 Wednesday, July 30, 2008 @ 9:44 AM
This may be lengthy, but do read it's how i feel & what i wanna do. and what i wanna express. ^^ shall update blog since i got so mani people reading my blog who dont tag. =.=! aniwae, life have it's up and down. but no matter what, i will still give my blessing to father god. i thank him for the problems added in my life to allow me to grow, to allow me to learn from it. and i thank him for being the one always there for me. i thank him for walking beside me , listening to my whines and sorrows. i thank god for bringing me back to him. and i thank god for everything he placed for me. i thank him that i can live today, and i thank him that i have a purpose found in him.. ^^ whenever we want to do more and serve god more, many things just sets into my life, preventing me from doing it. satan is a bad guy! but nvm de hor satan, i tell u i got god! heeehs. yupp. for him, sacrificing anything is worth it. for it's the eternal thing that i am pursuing. not the temporal worldly things. give thanks to jesus christ for dying on the cross for us to reach heaven! thank god for his mercy towards us! to do things for god, is there a limit for myself? to do things for god, is it for the sake of doing? i guess correct mindset and right attitude is the key to these. often or not, i am too complacent and always hope for god to bless me with this and that. i never tod of how i can do more things for god, how to ask god to guide me to do more for him. i guess, i have to be faithful in doing these lil things for him.. god wont want to see me waiting for him to give blessing. but to see us doing things for him, it pleases him. father lord, i really want to do more for u instead of u adding lil blessings in my life more. i want to earn these blessings and i really want to do more and more for me.. this will not be just a moment of thing. but lord, i promise, to keep this promise till the end. i will do whatever i can for u. this promises is made, and my CG member sees it. they hear me.. and i promise oh lord. i promise... i wont be complacent, i wont want to sit back and see u do things miraculously.. i have to work and serve u faithfully! god, repent for the past complacent, and i really want to devote all i have to u. sacrifices for u are worthy, for i`m pursuing u till the end of the race, when i can see u face to face. these setbacks and problems will not stop me from running towards me.. for u will refresh me and hold me strong till the end. i trust in u oh lord. i trust in u, no doubt, u will be with me side by side! doing things for u aint easy, but with u being with us, everything will be easier than it seem. for u are a mighty god blessing our lives constantly. i shouldnt doubt, i wont doubt for i know how u blessed me lord. i thank you for little blessings. even blessings like having food to eat for the day, and things to be stable, i really wannt to thank god. sisters, let's jiayou and work faithfully towards the eternal that god promised us.. for in heaven is the place where we truely experience happiness. only through him , we gain the salvation. time is enough for us, till jesus comes back. are we ready to face him? are we prepared to face him? are we prepared to see his works? let's not wait and wait and wait.. cus by the time we finish waiting many lost souls have past by.. by the time jesus might come already.. how are we gonna salvage the situation we lost? so let's really use the time wisely now, and to really pioritize god at the top piority.. ^^ refresh ourselve spiritually from the WOG, refresh ourselves through the close prayers we have with him.. let him guide us through this road which will be a hard battle. let's take up the sword and fight this war till the end.. and let's be salt and light to the world! nothing is too hard for our mighty god.. something that might seem so so so tedious and tough for us, we might even break down.. but remember, god is beside u.. let him help u solve things.. if u put the 100% faith and trust in him ! all these i have said, will be put into practical actions . NATO isnt something that i want. i really will acheive it... for god's kingdom, let's work! by mid august, to rise up as a praise guitarist. by end august, to be a shepherd of 2. by mid august, reach my two challenges. [ frm PQ & shepherd] you know, i am really happy to know i have god. no matter how a day might be, i always recharge myself, telling myself, god is with me. and it just bring a smile across my face. god understands everything. he sees it. so believe! ^^ CT teaching and CG teaching really taught me all these. and all the above are all things i felt, and should do... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hmmms.. well, projects are coming to an end soon.. things happen for a reason.. and i know god have a plan installed for me. so i wont let it affect me. hahhs. MCG @ KTV , it was a blast. but it wasnt an MCG eh. must really work and work sisters! i will too. i will and i must. JY! hahhhs. we had ktv session and we ate boon tong kee after that. ahaha! my favourite place lurhh! HAHHHS. it's nice, cheap, restaurant, great! hahhhs.
