 Friday, February 29, 2008 @ 10:02 AM
 photo take ith my collegue SUKI. wow. she showed me her photos when she was younger. massive changes man.hoho.aniwae, i got loads of stuff to sae one leh. i forget already. *pondering* * still pondering* * still still pondering* haiya, the more i type this. the more i wish to play the more i arent pondering ! heehs. i`m not good at self reflecting. hohos. if anione wants to punish me, dont make me self reflect! {1} okkay. suddenly. i felt verii depresss. i came back 2 hour later to continue typing from {1} . alot happened in between. i was reminded of him once again. sometimes. l really really wanna noe.. wad did i do wrong to deserve those.. wad did i do wrongg.. i may not be a good girlfriend but i noe.. i realy did my best. i dont really care wad others will think after i type this already. but i really.. wanna sae out how i feel deely. it really is stuffy to keep it to myself. i dont want to think of him. i dont wish to think of him. but i`m still constantly reminded of him. his images still do drift past my mind.. i mean.. i dont have the love towards him.. but i am constantly reminded of our quarrells.. reminded of wadever i did for him. i protected him. getting myself hurt. he hurt me physically. i din retaliate. nva did i once hurt him physically. i run away from him whenever we quarrel. cus.. it really haunt me.. not tat i wish to think back. but it really... is affecting one wae or another.. i have no wish to enter another relationship . i am afraid of being hurt. being rejected like wad he does. afraid of loving. afraid of giving. afraid of being loved.... aniwae, pls do not do not change your concept of wad u think of him after reading this. if not.. i reall dunno how to continue this blog. i jus want to voice out. tat's all.. whenever i cry.. he doesnt really care.. i am really upset..wit the wae he treats me.. specifically, there's alot. but i dont think i have he energy to type , looking at the time now. 4am. i really really... jus.. wish to love him and jus hope that.. he will give me the slightest care.. he told me.. he wont.. cus he donno how to.he asked me to give him time. i gave him... 2 years... nothing changed.. i jus hope..to be loved and cared a lil. tat's the least i want.. is it really demanding? is it? i really feel verii lil of myself.. no matter wad i do for him.. it'sjus disturbance and irritation to him.. i noe i shouldnt sae all these.. but this is wads tat bothering me.. sorry if anione of u. dun wish to read this.. sorry... i hope... to really get up..and move on.. i have alreay moved on. but still have a lil memories and affection somehow or rather.. and naemah, thankyou. i will move on. and i will not ponder. thanks for listening. thanks for your advices.. i know mani of u will tell me the same thing.. thanks.. i noe i still have friends to count on. i will pick myself up. and will work hard. towards my goal. and like wad naemah said, i shall await for a better one. and not to dwell of the past. i will stay strong. but jus bear with me for the above paragraph jus for todae alright? thanks. shall reply tags tml. continue tagging guys. shall remember wad i wanna blog tml and blog it out. thanks . and bye everyone. good night. P.S : if by calling me everynight tires u out.. do really try to cut down.. cus heard fom your sis u are really tired todae.. is it cus of me? sorry. even when u are tired u still made the effort to call. i appreciate it. but pls. do get ample rest. u still do have ur school and work. dont wish to see u tiring urself becus of me. do takkaire.. smile and do not fred over your math. i`ll try to help u. and no matter wad happen, do remember wad i sae. smile and overcome it slowly. u can do it. i believe you, _____ . so cheer up. byee. sorry to start off happily and end off sadly. sorry.shall post a happier post tml. i promise. nights. xoxo Thursday, February 28, 2008 @ 8:00 AM
hello hello! morning ! i`m using my laptop and my desktop at one go. hohos. no la. doing some file transfer and setting up some stuff in my laptop whilst blogging. mulitask-er eh! hoho. oh ya! i`m back from my trip already. i bought tonnes of stuffs back. from dresses to tops i bought more den 10 pieces okay. jus for myself only. heehs. and for my collegues and people working around i bought for them loads too. hoho. i began packing my cardboard this morning only to realise i don't have ample place to store my stufff! awww~ heehs. thus, i started sorting out . - discarding- placing- choosing- discarding- donating- ..... tatata... and now, i still need an extra cardboard. waste my effort! =.