh! funny la.. lols. heeeeeeehs. i updated my friendster already toooo! heeeehs.. ok la.. i`m still concerned about the terrorist. wad if i run out and he decides to catch me? wad if he reads my blog?* glurp. * heeehs. ok. i`m being stupid. i`m happy. [ u mus be happy tat i`m happy right? HEEEHS u noe who i am talking about. hohos. ] ok la.. i shall reply tags now ; TAGS REPLY : xintze : hello hello! tagg more urh. shall meet up soon alright? heeehs. amanda : heeehs. rob me go sell worth alot lehh.. LOL. benjamin : TAG MORE LA. lols! heeehhs. meet up soon urh! naemah : omgg! i dont understand wad u are sayingg! ur language is so foreign to me! wad's wrong with uuuuu? kaili : hello girl! i miss u loadds tooo! jannah : hello hello! i miss u alot girl! i miss 4e2! meet u soon okkay? ok. continue tagging people ! takkaire! heeehs. bye~ i shall not be bother with your response and whether u wanna bother about me, i shant care animore. it's like wad naemah said, not worth the wait.. yup. xoxo |
profile I`m simply a girl with the name of Joanne Tan. I am a child of God, and I simply love God with the bottom of my heart. I`m turning 18 soon in oct-7-2009. I realise alot more when I come to recognise his voice. The voice of truth, courage and love. My life took a turn on the 17th of May 2008.with the addition of joy through my loving CG & unit. That's when i realise that there's so much more to life, than the life that I've found mine, what about you? Goals- - Grow myself to a CL. - See people's life transformation. - To lift Jesus's name on High. speak out! - way back - November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 Precious ones- amanda cassandra Daamanda Edwyna geckting Hui Fang jenny Marinne mei yi Naemah pei qi shirley Wei ru Wen Hui credits skin by: Jane |