zhi wei : yupp yupp. will. and i will note what u tell me. hahhs. it's essential for my growth! i will learn de. hahhs. u`ll hear less of me i hope. LOL. yea. let's really place all things behind, to serve his kingdom first! geck : yupp yupp! ur encouragement card is really strengthening eh. always there for me ar! lols. i will be here for u also. if u need someone to lighten up ur life. HAHs.. God is our strength! DAamanda : hahhs. yea! sheepmate sheepmate! be sure it is open eh? whenever i want to shout must be open eh? hahhhhs! yup. god will make a way for us. not just me, for all of us ! he is our back up, our strength, our father. ^^ jenny : hahhs, shepherd! no probb. pherdy pherdy! if there's nothing i also will tell u i`m happy. hahhhs. shepherd JY too! sheepie will guaii one. sheepmates will also de! hahhhhhs. so funny. jia : yo sheepmate, yupp. god is with us. grow grow grow! =) liting : yup yup. thanks for encouragement. ^^ jiayou too ! miss me ar! ^^ i noe u are. christen : lol. u my regular blog reader ar.. lols. yeaaa! jenny got use hiek hiek meh? lols. yea! she's not scary! infact, she's fun to be with ! ^^ passer-by : thankyou.. god bless. ^^ kenneth tay EVPS : hahhhs. dun need put EVPS i noe who are u . LOL. didnt know u will read eh! anotther silent reader. but not bad, this time got tag. YO ! lols. Alexia : i teach u la! hahhhs. or u play water by poolside!lols. heehs. ok la, teach u la pigg. Tiffany : hahhhhhhs. no prob! let's go play and have fun ! ^^ thanks for the encouragement bizart-zers. ^^ love all of u narhhs! hahhhs! GTR . lols. go sleep already lurhh. nights ppl. miss me. nites. xoxo Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @ 10:07 PM
sorry for the lak of updates. hmmms.. life have been great! seriously great. with regards to the previous post, i know they have read it. and i really hope that the relationship with them will improve.. which i dunno whether it will or not.. well.. if you guys are reading this.. i really hope to improve.. so please take into consideration about how i will feel .. and why i have so many commitments.. please understand. and also, i am not the kind of elite student. yes, some things i do might not be well done or worse, it is not at all of use. but i do hope that you guys will help me and allow me to learn through it.. thanks.. i really thank all of you for doing so much and making time out for project... thanks.. well, updates on my life.. last saturday's sermon is awesome! it's just the words that i need and the help that i seek from god! thank god! i was indeed refreshed and was indeed verii verii happy about it! i will change to be someone who really cast all problems unto him.. for he have paved my way so nicely for me.. i just have to look at him and run towards him.. not to stand by the side to look at what's around not focusing on him! amen! god bless man! sunday went for membership class.. hahhs. it was really fufiling! membership! wooots. i was being verii noisy lurhh.. hahhhs. a few of us attended.. hahhs. met more people! and pastor jeff was real funny la! heeehs. i was really happy .. and i was really refreshed, recharged, ready to go! monday had CT meet. hahhs. tuesday was amazingg! i met jenny for shepherding . we went swimming! i really had a heart to heart talk to her! she's not scary actually. AHAHAH. but it was really fun and relaxingg.. i did relaxed and forgot my projects, studies for that moment. was really happy lurhh.. and i enjoyed the few hours.. it's so different and so open.. i do can talk to jenny well eh! hahhhs. i will take up the challenge and grow stronger! ^^ wednesday nothnig much leh. yesterday lurhh.. hahhhs.. today, now haaving lab lessons again. hiekhiek! hahhhs. nvm.. aniwae, i`m too lazii to recall. too lazi to blog already. just want to blog to let you guys know i`m alive! shal reply tags now.. in tagboard or in blog.. i will reply in tagboard denn.. AHHA! bye. xoxo Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 9:15 PM
i miss the CG. i need god. god o god.. sorry. i feel like cryingg .. i am cryingg. i`m hurt.. god heal me.. how can i deserve you god. i`m so sorry. xoxo @ 8:12 PM