=! aniwae, todae during work , i felt that i have really cut myself off my friends and activities. thanks to my work. hoho. i think now i shall jus continue pia-ing and getting paid every month and spend dem during my poly days instea. will still be working and helping out whenever i`m bored and free during poly days. that's the good thing about working in my parent's shop. don't get envious! hohos. ohoh. i`ve gotten over it i guess. partially. mostly. and i will continue getting over it. hope the feeling doesnt come crawling back to me. =/ hoho. ohoh, i`ll be going for a movie marathon soon. gonna catch :" the leap years" " L change the world" "10,000 BC" and the water horse : leagend of the deep" hope to catch all these by next week. hoho. anione wanna watch ani of these tell me okay! heehs. the leap years got companion le. hoho. i`m a happy lil girl. satisfied with wad i own and i have. alright. shall set off to watch my drama " ju moong episode 77-80 " le. hohos. bye bye. shall reply tags now. TAGS REPLY : jonathan : wah lauuuuu~ come my blog say you rock. advertising urh? 10 bucks please. adverts not free here hor. =.= ! marinne : thanks girl . yea. two jo's again. hoho. bet the teachers will have a hard time! heeehs. hope to see you soon girl! joanne : hello! wad are you doing here?! new classmate! heeehs. wad u wanna sae to me??? come here visit me urh? heeehs. naemah : okie dokie mah mah~ ya la bankok stuff real cheap. i bought tonnes of stuffs okay. heeeeehs. did you miss me?! i bet u did. heeehs. michelle : okkay dear. i shall link you up soon. takkaire misses and love from me too! ^^ amanda : wad u want ! lols. want rob me ar? rob la. i nothing to rob also. heeehs. my body you want?! LOLS. hui fang : ya lar. stupid indian crap. lauuu. not i want to be racist lo. so wad if she have the money sia. bully nia. if she's at singapore , at my shop. i won't sell it to her. hoho. zhi ning : it's okay girl. take your time. i`m quite free . heehs. aniwae, i miss you tooo! been ages since you drop by my prison like work place to visit me ar. so bad lurh. heeehs. takakire! okkie byeee~ shall off this com now. xoxo Tuesday, February 26, 2008 @ 5:18 AM
hello hello! back to posting heehs. aniwae, todae went shopping again. and hence, i bought more and more stuffs. ended up buying cute lil slippers for my collegues instead of getting one for myself only. heehs. i`m good okay. ^^ tml will be back in singapore already. i detest the connection here lurh. urgh. aniwae, i have finish catching ju moong til episode 64 only. -.-. still got quite alot to go! aniwae, i wanna go back school sooon. life is boring working. heeehs. alright. shall be off to pack bag. tml shall wake up early go have my sky buffet breakfast den head to the malls. do some last minute shopping and den check out. board the plan. and i`ll be back already~ dun miss me ar. i noe mani ppl did. esp. amanda. hoho. dun miss me. oh ya, and naemah will miss me too. so sweet of her the other time. i still remember how touched i was. how grateful i was. heehs! RIGHT NAEMAH?! hoho. ok. bye bye ar. xoxo Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 10:23 AM
 hello hello ! sorry only can post todae. well yesterday i reached bankok at around 11 am? wow. i woke up at 6 slept at 3.30am dat night before i went off. so tired urh! aniwae, i am happy. why? cus i bought mani dresses, tops in jus one day. can u imagine?! and todae, went over to another mall, bought more tops and accessories. it is so much cheaper den in singapore. no wonderrrr ~ heeehs. aniwae, i also bought stuffs for my collegues and bugis friends. hohos. anione missed me?bet there aint ani one. seriously, i wanted to upload a few foto of the condition here in bankok. it's really a very very poor place. in singapore, do you see our cables to communication lines hanging around everywhere? infact, we don't see them much. over here, i can see it all over the street. and oh gawd, the children here, some infact have to beg and have to earn, even some walked barefooted. they don't live in houses like ours, they live in containers and hang their clothes not on bamboo sticks but just on a single piece of string. we are definitely living in bliss. something pissed me off todae, a f. indian lady, kept bullying a sales girl. slashing the price from e.g. 50 bucks to 7 bucks. i mean. that person already gave it to her at 35-30 bucks already. she still wanted so much lesser. i couldnt tolerate it. the sales girl kept apologising. saying sorry, cannot. but that indian lady kept saying, i know your boss. give me good price. boss alwas give me good price. i buy so many! so much. so expensive. wtf la. i mean. so wad if u have the money. i detest it when people use money to put someone down. so wad if that person is poor? at least she have the least respect and manners. oh ya, when she finished purchasing it she said " you are not in the least good. i won't buy from you anymore. i know your boss. " f. sia. i immediately looked over. kns. grrrgh. enuf. shall sae some happy stuff. there are loads of stuffs for me to buy here! and the hotel is bigg tooo! heeehs. aniwae aniwae, i`ll be back soon people. so don't miss me too much alright. hohos. shall hop off to bed now. my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier by each letters i type. bye! i carn seem to view tags now. thus , unable to reply. sorry. will do so when i reach my sweet cosy lil home! ^^ BYE! xoxo Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 9:14 AM
