![]() hello.. yea. haven been constantly blogging. i use to blog when i have a problem / when i am feeling sad. as i come to the kingdom of God this is becoming rare already. i blog becus i want to update my life most of the time... well, been doing alot for the KOG, be it in growing myself, growing my people, pushing myself, moving forward.. i`m trying my very best already. sometimes, i really cannot do some stuff, but for God, i held on with it and moved on... in some period of my walk, i feel the utter bitterness in some issue. but i have no wish to elaborate.. but i believe,God will do his best to deliever me out of thhe problem i faces... as i walk on with God, there's alot more that God tested me in.. prune me in, mould me in... sometimes i even feel like telling God " God, take me away, i dun wish to go on.. " for the process will not be easy.. but you know, i wanna praise God for he is always there for me.. situations will change, circumstances will change. But my God will not change. now and forever... went for leadership camp, i really learnt alot, i really want to apply alot. to dream bigger for God, to have the heart and desire to win much more for God.. for God didnt give me just 10% of what he can give.. but God gave his 100%.. yet i`m only giving back God less den 10%... great contrast? yupps. i`ve failed. i told God in the camp, "God, i`m not gonna waste my lifetime satisfying my own needs, in my comfort zone, Lord, i know i`ll face much more than this if i want to give it my all. But God, i`m gonna do it Big for you Lord! " the Lord spoke to me so clearly about what i can do for him and what i can do beyond my limits for him.. to go beyond my own strength for God... he's so amazing... God spoke to me in so much area of my life, that i feel so naked in his eyes.. * not literally naked* but i feel so transparent when i faces him.. oh Lord, i`m trying my very best to do what i can for the task u gave; Lord, it's not easy.. I need you so so so much right now... i dunno why, but God, refresh me now.. I just need your presence in my heart all the time.. Lord, i dunno what went wrong, i dunno what's in my heart.. Lord i dunno wad should I do what should I not do... Sometimes, i`m at such a lost. For God, i dunno how to handle at all.. I feel inadequate to do much for you.. But Lord, I made a covenent with you.. I dunno how to hold on Lord... It's hurting.. it's painful, it's not easy Lord... I... need.. You... gtg guys.. jiayou. xoxo |
![]() profile I`m simply a girl with the name of Joanne Tan. I am a child of God, and I simply love God with the bottom of my heart. I`m turning 18 soon in oct-7-2009. I realise alot more when I come to recognise his voice. The voice of truth, courage and love. My life took a turn on the 17th of May 2008.with the addition of joy through my loving CG & unit. That's when i realise that there's so much more to life, than the life that I've found mine, what about you? Goals- - Grow myself to a CL. - See people's life transformation. - To lift Jesus's name on High. speak out! - way back - November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 Precious ones- amanda cassandra Daamanda Edwyna geckting Hui Fang jenny Marinne mei yi Naemah pei qi shirley Wei ru Wen Hui credits skin by: Jane |