sorry for lack of updates. been real busy. going school from 9-9 kind. reaching home at almost 10 plus , 11. been really tired out with the things piling on me. and the feeligns i feel, how i wish i could express. i dunno whether this will be read by them or not, i really wanna sae it out. Projectmates : i dunno how u guys feel towards me, but i really really hope to really get into all of your conversation sometimes. i do feel left out and not with the group. and ii realise, i always cannot seem to participate with you guys.. i really hope to know what's the problem. is it because i am always busy, or i cannot give good ideas? i aplogise for the timing i have, but i really have other commitments i have to attend to. not that project araent important, not that i dont wish to do. no matter how i wish to do, i just cant seem to allow you guys to feel i am good for something.. i really wish to do my best, but i am also afraid of doing it wrong. somehow i wish that you all will be able to really understand me moer. as i really really wish to know you guys more... i know my language is poor, my ideas are not as well, but i really hope to contribute more.. i really wish to learn and interact with you guys.. i dunno how to express myself to you all. but i wanna sae, sorry tat i cannot spend more time, i`ve tried my best. and sorry that i may seem cold or quiet or wad... life is hectic and busy that i dwell in this busy life, forgeting the presence of my almighty god.. god o god, i`m sorry that i have been dwelling onto all these and not clinging onto u when the problems sets in. god, i wanna hand all these to you god. to really cling onto ur presence, to let you pave my path o lord... god, i really thank you for placing the cg by my side lord. to spur me on, to set me in the path of yours god. i thank you for their presence and i thank you for ur never ending love. although now i am busy and troubled over lots of stuffs, but god, i know you are here, just beside me. where i can seek your comfort your love, your care and concern for me. i thank you lord.. thankyou father... yesterday was the last CG for bizart 3. after this, it will be Bizart 3a,3b,3c,3d !! so sisters, let's not be sad over the restructure, but be happy for it, as it will allow more growth in us in quantity, and in quality ! those without sheep, take yuor chance to grow and find a sheep soon! god will give eventually at the right time, but u also msut do your part to evax, to sow. we have the contacts , not for the sake of it, but for the salvation that god is giving us...let's really work and serve the kingdom of god. let's grow together alrighht?! after this hectic week, i`ll post. gtg now. ^^ loves. xoxo Wednesday, July 9, 2008 @ 8:36 PM
been such a long time since i last blogg. alot happened. and i am glad i will still stand strong with god. i will walk this path he pave for me. and i will do all i can for god. even if i`m not feeling well, i will do my utmost best to serve him. for he is the greatest healer around. where i draw this strength to serve him u may ask. i can tell u, it's because he first love us. i am loving god and this is the strength that i have.. amen! shall post some pictures up of my presentation day & other random photos.               siick today. not going school today & tml. but will go for project and mcg. gonna visit a doctor soon. after this post.. i dunno why i am posting. but just to update u guys tat i am not dead yet, neither am i mia-ingg. just thati`ve been too busy with project, cg, family, friends. etc. i`m leading a verii happy life.... and purposeful life! aniwae, was reminded of some stuff few days ago. i remember during sec 2, i was given a chance to go to " hai die" to sing. but den due to the schedule last time, i didnt went for it. i love singing btw. and recently, was asked to go train singing at lee wei song school of music? but i rejected that offer. simply becus, i would like to use my voice to worship god. last time, fame and royalty is all i want, but now, all i want is a fufiled, purposeful and meaningful life built with god. yes.
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profile I`m simply a girl with the name of Joanne Tan. I am a child of God, and I simply love God with the bottom of my heart. I`m turning 18 soon in oct-7-2009. I realise alot more when I come to recognise his voice. The voice of truth, courage and love. My life took a turn on the 17th of May 2008.with the addition of joy through my loving CG & unit. That's when i realise that there's so much more to life, than the life that I've found mine, what about you? Goals- - Grow myself to a CL. - See people's life transformation. - To lift Jesus's name on High. speak out! - way back - November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 Precious ones- amanda cassandra Daamanda Edwyna geckting Hui Fang jenny Marinne mei yi Naemah pei qi shirley Wei ru Wen Hui credits skin by: Jane |