hello hello! wad a great day started ahead. heehs. yesterday ... hmms.. had steamboat at home! headed down to the market in the early morning despite sleeping at around 3.30am. well well well, woke up went to the market. bought stuff for steamboat. heeehs. i realised, even just to go to the market with my mum. i actually felt happy about it. cause, a simple life. is indeed, fufilling. den headed to bookshop bought books for my sister and also, bought another story book " P.S I LOVE YOU " at around 17 bucks. gosh. i`m mad and obsessed with buying story books . blame it on my boring routined life! heeehs. had steamboat, ate and BBQ-ed. den headed down to bugis! hohos. end work, home and den slept lo. todae, i woke up at around 12 plus? heehs. bath and headed down to bugis cause my mum told me my aunt gonna bring me out to funan IT mall. yea. and i bought a laptop after shopping and evaluating the cost. i bought a laptop costing around 1.4k. quite good specs. light and it's really good looking ! ^^ recommand this latop. ok. tml i going overseas le ! so sudden. ^^ ok la. shall go off to bed le. ^^ nites. shall reply tags tml. xoxo Tuesday, February 19, 2008 @ 8:42 PM
claricia,i linked you already. mei xian, i relinked you already. and gretchen, please leave your new url here okay? thankyou! xoxo @ 7:13 PM
good morning everyone! i shall do a good deed by posting my entry as a story for you guys to read. hoho. bet you guys missed me eh! naemah, dun deny this fact! heeeeehs. anyway, i started to do math book yesterday. you can see and feel how bored i am. oh oh. i went to bugis yesterday at night. came home at around 11? yup. i`m going overseas again soooon! something cropped up yesterday night. i asked him about his posting . he did not wanna reply me. so i wished him good luck instead. he replied me " no matter wad, you will still wear skimpy and go to work ." den he smsed me. asking me about love and stuffs. i mean. since i have gotten over it, pls do not remind me of stuffs again. he kept saying and saying. and tried to tell me some stuffs. but i told him. no, i really don't wish to continue. i mean. i`m really tired of some stuff. and i wish to get on with my life. quite upset over it last night. to think he still blames me for some stuff . argh. nvm. i shall be my mummy`s happy lil girl. hoho. that retard din come over to the east for his tuition as he have remedial till 5. -.-! i`m still happy over two joannes being in same courses. hohos. nothing much to update. and i have alot of photos in my phone whereas i`m too lazy to upload them, thus, not much photos are seen. sorry ar. heeehs. ok. i shall go off to find movies to watch. aniwae, jumong epid. 33 - 43 is coming to me todaee~ yay! hoho. bye people! TAGS REPLY : naemah : idiot. don't spoil my name here! heeehs. cow! how have u been. i`m so touched u noe. that u came down specially to find me the other day. tears, overwhelmed me. HEEHS. i where got mean! lols. come TP! i wish to see u every day, every night. every second. every min. hoho. meixian : okay girl. ^^ amanda: wad twerp twerp. idiot. twerp for u to call ar. and ya. not dream course ar? second choice. verii good already yoos noe?!! zhining : okkie dokie! u still owe me a outing eh! hoho. okkay! bye bye le ar. xoxo Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 8:04 PM
*JPSAE* Dear JOANNE TAN HUI FEN Congratulations! You have been accepted into Hospitality & Tourism Management * at Temasek Polytechnic. The enrolment details will be sent to you by the respective polytechnic. JPSAE Administrator *JAE * Name :TAN HUI FEN JOANNE 1.The results of your application are as follows: Posted Institution:TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC Course Name:HOSPITALITY & TOURISM MANAGEMENT Course Code:T08 2.If you are posted to a JC/MI, please report to the JC/MI on 20 Feb 2008 at 7.30 a.m.. If you are posted to a Polytechnic/ITE, an enrolment package with the relevant enrolment details will be sent to you. 3.If you wish to apply for a transfer to a particular course, you should approach the institution concerned directly. The institution concerned will inform you of the outcome of your application. ok .so as follows, i got into hospitality for both choices. =.