have alwas been wanting to post but was simply too lazy slacking around at home , sleeping lazing around. haven't been going out with friends so often. didnt went to work as often this week too. too tiring? sometimes, i really do need a break. today's post, gonna be alot of my tods my tods my tods. if dun wanna read nvm one. i hope it'll still be a happy post. ^^

after watching ying ye 3+ 1 { yea i know i`m slow. i dont wanna wait so watch it when all is loaded marhhhs! } i really felt alot for this show.. if you guys did watch, you would know.. sacrificing so much for the other party, really touched me alot. it made me recalled alot of stuffs which i dont wish to repeat animore. the focus will be on life. like my first sentence in this post. who knows when we might go up there? i mean, if. not being pestimistic but, this is part and parcel of life that we really cant expect. right now, i believe, mani of us have mani things we wish to do, but we dare not do and shy to do. this includes me of course. what is it tat we wanna do and finish up with the lifespan that we have. if there is a time limit known to us, and let us know how long we have left in earth, i bet mani of us will do the things tat we all love and will not regret. sometimes, i find myself, too shy, too not daring to really do some heartfelt stuffs. yes, i appear fun, crazy and daring to shout here and there. what i meant is, really to do stuffs that touches others and stuffs that i really want to do.. i really wish to cherish and spend every single minute wisely. not doubting, i still need time to sometimes take a breather and rest. but i really am happy. the joanne now, really is fully utilizing her time. my next goal, is to volunteer for stuffs and to get back to god. and the next goal in the line is to earn more money, study hard and to find my true love by 20. BY 20.

actually, i have given up on BGR after being with my previous boy. i am really upset and felt really useless after being with him.. i gave up on wad are promises, what are eternity, what is " i love you " , " i miss you " .. i also given up loving. being loved. i have changed my style of doing things already. last time, yes. i really yearn for love and being loved, cuddle etc. now, i often ask myself.. is it worth it to be in love, and to end it again hurting myself all over again? like a chinese saying " 天下无不散之宴席" when you meet, there will be one day we will part. so why love in the first place. i know we ought to try. i know i ought to pick myself up. i`m 17 this year. next year 18. and i realise, time.. past so so so fast. i remember the time i came out from primary school to decided to go east spring or junyuan sec. and now, i`m already in the tertiary school. time really past by fast. i ought to cherish. so it's not tat i have another feeling for another guy or wad so ever. but it's purely, i do not wish to enter a relationship for the time being. i really dont wish to end certain things. it really hurts to think of endings and departs all these.. i need time to really get over my own heart knot.

i really really wish to stay happy de lehh. but all these sort of feelings alwas come back to me. i wanna go sleep already lurh. this few days alot of watching drama, revision have been going on. wanna go shopping soon. have to start work soon too! ^^

bye! pls tag ppl. i really very sad to see no tag.