is asking someone wad he is doing, where is he and eaten yet really troublesome and frustrating ? am i really asking too much questions? is this not care and concern? wad if i kept quiet? wad if i dun speak anithing. wad if i remain silence. will he automatically inform me where he is? will he ask me anithing? will he tell me anithing? no. he will not even bother animore. i dunno why the fark am i trying so hard to cling onto this. i am finding it so hard myself. i dun have anione to talk to animore. i work and work. so tired. friends have already slept by the time i reach home. no one to speak to. no one to confide in. i am feeling so vexed now. mixed emotions. i dunno wad to do animore. i tried my best changing. i am trying my best not to ask u questions. but how can i deny the fact that i wanna care for u?

by asking u where are u. i hope to noe u are fine.
by asking wad u are doing. i hope to noe that u are not busy or vex with anithing. least that by calling u i might be disturbing u or wad.
by asking u have u eaten cus i want to make sure u are full and have the energgy to do your stuff.

is all these.. too overboard? not like wad u sae that i have mani friends to talk to. infact, i have not much friends now. some of u might be happy tat i am feeling this wae. but this is life. who can i trust? i seem so much. tat i am left stunned . i began to believe wad my parents sae, do not give everything to anione. sometimes collegues scold me dumb. retarded. idiot. stupid. it all seems true. i seem to be too believing. too forgiving. too giving.. too softhearted.

how i wish to tell u wad i wish for. how i wish to tell u wad i hope i can acheive in life. how i wish u can do those [not mention] for me. how i wish u can understand me. how i wish.. u wun be so cold and fierce to me. all these while, i noe u are easily irritated. but... i am still someone of urs. mus u treat me so shabbily? shouting into the phone jus becus i asked 2 questions. hanging up the phone jus becus i asked 3 questions. i have changed my attire for u. i am prepared to change my hair colour for u. i am closing my ear holes for u. i am quitting my job for u. wad else do u want? wadever that i want, i carn have it. u wun accomodate me. wadever u hope to get from me i will do it although it may take long. i still do it. although i like the wae i am after i change but u dun like wad can i do? how i wish to let u noe, my parents cares for me. how i wish to let u noe.. i have tried my best already..............

i am too tired to carry on thinking. to u. i am nothing. and it stays like this. i dunno wad to do animore. someone. pls. help me.