=! tod i might get some other choices or wad! i`m happy dat i got in okay! heeehs. joanne tham also in this i guess. cassandra also! yayness. hohos. shall go out later to give tution to someone cabbing down to the west later. =.= ! well, i am really happy today. first of all, i got into my dream course. and secondly, i received my pay already! hohos. and also, i promise to live my life happily la. heehs. oh ya. i bought a math book yesterday to like sort of do it? cus i`m bored might as well polish up my math! hohos. oh ya i wanted to sae on 15th i went out to " NO SIGNBOARD " restaurant to have a posh dinner! ate alot hohos. alot of money too. but dad sae, it's to reward all workers. heeh. den 16th i went to malaysia. i went to the orphanage&disabled home. in the orphanage, i realise alot of stuff. and in there. i really couldnt believe wad i saw. the kids, elder they dun have the basic of speaking. they only go " ee , orh, orh, ah ah, " most of them , their limbs and hands are all not normal, not staight and some even have to lie in cages and have a small door like how dogs crawl out. some are chained some lie down. when i looked at them. dey waved at us. but they carn tell us wad they wan. i felt so.. fortunate! i have the basic skills for speaking and walking. the person in charge told us. this people, have nothing to look forward to but to wait for kind donors to donate money to provide them with 3 meals and a shelter. i realise, we humans mani have great demands. theirs are so so so basic. we sometimes dun even cherish all this and skip meal, run away from home. gosh! i learnt alot. i kept quiet after my trip dere till i reach my grandma's place. it's so... heartening. yupp. alot of people going TP! thank god i did chose TP! hohos. congrats on those who got their dream course . ppl like SERENE , EDWYNA, CASSANDRA , RAMBERT, EDDY, KWANG & those who are happy lurh! heeehs. OH OH & LI PEI , AMANDA! hohos. ok. i shall be off to watch my jumong, the korean drama. which have 80 episodes in it. omg. now only at 23rd. long wae to go! byeee~ xoxo @ 11:03 AM
sorry for the lack of updates towards my life. jus wanna sae, sorry for that heart wrecking entry of mine. this few days meant more work and more work. tues , valentine day was spent shopping with amanda like craze [ that's wad she said ] actually, we earn to spend.right? yupp. bought lots of stuff. shall not go into the details. and i went to some other places before heading down to bugis. on the 15th which is a sat, i spent my day working and 16th&17th too. boring life right!but at least i get money out of this and i can still bod with my family and collegues instead of rotting at home or spending my money unwisely. heeehs. 18th, which is todae, i headed down to popular and grabbed books totalling up to 80 bucks. hhohos. i bought alot of books okay. not really alot. but enough for me to read during my boring days whilst working! i bought the book the golden compass 3 in 1 which contains a thousand and sixteen pages. gosh! bought the book a child called it and the lost boy. whereas both books latter have been read during sec 1 days! still, i bought it , finishing the second book within today! oh boy ! meaning i have to head to popular to get more books. shall decide after reading my thousand pages long book. heeehs. sometimes when i look back at the past convo and stuff we said ,whilst reminiscing the days we had , i wondered why have things taken such a drastic change and turned so much till i could barely recognise wad love was. for now, i hope, to concentrate on my studies and to get my family even more bonded! of cus, to spend my time with my friends as well! alright alright, i`m tired already . shall not entertain u guys any longer. catch your beauty sleep guys! oh ya JAE and JPSAE results coming out tml. i guess, it wun really matter cus my choices are considered throughly and deeply. so i should be mentally prepared. heeehs. shall go catch my beauty sleep already. hohos. aniwae, good luck to alwin taking his CT1 from tml onwards. remember wad u promise me ar! if not i`ll knock your headdd! heeehs. nites ! shall reply tags tml. perhaps. =\ xoxo Thursday, February 14, 2008 @ 9:05 AM
suddenly, i got so much to tell to someone. suddenly i feel the secret in me piling up. suddenly i feel like dying off from this world. suddenly, i feel like leaving everything behind. suddenly, i feel so breathless. suddenly, i felt like crying out. suddenly, i felt like sleeping not waking up towards any tommorrow. so sudden. what happen to my future. why carn i think about it. why arent i as happy as i used to . wad's wrong? i don't know. i have the best already. wad more do i want. wad's wrong? wad did i sense? why am i upset? where is my future. why isit that, there is no tommorrow for me to look forward to? what is. my goals. what am i living for? why carn i jus straighten out my mind why carn i jus think properly. why. why. why. sometimes i feel so lil of myself being only able to do all these lil stuff. in my mind i do ponder alot alot. i dunno who to trust. i dunno who to talk to. i dunno who to confide to. everyone seem to be busy. i dunno wad to start believing in. i dunno wad behold my future. i still do worry about him. i've let go.it hurts to think back so why do so joanne? it's time to look forward. i noe i shouldnt sound so idiotic here making a fuse out of nothing. suddenly, everything within me, jus broke down. i feel so tense up. i felt so breathless. i feel so lonely suddenly. even if there is zillion of people PM-ing me online or sending me smses, i still feel lonely. inner. i feel empty. what should i look forward for. i got so mani secrets to reveal. i got so mani stuff in my heart that's so hard to get out. i dunno whom to seek. i dunno anithing. everything jus seem so wrong. i dunno how to list it out. i am jus confused in a mess, lost! f*** . i dunno wad i feel unstable of. i dunno why i am feeling this wae. i seriously dunno! argh. i feel so. stupid. f*** . xoxo Wednesday, February 13, 2008 @ 7:45 AM
hello people! heehs. it's been a great day todae . except some issue tat made me tod alot. well i think.. everything might have been fine if it werent for my appearance. i`m sorry. i shouldnt have .. hais. forget it. maybe, it's my fault from the start and not partially. i noe yoos wun and dun blame me. aniwae, everything is stil fine. collegue came back. with her new hairstyle. tml another collegue. heeehs. tml i`m taking off. shall go visit the pet shop tml! heeehs. okkay. bye people. shall update more tml. ^^ byee! tags will be replied tml, due to the tiredness i am sufferrin. and also, naemah for tagging rubbish. heeehs. xoxo Tuesday, February 12, 2008 @ 9:48 AM
     sitting infront of my com now with my lovely cup of milo drowning myself to sleep :))))) okay, shall upload some photos . felt that with my new hairdo , i rarely take photos already. i dunno why. maybe i guess, i`m too busy! yup. really am. been working since nov. 13 non stop okay. income growing, body slimming, food intake lessening, tiredness increasing rapidly. finally i will be getting my day off on the 14th which is the lovely valentine's day. heeeehs. shall go out on dat day. hohos. anyway, jus recent update, i caught kung fu dunk on chu yi. it's brilliant lurh! gonna catch AH LONG PTE LTD sooon. haahs. tml will not be so stress animore, i wun be working alone ! hehees. aniwae, claricia and li pei's sudden appearance at my shop two days back was horrendous. they came popping by in the morning while i was having my lovely breakfast to coax my stomach. to think dat they came over, i couldnt enter any food after that! =.= ! but, thank god they came. really helped alot! i mmean. if they dun come, i`ll be alone in the shop. i carn go to the toilet, carn buy food, carn go aniwhere. jus cooped in the tiny lil shop. boring eh. without my collegues, it's so bored! suddenly i realise that i`ve grown to the state such that i don't really matter who's upset with me or who dislike me or not. i mean... i understand why people say " everyone dictates their own life " kinda true. lent alwin my " i believe you " & " journey " storybook and lent li pei " you are here " . hope they enjoy reading. i`m left with the book of "photogenic life". shall pop by popular some day to get more books to read. todae was kinda random. not much stuff did except taking some funny and stupid pictures in my shop. heeehs. shall go off to catch my beauty sleep before mrs panda come looking for me! do takkaiire everyone! hohos. and to edwyna and kaili , cheeeer up! heeehs. ok shall reply tags now lovelies ! TAGS REPLY : naemah : yao shuai yao ti tie you yao guan huai, zhe zhong nan ren yi bu cun zaii ~~ hohos. really? awww.. so touched man. dun sing here. later everybody come tag commenting on your singing. hohos. kaili : girl, takkaire ar! same problem faced, but still , mus be brave! heeehs. thankyou thankyou ^^yoos can cop if u wan. gretchen : okay girl. shall do it ASAP alright? claricia : ok retard! i willl link u up ASAP okay? takkaire! byeee! xoxo Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ 7:23 AM
hello! morning! hehhs. not quite happy not quite sad but tired! working straight everyday sice november 13 when poa MCQ paper ended. so really tired. i did not took days off except going overseas and when i fell sick. hehhs. *pause watch the news* *back* ah meng passed away. well , i saw how the caretaker of hers felt. damn terrible. i seen ah meng when i was young and till i was old i did went to see her i think 2-3 years back. i mean.. she did brought us joy and laughter and definitely we alwas carry the name "ah meng " to describe some human being. i do regret saying that sometimes. sorry. well .. do trat animals well people. they do have a life. whenever i visit the SPCA website {FYI, i visit the web often to check on the pets and to check on the volunteer work } i encourage you people to really treat animals well alright? hmmms, nothing much to update leh. jus wanna sae that sometimes, whenever i look into the past i am alwas wondering some stuffs . thinking and thinking. but i guess, it is really good for me to move on and no to linger in the lost feeling. i have picked myself up. and i hope u will do so too.. (if u happen to read this ) i will move on with life. and i`ll lead my life better. maybe jus maybe a few months later i will announce some stuff and publicize it. no one noes about it btw. so dun guess. wait for me to reveal alright? takkaire people. shall reply tag tml . nites. xoxo Friday, February 8, 2008 @ 11:11 AM
hello good morning everyone. todae is the third day of new year already. so far, alot of ang bao collecting and working. i still work despite new year. yea. quite tough and tiring. still have to. it's okay. aniwae, shall be spending my days planning the days after new year where to go. hehhs. ppl jio me out lurh! hohos. i gtg already. i shall go do my stuff and prepare to sleep. hopefully i`ll sleep at 4am. =X xoxo Wednesday, February 6, 2008 @ 6:27 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! hahhs. aniwae, sorry for not blogging yesterday. was verii verii tired by the time i reach home at 2am. shop closed at only 12.30am. aniwae, i went shopping yesterday i bought another top costing 20plus from alano. nice lurh. verii retro. i am going to wear it with a stocking and a belt. hehhs. and tml i shall wear a new dress i steal from my shop. a pink one! sweet. shall wear leggings with it. i bought a choker necklace too. nice lurh. hehhs. and and, i bought something real expensive. shant sae it. cus it still bothers me .the money does hurt lo. =.=! todae, went work, saw mani familiar people! bugis is a place where i look out for familiar faces. hoho. amanda came with mei yi, bought a skinnies from my shop. worked till 7 plus till we send another collegue to golden mile complex as she's leaving for malaysia. another went back yesterday . tml another collegue. i`m left alone to tend the shop! gahhhhhs! it's okay. they have imparted their skills to me. tml gonna open shop early and close it early and go home to take ang bao. aniwae, tml will be more of packing goods. gahs. it's okay. ^^ at least i dun rot at home. shall go do my nails now. byee! TAGS REPLY : naemah : hello! i dun wish to remove it. i feel proud of it. aint it good? i bet u mus be smiling from one end to another upon reading this! hehhhs. zhi ning : it's okay girl! book a day, we`ll meet up. ^^ xoxo Monday, February 4, 2008 @ 10:22 AM
todae hmms hmms. woke up and went shopping! omg. so fun lurhh. i bought alot of stuffs hehhs. aniwae, we went east point, tampines mall, century square and seiyu to shop. hehhs. that's quite an advantage of having a car! headed down to work after that. u noe sometimes i have a hard time figurin out what some customers are trying to sae she was a china woman speaking like this : C.W : ni hao, qing wen ni de ku zi you "eller " de sizey ma? me : "eller" ? [ although i got wad she saying ] C.W : dui ! wo yao eller sizey de zhe ger ku zi ~ me : ni shi kan XL de sizey hao ma? C.W : she me? wei she me yao "si eller" de sizey ar? wo mei na me fei ar! the wae they talk really make me wanna laugh. not tat i`m being racist or wadever, but it's jus something i feel funny about. no offense! and that alwin scared me twice today. once when he reach bugis and scare the hell out of me by "sayang-ing" me on my head. and next by appearing out of no where beside me when i was buying my drinks. =.= i old already got heart attack one leh. dun scare me so much. later i die sia. amanda! sorry eh! todae my parents wanted me to go shopping with them. sorry sorry! oh ya, something important to post up TAKE NOTE EVERYONE THIS IS IMPORTANT : whenever u get to go for stay over or chalet, DO NOT think that when someone is sleeping , drawing on their faces when they are asleep is fun. THIS IS PUBLISHED IN THE NEWS PAPER ; such that there is this group of guys who went for a camp and they tod it was fun to draw on one of their friends face while he is asleep, they started to colour it black while laughing at it. the guy couldnt wake up till the next morning. one of the teachers came over to wake him up, to the teacher's horror , the guy's face was drawn such that it was so unrecognisable. the teacher noes that the soul of one body is not able to return to the body as they could not identify their body. it was real lucky that the teacher manage to save the boy by washing away the print. the boy woke up and stated : " i saw myself , my face was black. i tried to clean it off with my shirt but i carn seem to clean it. i couldnt feel myself. i wanted to enter my body. but i just couldnt enter it ...." this serve as a warning of not playing ani pranks it do causes the life of someone so please, do not play with this! hope this will get the attention of all readers. do advertise this people! IT IS REALLY IMPORTANT. cus i feel that, many people at a moment of folly and fun, they will do this and are not aware of this heavy consequences. so please, help to advertise and warn everyone out there. gtg now! need ta work tml. shall go shopping tml before i go work. tatta! TAGS REPLY : danny : dunno how to read ar! dun spam lurh. lols. aniwae, u tired go sleep ar! alwin : hello, yea i understand this lurh. thanks urh. ^^ u mus not get too pek chek and rem. to smile more! it will definitely help! hehhs. see yoos soon alright. takkaire too. naemah : O.o ! i saw u ar! wad' an electrical rinser? OH YOU FOUND ME? YAY! MIRACLE . ahh, i miss u ar cow. xoxo Sunday, February 3, 2008 @ 9:36 AM
today i found out something. whenever i try to look back to the past, it will jus trigger the unhappiness within me. the much giving and not the process of being loved. i hate feeling this wae. i hate feeling lonely. i hate thinking about u , not being able to give in. u jus pm-ed me telling me that i am irritating by asking u questions. u ask me will i feel the same if u ask me those.. i will not. if i love u , i will not have the slightest unhappiness. i will infact, be happy that u care. i am disappointed. but i noe, i mus stay strong. whenever i look forward to my future towards my courses, towards my life in future, i feel so much better. i felt hope, light and security. i feel loved by my parents. i feel loved by my collegues. i feel loved and doted by my friends ike amanda, alwin , joanne tham etc etc. so mani ppl caring so mani ppl loving me. i should not look back. i should infact, be more open and more willing to accept everything that god has planned for me. dun worry guys, i`ll live and love my life as it is. thankyou for all the concerns alright! loves. xoxo @ 9:17 AM
morning! hehhs! started with my day with my dad screaming and my grandma shouting at me at the top of their voices. argh. such a horrible start of my day. but not bad la. i woke up and bath and went out already. hmms hmms. den den, i reached bugis started to work again. sometimes i got some funny issues tat i want to post up here, but i forgotten already. cus too many stuff to post. so many such that i forgot wad everything was. overall, my day was fun! laughing and playin. although abit sick almost fainted due to the lack of oxygen and lack of energy. okay okay, tml will be out shopping with my mum again. shopping with my mum is alwas fun. we end up going out spending alot of money. so i love shopping with her. ^^ yays! gonna get myself alot of stuffs tml. hehhs. i`m looking forward to thursday! fun fun fun! okok. shall reply tags first! TAGS REPLY : alwin : hello! omg. ur english ar. =.= ! everyday want me lecture right? hehs. aniwae, i will cheer up i will take care. u everyday repeat. not tiring? thanks wor. fang : i realise i aint short le lo. i working at bugis so mani ppl shorter den me. so i shall feel tall. moreover after wearing heels, short ppl look nicer. so fang! we short nvm cute can already! hehs. miss ya! naemah : i tod u live next door? o.o hehhs. aniwae, i looked for u online allready. but u are nowhere to be seen. i shall go look up the police later okay! kaili : thank you sister! KUKUS ROCKS LA. lols. i miss u girl! okok. we shall go out sooon! miss ya! takkaire alright! loves. okay! gtg now. buh bye! xoxo Saturday, February 2, 2008 @ 9:33 AM
okay. shall do some blogging now. ehehehs, today, woke up at 11 thanks to alwin. =.=! it's okay. tat retard. aniwae i woke up, i kept rubbing my eyes! omg. hmmms.. and it became. swollen? but but but! it was all well before i set off for my interview. bath and everything. went out at 12.30pm? reach tp at 12.37pm! fast right. interview started at 1pm! i met alot of new friends okay. lols. okay. the interview was 5 students to 2 lecturers. took turns to answer the questions given by them. first q, describe about urself. of cus i went on blabbering alot since i am so talkative no doubt i will talk like crap lurh. second q was why do i wanna be in the course. THANK GOD VINCENT CAME DOWN TO BUGIS YESTERDAY AND GAVE ME THIS QUESTION AND TESTED ME. so i did my homework i started to blabber again. next question was about bad service wad i felt if was and how it can be curb. i mention my parent's shop and situation. so yea, alot of experience! and last q was like er.. wad i noe about hospitality and tourism. not bad i did my homework too. so i blabbered again. over all, interview was fine. thanks edwyna, it went well! okay, after dat i walked home. so leisurely. ^^ changed and went down to bugis. wah alot of people sia. seriously speaking, i really do enjoy working as i get to see my friends, my collegues who are alwas so funny and we alwas play during work time! so fun lurh. and and, new year is coming this week we shall choing and we get to rest! hehhs. aniwae, i hope to go out with the kukus soon. seriously alot of memories we have shared together la! and also wanna meet up 4e2-07 again. miss dem loads. after new year programme, might be going to korea, meeting up joanne tham, hopefully able to meet up kukus, meet up amanda giving her a treat =.= , and see wad else lo! lols. oh yea, can minus points for poly. so i`ll be using 11 points. i asked the 2 lecturers already. yiippee! oh oh i wish to thank a few people for walking this road down with me so dedications up next ! amanda : hello twerp, if not for u i would not have made up my mind. if not for u i would have been crying all day night. thanks girl. although u do bully and do make fun, but u still did your best to scold me, wake me up and those. thnaks thanks! alwin : i noe u wun read this, shall tell u my blog some other day, thanks for telling me all those stuff and cheering me up all the time. although fri , sat and sun get to see u, quite sway but it's fun lurh. at least, u did tried to make me smile. thanks. i noe sometimes i do scold u or begrudge u for certain issues but thanks for treating me like your younger sister . thanks! kukus: if not for all of u, my secondary school life will be miserable. my life would not be filled with wad i call it as joy and laughter. it might be short but i believe, kukus, will not fall apart. miss ya loads. catch up some day yea? takkaire. dingdongs: although it somehow splited or wad, but i still wanna thank all of u for those wonderful memories of bballing , ktv, cycling , laughing, planning and organising activities. it was really enjoyable during those times. although everything might be strained apart now, but i believe, there is still the existance of friendship. i value all of yoos. and thank yoos all for who i am now. cs : although u left, but i wanna sae, thankyou for teaching me to be independent and taught me how to really appreciate some stuffs. i wish yoos all the best in wadever u do and hope that the next girl that u find will be a more suitable one. i cannot deny the fact that we still have some love in between, but i guess, everything went the wrong way. sorry for not being able to be the girl u want. thankyou for the memories. i will not cling on, rather i will move on happily. thanks. 4e2-07 :i wanna say yoos guys made me who i am. although i am sad at times u guys are alwas constantly dere to cheer me up, the malay guys, joel and gang, the girls esp. thankyou! i noe i may be naggy but i thank all of u for taking care of me and teaching me thru out these two years. thanks guys! and do keep in contact loves! the rest, all of u do matter alot, jus dat i`m too tired to type it all out. i guess i shall log off now as i really need to take a break. nites people! TAGS REPLY : edwyna : thankyou, yoos can adapt the song from my blog too urh. ^^ aniwae interview went well. meet up soon alright! misses. naemah: really? yea i miss the kukus too. aniwae, u noe how to help me den help me lurh! xoxo Friday, February 1, 2008 @ 10:29 AM
pay day is here again! yays! aniwae, tml i`ll be going for the interview. shall wear casually. wish me luck! shall update tml on how the interview went. now i have to go and catch my beauty sleep. do takaire ar! JOANNE! do remember our date to go shopping ar! ppl do jio me out. heehs. and do tag tag tag! tags reply: amanda: hehhs. take out le la. ps la! dun scold me dumb la. i so smart. xoxo |
profile I`m simply a girl with the name of Joanne Tan. I am a child of God, and I simply love God with the bottom of my heart. I`m turning 18 soon in oct-7-2009. I realise alot more when I come to recognise his voice. The voice of truth, courage and love. My life took a turn on the 17th of May 2008.with the addition of joy through my loving CG & unit. That's when i realise that there's so much more to life, than the life that I've found mine, what about you? Goals- - Grow myself to a CL. - See people's life transformation. - To lift Jesus's name on High. speak out! - way back - November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 Precious ones- amanda cassandra Daamanda Edwyna geckting Hui Fang jenny Marinne mei yi Naemah pei qi shirley Wei ru Wen Hui credits skin by: Jane |
